analog 12: Fri, 3 Oct. 1997

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Date: Fri, 3 Oct. 1997 10:30 p.m.

i actually got up in the morning today! i cleaned my house like a maniac. i did 6 loads of laundry! i'm tired in a good way now. i ordered a pizza., now i'm watching star trek.
i was sent 2 URLs to 2 interview/reviews about me when i was in my band The Blue Up? here they are :
1) http://westnet.com/consumable/1995/08.19/revblueu.html
and
2) http://www.daily.umn.edu/ae/Print/ISSUE5/cosp.htm
yes, my name was Rachael then. it is Ana now. :)

i'm noticing that a big issue that is crawling under the surface of this "live cam thing" is CONTROL. of course, this whole cam phenomenon is too new to really get a get step back and see what it's about. well, it's about a myriad of things. some far too sticky and messy to even be described logically or concisely.
but one that is a biggie that bopped me on the head for the last few days is CONTROL.
some people like the fact that they have no control over my life, they seem to like the aspect that they don't know what will happen next. but some people go BESERK over the smallest thing like my lighting. they say "move this way, move that way, your lighting is too bright i can't see you,your lighting is too dark i can't see you, your hair is messy, is that all i'm going to see? you are always asleep! you never sleep! why don't you smile? wave at me, change your caption" and they get VERY irate that they have no control over what i choose to do.
while MOST people get that this is my life(and THANK YOU TO THOSE WONDERFUL BEINGS!) some are just grating on my nerves(especially in irc) and they just can't seem to understand that just because i'm on the net that doesn't mean that it isn't my life. and if i choose to have the weirdest lighting(i.e. too bright) that is my perogative. i'm not dumb and i know what i'm doing(i think!).
you do not have the right to say whatever you want to me in MY irc channel. it is like my house. it is not a "freedom of speech" place. i'm there to have fun, and if u are no fun TO ME, than you'll be kicked. just as any guest would be kicked out of someone's house if they became annoying and insulting. i'm not "fair game".
just wanted to let that be clear:) so happy happy joy joy in irc from now on, eh?

thank you to everyone who submitted all the beautiful pix for anapix. once again, it brings me such happiness to see new ones everyday. and if you could, in any way, send me a print out of your art and send it to my P.O. Box in the faq, i'd be more than grateful! :)

i'm working on a design for a t shirt for anacam! and i'm working on a single cover for "please god". i'm going to start a phone line where u can speak to me(for a fee, to help pay for my cam expenses). yes! i'll even read your tarot cards! (i'm very good at that, no lie). it won't be a sex line. but i'll read ya some dr.seuss! or sing for you or something! gee, the possibilities are endless!i could play you old blue up? cds over the phone. or perhaps you'd like to hear the sound of my head hitting against the phone? will do! LOL :)
would u be interested? or is it just a stupid idea? heheee:) i guess i'll see in a few weeks....

now i'm watching david letterman. hmmm, what else. oh ...so so much! but hey, i'm tired and i'm going to go get ready for bed now. it'll be nice to wake up to a cleaner house :)

oh, i'm still looking for a loft space in LA, if anyone has any concrete leads... (and that's L.A. not san francisco, not santa monica, not seattle, not texas, not florida, not liverpool. i'm talkin' 'bout rotten los angeles! yay!)

love and laundry detergent,
ana

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