analog 1: Thu, 4 Sep 1997

analog

Date: Thu, 4 Sep 1997 19:17:19

i've decided to write journal entries about my webcamness wrrrld. this is my 1st ANAlog.

i've been on the net now for a week. it's a freaky and cool thing! i don't know if i should pay attention to the cam or not. today i'm not because i just need a break and to finally get caught up on some email. and my house is going to the pits! i have so much laundry and dishes to do! eek! i can't even get connected to my temperamental server now anyway. i keep crashing every now and then. my computer says "timed out reaching server".

the sun is starting to go down. it was a gorgeous day, but i didn't make it out side because of all my one-fingered typing and multitasking. i just sent my webpage designer a whole bunch of crazy writings i did this year. i had given them to my record label, radioactive, a month ago, to put up, but they haven't yet, so i hope they'll make it on somewhere, and i hope you will enjoy reading them and not crucify me or send me stupid sick email because of them.

after the 1st 4 days of being on cam,. i went on vacation for a week, and it was so weird 'cause for the 1st few days of trying to unwind i kept seeing the monitor of myself in my head as i'd try to go to sleep. it was so crazy. y'know how things get all surreal and thoughts make no sense right when you're on the verge of sleep? well, i was pulling down menus for my thoughts! and i was moving pictures over in my mind with a cursor and resizing them! i am truly "borging" with the computer. help! i'd go out to dinner and all i could think of is "wow, that ketchup bottle would make a good cam shot!" or "too bad i don't have the cam to show how the light is hitting those rotating pies in that display case!"

i hope after awhile these thoughts will just settle down. it's really ultra strange to watch another woman on cam while they are watching you! the technology of all of this is so astounding mindblowing , yet so incredibly archaic at the same time. people staring at computers all over the world waiting for minutes for a picture to refresh. it's endearing and insane. i like it. i'm glad to be a part of this whatever-it-is. it'll be neat when the technology gets faster, and it'll be neater still if i can get my server to stop crashing!

it's eerie to sleep with the cam on you. i'll wake up and see it shining and blinking at me and it's like a dream. i can't wait until someday i have a bigger apartment so i can do something with all of these wires crisscrossing on my floor, and i can put the hardrives in a seperate room so i don't have to listen to them constantly humming. also, i want to get some of those special sheilds that you can put on your monitors so the rays don't harm you. i'm sure all this electricity around me is affecting my body. i feel a lot less grounded. this calls for more grounding bubblebaths!

let's see, what else? oh ya, please please keep your emails down to one a day 'cause i get so many. if you have something to say, compile it all into one email instead of sending me 15 one-liners. right now my email is a little f**ked, so i'll be reading the mail, but i won't be replying. i'll let you know when i get that fixed. thank you so much for all your wonderful supportive email, it really has made me smile :)

i think i will have a single out in october, and my cd will be out in january. but that is tentative. i don't have any real audio clips of my music except for what is at the radioactive site.

well, that's it for now! i will maybe attempt to clean my house now! or something!

love, ana