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[03 May 2001|01:02pm]
ok, i'm up i'm up i'm up!

[04 May 2001|02:02pm]
difficult day

[06 May 2001|09:29am]
things are better.
i gotta go eat breakfast now with jason's family. i'll be back very soon :)

nominate LJ! [06 May 2001|03:11pm]
The Webbies

i'm not sure this is even the right place to post this or not, but i just noticed that the voting for the Webby Awards is open
( http://www.webbyawards.com/peoplesvoice/ )
, and that LJ isn't one of the nominees in the Community/Services/Personal Site categories (Blogger is nominated under the Personal Site category and is currently in the 2nd place with 20% of the votes there).

However, you can "write in" a site you think deserves to be nominated (and they check to see if the site you suggested exists or not)

nominate Livejournal :)

i copied this from shari's LJ who i found through blonnie's LJ :)

and this i found at mistere's
http://www.cnn.com/2001/TECH/science/05/03/atmosphere.cleanser/index.html

[06 May 2001|04:20pm]
hello
i can't type much cause now i gotta clean a bit
before all my fave tv shows come on :)
i had a weekend long full of eating cause it's was jason's aunt's birthday
talk about FOOD
greek buffet
i'm hungry again just thinking about it!
*drool* :)

[06 May 2001|06:17pm]
if i put a black sheet on my bed , the picture size is: 12.7 KB
if i put a white sheet on, the same picture from the same angle with the same lighting is:
10.6 KB

i thought the the picture size is supposed to be smaller the more black is in it...hmmmm.

i'm watching futurama and cleaning ( sort of )

[07 May 2001|01:29pm]
i went to see a psychologist today. i have a psychiatrist but not a psychologist. so i gave her my "jennifer tilly on speed" version of my life and thoughts and family and she liked my energy and said she found it delightful :)
so..i see her next thursday and we'll see how it goes :)
damn, it's expensive, tho...$115 for a 50 minute session.
things i wanna talk about is my relationships with all of my family members and just a whole bunch of stuff that is really hard to explain, or that i can't explain because it would say things too personal about my family.
i WISH i could type it all here, 'casue it's all very interesting.

i need a coke

[08 May 2001|01:32pm]
a friend of mine named brook came over yesterday.
i had way too much coffee and chocolate
it was wonderful :)

ana2.com [08 May 2001|02:50pm]
new in the archive/arcana at ana2.com:
pages 102-108 :)

[08 May 2001|06:29pm]
yep...i'm cleaning...

[09 May 2001|11:12am]
hey...i'm not much in a typing mood, as u can see :)
which means that a typing rampage is right around the corner :)

www.hereandnow.net [09 May 2001|12:13pm]
saturday is their final day on the internet!

[10 May 2001|11:58am]
today will be the third day of me not taking neurontin, which i take for anxiety.
and i am still only taking one .25 mg of xanax a day since a few months ago, as oppososed to 4.
if i successfully make it off this, then the only drug i have left to get off of is prozac, which i take 60 mgs a day of.

i moved my bed from the middle of my "livingroom" to the middle and against the windows :) it'll be too cold to have a bed there during winter, but right now, it's wonderful. :) i still haven'y figured out where i want everything ELSE to be in relation to my bed..and since my cable tv will be ending soon, i don't know where i'll put that or if i'll just start watching videocassettes. i'm trying to pare down my options so that i will focus more on painting, sewing, writing, and photography ( cam, digital, and polaroid ).
oh ya...and excerise :)

i have more to say but it's all about rearranging my furniture and the reasons why.

also i want to stop surfing the internet as much as i do. i don't know how successful i'll be at stopping that :) one thing at a time :)

[10 May 2001|12:19pm]
the very newest camcorder that i bought is now broken, which leaves me down to one camcorder working and 3 to get fixed. oy.

"too cute to live!", exclaimed stacy the birthday grrl of 30 :) [10 May 2001|12:53pm]
http://www.livejournal.com/talkread.bml?itemid=3817240

[10 May 2001|01:12pm]
does anyone know where i could get 4 big cement blocks that i could put my bed on to make it higher?

and...

i need something that keeps my spine straight while i type on my bed from my bed. hmmm.

i'm cooking swordfish

and what's that thing so that u can have breakfast in bed or a table to put stuff on that goes on your bed?

[10 May 2001|09:48pm]
thank u for all the info, i now know about cinder blocks and other things like staining concrete floors ( pretty! )
i did rummage up a few smallish cement bricks and i have my bed precariously on them. tomorrow jason will help me get it better. i think it's ok for tonight.
another cool thing is maybe i will get 4 chests of drawers and put my bed on that, then underneath my bed will serve a useful purpose.
i'm watching TLC about mummies right now.
oh...and deiter and pooka are both able to jump on my bed :/
but the wuzzler can't get up here.

[10 May 2001|11:40pm]
i have a damn big bed.
i'm watching letterman.
thank u universe for my cool life :)

[11 May 2001|01:35pm]
if i don't get outside and walk today i'll be very pissed at myself.

i defintely need to shake up my body and soul with some wind and sun and NOT think about cleaning or my cam. i have been trying so hard to get my house and cams situated so that all will live in harmony to the point that it is disharmonious.

to be on cam 24/7 (and have it pointed all the time at the point of interest..let alone making it look nice in any way ) or just to have your cam ON 24/7 is not as easy a thing as most people would think.
my brain now struggles with wanting to explain this clearly now and just saying fuck it.
i choose to say fuck it for now. but someday i'd like to write that all out thoroughly and put it up on my site...absolutely every detail that goes into this and all i know so far about cams and setups from my trials and errors so far. yes, i shall, then be done with it. but not now.

i'm watching hereandnow.net for the first time in eons since it's in thair last few days of broadcasting. i think about what a strange ride it's been for me and my friends in this camworld..watching things come and go...guessing what the future will bring. hereandnow sure did stay up a lot longer than i thought they would and i have to hand it to erik vidal for being so damn tenacious about it.
he turns 25 today and i'm sure, when he turns 30, he'll want to kill himself over the money that he lost that he put into his project...but at the same time i hope that he will be proud that he dared to dream so big despite any logic. he hung on until the very end and it's gotta hurt to let it go, but i doubt we've seen the last of him! being the kind of person he is i'm sure he'll be back in another form on the net someday. i hope he will be anyway, i'd love to hear what he has to say about all this in retrospect. maybe he'll write a book about it. I'D buy it :)

hereandnow will always be a mostly good memory for me, since i was there from the beginning, and i visited them, and i was also part of their site for awhile...but what i miss most now and will always miss is the conversations that lasted for hours that i had with erik vidal on the phone in the middle of the night.
and we'd dream and plan and wonder about the whole cam thing and where we thought it would evolve and where we wanted it to evoilve and what position we wanted within the whole thing, what we wanted to get out of it, what we wanted to give back, all of our reasons for getting into this crazy thing in the first place.

i watch the 2 people on hereandnow.net right now...and i do not know who they are. and i wonder where they will be a year from now.

my brain is going 6 billion times faster than i can type, so only the most obvious of sentences are making it into my fingers to be typed.

it's such a time of beginnings and endings. jennicam turned 5 without me even realizing it. i wonder where jennicam will be in another 5 years...i wonder where anacam will be.

for the first time last night i actually had the 1st inkling of a feeling about how i could feel about shutting anacam down someday. i don't think i WILL, but anything could happen.
i wondered what i'd do if i didn't do this and for the first time i had an answer...i would TRAVEL. i would get rid of most of my stuff and travel all over the world. most likley i would still want to be connected to the internet to share it all with u :)

i would like to travel without having any sort of plan of where to go or what to do. no agenda but to explore.

i have really explored the whole psychology of the internet now for over 4 years...i'd like to explore the earth now in it's physical reality. and learn how to manage to energy of it all as it moves through me...soemthing that has always scared me but intrigues me.

maybe it's just spring. i'm all antsy :)

and a few of my fave livejournals are going caput....myredself and faeriefatum.

soon will be the time to write music again, and paint and sew stuffed animlas and clothing. and now i even want to make my own furniture and dishes as well as house.

but as soon as i get it perfect, i'll probably be somewhere else already...
all i know is that i am ready for a change in my life now again. and let it be a HAPPY change and not full of any anxiety whatsoever.

just as i evolved past anavoog.com...i'm now evolving past anacam.com and i hope that both will evolve with me....i'm pretty sure it all will mesh in somehow..it always does :)

and on that note....
i'm going out for a nice long walk...
and happy birthday erik vidal...may your future projects bring u fulfillment

p.s. : this is the first paragraph of this entry but i'm pasting it down here since it's the most boring part of this entry:

"i put my only camcorder that still works onto my 1st tripod i ever got because it's the only tripod that i can easily move around cause it doesn't weigh 7,000 pounds and it has smooth action so i can point it exacty at what i want to point at down to the last centimeter. it's the only tripod that i've ever liked. i wish i knew what kind it was so i could get more. i have so many tripods and all of them suck. i am still on the quest for the perfect tripod which is like the quest for the perfect red lipstick.
i think now that i have it on this tripod again, i'll be on cam more because i won't have to use a massive wrench to point it in a different direction."

what cams do u check up on every day? [12 May 2001|11:35am]
first thing i go to see stacy
http://www.atomcam.com

then i go see jennifer
http://www.jennicam.com

i also visit:

isabella
http://www.isabellacam.com

rainer:
http://www.rainer3.com

melissa:
http://www.beautifultoxin.net

meredith:
http://www.camgirl.com

and shannon at kringcam shoes promise:

http://www.shannonkringen.com/kringcam.htm

mistere! [12 May 2001|01:08pm]
thank u for the mother's day card! :))))
{{{{{{{{{{{mistere}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
u are the best child a mother could ever want :)))

mistere:
http://www.beyondzero.org/cam/index.html

[12 May 2001|01:58pm]
i didn't know the windows real media player will play everything on your computer in order. sweet :)

also, anyone know which camcorder has that mirror effect thing? know what i mean?
like all the videos from bands from the 70's had?
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[12 May 2001|02:01pm]
i can wiggle my ears :)

[12 May 2001|02:29pm]
i am gonna do a cover of vangelis' song "one more kiss dear"
from the bladerunner soundtrack!

http://www.engelen.demon.nl/blader.htm
u can hear it there and see the lyrics :)

[12 May 2001|02:50pm]
what could be better than smoking a certain thing and listening to the andrews sisters? :)
altho i didn't smoke anything, i don't have any and i wouldn't even know how to get it! :/
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how do i join the "whitelight" LJ community? [12 May 2001|03:02pm]
???
i love it!