i was being searched for by an enemy so that i would be destroyed.

i had an informal wedding with cris that i wasn't aware was going to happen. no one i knew was there. i was given a scarf to interpret our love, as our vows, it was purple flowers with green leaves...but then i lost it? and i was given one with a huge red castle with a red moat and 3 red birds on top with fire coming out from behind them. and i was disturbed by this, and what does this mean? i was taking too long so someone said "passion" and i said "oh ya, passion...which is a good thing but the scarf still said more and disturn=bed me". when i was shown the flowered before it was very complex and it was hard to pick the major cluster out in whuich to talk from. it was also so beautiful i thought i wouldn't be able to say anything and only cry. i just wanted to say, " the flowers are so beautiful. something powetic"
but i said "purple's power, green is health and money" and went on to say why purple was only for nobility at which point it was kind of unromantic of me to say and then i lost it? or somebody handed me another one that they thought was the same.
i will have to really think on this one. of somehow, i am screwing things up by intellectualizing too much or straying off the subject? or trying to describe something that cannot be described?