7.2.1991 12:43am
i fell asleep for awhile with the light on with cris and then woke up now to wash my face, etc. he's still asleep, the lovely thing.
had i dream i was lighting ten candles in this room. each had a meaning (one for balance, etc), but they kept going out at the fault of the candle or a draft or a ghost. i felt a ghost or an evil prsence. i kept relighting the candles. it was in an old bedroom, the TOP floor of the house. some people were with me and they thought it was the devil to do magic and the devil was putting out the candles. i think ed said something stupid to me like "witches do witchcraft" and i was like, "duh!". someone fell asleep but they awoke to see a grey angel of a child sitting on the dresser. but no sooner did they see it did it disappear into thin air, and when it disappeared this person said it made the sound of a stone being thrown in a puddle, which somehow seems righ now that i dreamt of that before but i don't know what.
so then i said,"maybe it's the ghost in this room finally being released" and with that i felt what it would be like to have your soul released and the word released over and over. the white outline of my soul going into pure white light, my arm soutstretched back and i'm smiling, sailing into the light. then i go back to normal and light the candles again.