6.23.1991 11:02pm
i just got back from practice 1/2 an hour ago. practice was great today and friday ( today is sunday ). we get along really well and we have so much fun. i still wish i didn't have to play guitar , tho. my voice is getting stronger. i still haven't gotten my guitar sound down though on my new guitar. we are so artrock now. but 2 minutes long purepopartrock songs. it's so funny. nick said he sent my contract a week ago so maybe i'll get it tomorrow. i have to make the cover for the LP and CD ( and cassette ) and do lunatik's business card and new summer flyer. i'm going to go to my mom's the 3rd-9th of july if we don't get a show at the uptown. we cancelled a show we had today and boy am i glad! it was the "no time for crime" community festival in whittier park. it was so BAD. totally bad rap track shows and children. lisa raye got guilted into still doing it so i went with her to give her support and see what we missed doing. when i went up to see her some guy goes " cyndi lauper!" and i turned around and said "CYNDI FUCKING LAUPER??!! is that as original as you can get??!!?" and he said " kiss my ass!" and i said " NO- YOU KISS MY ASS. " end of subject

then renee came to pick me up downtown. she said she'd seen grant hart walk into the cairo restaurant. so we swing around and i went in there to ask if we could buy our tapes from NOW back from him. he said "but they're in a vault that he has to ask a guy from california to get into". and then he starts on the "john kass owes me $1,000" bullshit. and i say "look this is none of my business and i don't know what the hell any of this is about...did you tell joh kass the amount he would owe you when he agreed to put out the EP?" grant didn't answer and was vague and wouldn't look me in the eye when he talked. i shook him by the arm and said, "grant,i want to work this out! i always feel you hold us responsible for this and we were just the musicians" he said we'd work it out---"just tell john kass about the money". and i said "OK but he doesn't have any, you know how small labels are...he hardly breaks even".
i hate being in the middle of this BULLSHIT. and i yelled at him as he's halfway down the block " This whole thing gives me a stomache ache!" so my adrenalin was flowing for hours after that, well into practice.

so it's weird how i feel about life lately. i have more energy than usual for band things and i'm more and more bored at work. my room's a mess. i mean, if i think about it, everything's a mess. i'm just trying to regain and retain my "fool" from the tarot outlook on life. LA-DE-DA. speaking of, i bought the La's tape and it's great and i the Darkside which is ok but i got it for free. siouxie and the banshees new one i love, too. they're coming here august 1st on the lalapalooza tour with jane's addiction, living colour, ice-t, henry rollins band, butthole surfers. i'm going to go keri, cris, jill. cris and i got invited to the shocker of the summer : MARY QUINN"S WEDDING! july 26th. she's going to be beautiful!
did i say we got a show at the 400 on the 14th with the wahini's. ed's girlfriend is warming up for me. so hard to decide who should warm up for you when you used to headline then were gone for 3 years.
triple planets are in the sky. mars (energy), venus (love), jupiter (expansion). must be where i'm getting my energy "NRG" (xtc) yayaya. ciao