1.22.91 12:26am ( 1.23)

So much has happened. Brian said he would quit of Renee remained in the band. She was very open to my suggestions and I felt great about it. So today, after about a week, Brain said he will quit, but there are no ill feelings. So now it's all female again, which I am happy about. I seem to feel which way I should go with the band now. I'm taking some time off to write some new songs, but I've been using all my spare time painting murals at lunatic. I finished the windows today.

War in the Persian Gulf broke out on the 16th as we bombed Iraq and continue to do so everyday.
Life's been pretty weird for everyone I know. So much change. But I feel good about it, except for the war ( duh. ) I watch the news all the time.

It's been almost a year and a half since Midnight Music ( a label that Robyn Hitchcock was on and Throbbing gristle , too..of all the bizarre things. Nick said Genesis P. Orridge is a pretty normal guy when going over 2 his house)said they'd put my record out. I called today and bitched. Roundtrip airfare to London is $444 on Northwest. I have exactly that amount from my $200 from Mom for Xmas and $250 I earned so far from Lunatik, so I've been thinking about that today.
I owe $276 to the governmant for taxes. That pisses me off. The world is fucked. Male oriented dumbfucks. I make 25 cents more than minimum wage ( $4.50) and they want to take MY money??? And they're dropping bombs by the hundreds at one million bucks a piece in Iraq over some fucking oil.
I wish i wanted to write all this down..what's been going on right now with the war, my life, the band, what I'm learning, my dreams, etc.
My mind is whirling with the media.
It's too nauseating if the media is telling the truth on how america feels about the war. It's so futuristic, so cold. so commercialized.