[17
Dec 2001|02:16pm]
[ mood | worried ]
oh argh....usually
the geek squad fixes my computer for free but this time no one there remembers
that so i am going to have to pay $164 for them to come out here and then
whatever addition cost for what they fix. oh maaaaaaan. i am so hugely bumming
out on that :/
but they should be here in about 20 minutes so i hope my cam will be back
up today. oh man oh man.
also today the fix it guys are comiing to put that insulating plastic wrap all over my windows. so...lots going on here today. hectic. expensive.
i have
to trust in the universe that everything will be ok. ooooohhhhmmmmmm.
[17 Dec 2001|03:10pm]
fixed :)
and i finally got the goo off of 30 bottles ( and two red ) and i have them all lined up on my windowsill and it's so pretty :) i hope that the fix it guys can put the plastic insulation stuff over the bottles so i don't have to move them. i've smooshed them all the way up to the windows.
i hope
those guys show up today so i can get all this stuff over with.
[17 Dec 2001|04:12pm]
i've only sold 4 things so far at my cafepress stores ( which you can get
to at http://www.ana2.com/anamart
). is it that the stuff is 1) too expensive or 2) it sucks and is ugly 3)
or both ? 4) some other reason
please
gimme some feedback so that i can make better merchandise you would be more
interested in :)
sweaters for the muffin-poes [17 Dec 2001|04:52pm]
when i get more $, i must get three pink sweaters for the moosh factories
:)
oooo :) i found this little blue sweater on the ground the other day (i washed
it, of course) and i put in on pooka just now and he is SO CUTE in it! and
he seems really happy and snuggly :)
i guess
the fix it guys are not coming over here today like they said they were gonna.
all that waiting around for nothing.
WHAT A SUCKFEST. [17 Dec 2001|05:35pm]
[ mood | enraged ]
[ music | the sound of god laughing at me. ]
OH MY
GOD I CANNOT FRIGGIN BELIEVE THIS!!!!!!!!! I MOVED MY COMPUTER 6 INCHES AND
NOW IT CANNOT FIND THE NETWORK CARD AGAIN!!!!!!!! THE EXACT SAME PROBLEM!!!!!!
I JUST PAID $164 BUCKS TO HAVE THIS PROBLEM FIXED ONLY HOURS AGO!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT TO SCREAM! I WANT TO CRY! MY STOMACHE HURTS! I CANNOT DEAL WITH THIS!
I AM SO UPSET! I NEED PRIMAL SCREAM THERAPY!!!!!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THERE ARE NO WORDS TO DESCRIBE HOW FRUSTRATING THIS IS!!!!!!! THIS IS MY WORK!!!!!!
I NEED MY COMPUTER TO WORK!!!!!!! IT CANNOT GO ON LIKE THIS!!!!!!!! PLEASE
GOD SEND ME A SONY VAIO!!!!!!!!!!!! IF GOD TRULY EXISTS A SONY VAIO MUST DROP
FROM THE SKY RIGHT NOW OR A SWEAR I WILL PRAY TO ZEUS TO KILL ME AND PUT ME
OUT OF MY MISERY!!!!!!!!!!!! I WISH I HAD A XANAX!!!!!!!! I WISH I HAD MONEY
TO BURN!!!!! I WISH MY DOGS ALL HAD MATCHING PINK SWEATERS AND I HAD A 6 PACK
OF BEER! I DO NOT EVEN CARE WHAT KIND OF BEER!!!!! I WON'T BE CHOOSY!!!! JUST
GIVE ME BEER!!!! I PRAY TO THE GOD OF COMPUTERS PLEASE PLEASE!!!! TAKE MY
WIFE!!!! TAKE MY 301 CD CHANGER AND DUAL CASSETTE VCR WHICH HAVE ALSO STOPPED
WORKING MYSTERIOUSLY!!!! TAKE MY DISHES!!! TAKE MY TOILETRIES!!!!! YOU CAN
EVEN HAVE MY TELEVISION!!!!! TAKE ALL MY HEADPHONES THAT ALSO HAVE ALL STOPPED
WORKING!!!! TAKE 11 PAIRS OF SHOES JUST PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT PUT ME
THROUGH THIS COMPUTER HELL!!!!!!!!!! TAKE MY STUPID CHEAP BUT COOL LOOKING
CORDLESS PHONE!!!! JUST PLEASE GIVE ME BACK MY SANITY, MY INTERNET CONNNECTION,
3 PINK SWEATERS FOR MY DOGLETS AND A 6 PACK OF BEER!!!!! OHMIGODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!%%E%$#^%#$%$%#&%$&^$&^$^%#$#@!$##$&%&^&*%^%^#$#@#$@$#@#$@$#@!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so that will become my computer for my cams. the other computer i'll sell it's parts, i guess. anyone know of a good place to sell stuff like that in the twin cities area? what's the name of that place at the U?
i have a bunch of misc. computer parts to sell.
since my computer was fiddled with after the geeksquad, i'll just have to swallow that $164. but at least they gave me a t shirt! the $164 t shirt. i'll have to frame it.
i'm doing everything i can to get the cams back up and running ASAP.
i cleaned my house like a maniac last night until 4am because i need order so much. my muscles are all sore from all that. gonna go to the store now and get food. my mom is pressing me for a date to get together for xmas. i am so not into it.
i'm
going to try to get into a good mood now and get on with my day.
i'll keep you updated on my progress as best i can.
thank
you everyone for all your advice on stuff.
let me see your wishlist! [18 Dec 2001|06:36pm]
i'm getting in a much better mood. i'm switching gears and realizing how much
i have instead of how much i have not. i am very grateful!
i am so fortunate that my cams WILL be back up and running soon. i am so very
lucky and blessed to have more than one computer so i can still write in here
when my other one is busted. i am so very fortunate that i DO have things
to sell if i needed to and was in a total bind. i am so fortunate to be living
in such a nice apartment with the most wonderful pupsters of the universe
:)
i am so lucky to have such a wonderful genius boyfriend as fetik3 who , even
tho he had to work today and then go to college for a nervewracking final
exam today...still manages to try and fix my computer and stays up well past
his bedtime last night putting my harddrive into one of his computers so that
i may still keep my business running. i love him so much :)
i am so very blessed to have so many wonderful friends in my life here and
on the net who stick by me during trial and error and all around goofiness
:)
and to all the friends who i have yet to meet i give you a future hello! :)
as my
computer has been down i have been working on the polaroid project some more
( yes, really!) and i want everyone to know that i have saved many addresses
of people who have written me or sent me something and i am going to send
you something back...altho, as you know me...that may take awhile...but it
WILL eventually happen :) i'm not very linear :)
( if you HAVE sent me something and you have now switched addresses...please
let me know your new address! )
if you are an ana2 member and would like to receive a "holiday surprise"
from me (altho...at WHICH holiday you will actually receive it remains to
be known! only to the pooka!) please email me at the email listed in ana2
with an address that i may mail you something :) i would like to give something
back for your patience and understanding while my cams are down as well as
just thanking you for helping support this project :)
also,
if you have a wishlist, please let me know...let us all know! reply to this
post with a link to your wishlist!
[19
Dec 2001|04:45am]
i was almost falling asleep long long ago but i decided to hook up my new
printer instead and now i think i've been printing for over 6 hours! i am
now totally out of ink!
wow!!
i printed out a ton of my campix and they look really great! i'm going to
make books and posters out of the things i've printed out. i'm excited! i
feel a whole new world opening up for me because of this printer! now i need
to get more ink! MUCH more ink! :)
[20
Dec 2001|12:49am]
still working on get a computer up so i can have my cams going. getting closer!
today i did a lot of art projects that i will show you soon :)
update [20 Dec 2001|03:10pm]
ok, i am 99% sure that the cams will be back up tonight. everything works
on the computer now except the mouse. and i haven't tried putting the cams
on it yet...but i don't see any reason why it shouldn't work. so when jason
gets back from work and after his work holiday party...we are gonna have another
go at it and move the computer to my house. *whew*
yesterday
the fix it guys came and insulated my windows with plastic..it's ugly but
it's warmer in here :)
i'm going to jason's now to do special surprises for him in return for him
working so hard on fixing my computer problems despite his already workaholic
schedule.
oh...and
i got a little pulley installed on my ceiling in the middle of the living
room , so i am going to experiment with getting a cam way up there ( 12 feet
tall ) for a cool arial view of my room :)
[21 Dec 2001|11:43am]
man, thsi new computer i have is LOUD. not abnormally loud...but i'm not used
to a computer with a fan in it that is working! i had stopped the fan in my
computer that died about a year ago by sticking a paintbrush through it. then
the case was left open to cool. this is probably one of the many reasons it
died...but it was QUIET! and that was god!
all night i kept waking up to that sound and being confused by it. i now remember
why i had to wear those gun silencer earphones for so long when my fan WAS
working. when i finally killed that fan, it was a joyous day. i CAN'T kill
this fan, because this is not my computer.
a sony vaio is much quieter, yes? it's absolutely imperative that i live with
quiet computers. whenever the press would ask me what was the most difficult
thing about having a cam...i would say it was the noise. truly. if anything
ever made me stop it would be because of the noise. i cannot stand the dissonant
sound of computers. especially right now when i have a bad case of PMS.
chillcam is acting all glitchy on this computer, too. like...you know when
you shut a browser but part of the images of it still stay on your monitor?
it does that. but that's not so bad.
so i painted my livingroom purple while the cam was down. surprise! how do u like it? :)
i hope that my grapefruit came in the mail today. i am yearning for it. i am having grapefruit withdrawal. i'll go to the p.o. box today, too, for those of you wondering if i have gotten your packages yet that you've sent there. i'm sure they're there. i'll get them today :)
tonight
i'm going to a surprise birthday party for my friend renee who was the drummer
for my band The Blue Up? :) she is turning 40! how did this happen? soon it
will be my turn! Carolyn is picking me up, she was the bass player. we are
all mystified by this aging thing.
there are so many birthdays right now! 2 days ago it was carolyn's birthday...a
few days ago it was eebomb's birthday and tonight she and kiitos are going
out for sushi to celebrate and i can't go because i'm going to renee's. it's
also amy's birthday ( who is kiitos ) and on the 23rd there is a dinner party
i'm going to because it's my friend Rochelle's birthday..and amy is going
to that, too. so i have many prezzies to wrap! pronto! :)
what
i have been working on so diligently the last few days, 10 or more hours per
day, is after i printed out a zillion of my campix i cut them all out. then
i also have colour xeroxs of many of my fave polaroids and i cut them out
, too. then i glued them togther into two sided trading card type things.
you wouldn't think this would take 30 hours...but it did! and i'm still not
done because i'm going to number them and sign them and draw on a few and
then have them laminated. then i'm going to punch holes in the corners and
sew some together to make wall hangings. some will just be sold singly and
you can buy as many singles as you want and configure your own wall hangings.
or use them as bookmarks, or string them around your lamps ( i'm going to
make some on transparencies) , window decals...refrigerator magnets....whatever
you can think of. mix and match and trade with your friends!
the thing that is cool about them is that they are two sided...so if you have
a wallhanging you can flip it around for a totally different wall hanging
when the mood suits you.
i have made 400 of these things! i'll show as many on cam as i can when the oppurtunity arises :)
my house
is a lot warmer with the plastic on my windows. plus i've shit all the doors
to the other rooms so no heat goes in there and stays mostly in my bedroom/livingroom.
[21 Dec 2001|12:34pm]
oops, i guess i painted everything blue!
[21 Dec 2001|01:59pm]
la la la
[21 Dec 2001|05:48pm]
i didn't make it outside to the p.o. but i did work 6 more hours on my art
project. now i have to get ready to go to my friend renee's birthday party!
aaa! crazy day!
[21 Dec 2001|06:00pm]
i just realized i'm missing FRANK #3 and
MEATCAKE # 10
horrors!
[21 Dec 2001|10:56pm]
http://www.e-timecap.com/
check out the jim woodring toys at japanese sony!
[21 Dec 2001|11:34pm]
i'm hyper from the party. i ate 3 pieces of cake :) I LOVE CAKE!
i think i soon shall crash. time for bad tv in the background and snuggling
in down comforters :)
i have not yet seen any new AbFab shows! arrrgh! i miss having cable tv.
[21 Dec 2001|11:43pm]
hey kiitos have you seen the south park episodes with "mr. hanky the
christmas poo"?
if you haven't...i think he might be your holy grail :)
( i
love towely, too :)
[21 Dec 2001|11:46pm]
pudding.
[21 Dec 2001|11:48pm]
deiter is humping the air and his tongue is curled like a tulip petal.
will the joy never end?
i think not.
i have dogs.
lots.
[22 Dec 2001|01:24am]
snow is coming.
http://www.angelfire.com/in2/belmer/
[22 Dec 2001|01:51am]
what are the top 12 actual physical things that, when introduced into your
life, changed the course of your life?
mine are (not in any particular order...and i think i might be changing this list hourly the more i think about it)
1) pink
floyd's pipers at the gates of dawn album
2) kate bush's hounds of love album
3) hitachi magic wand
4) pooka dog
5) grapefruit book by yoko ono
6) the nature of personal reality by jane roberts
7) angry women book by REsearch
8) adam and the ants kings of the wild frontier album
9) the bladerunner movie
10) the webcam (obviously)
11) tori amos little earthquakes album
12) the cocteau twins ( i can't remember the name of the album right now)
i'm gonna be spending a lot of time here! [22 Dec 2001|02:23am]
http://www.billy.nu/links/
[22 Dec 2001|03:14am]
http://www.marylen.com
which
one would you pick? i can't decide!
if only i could read this.... [22 Dec 2001|03:30am]
http://www5.airnet.ne.jp/makise/doll20z.html
[22 Dec 2001|04:29am]
what is 220000 Yen in US $?
and what is 70000 Yen in US $?
oh nevermind
i found a converter...it's 1,699.50 and 540.749
my obsession [22 Dec 2001|04:49am]
i have been a fan of this guy's doll's for years...and i discovered he's back
on the net AND selling his dolls finally! OHMIGOD!
http://photogenicdoll.4ever.cc/
absolutely incredible these dolls are! someday i will own one of these dolls.
they are my favourite! i think i like them almost too much!
i have been looking at doll sites all night long because i had a headache
and couldn't sleep. now i took an excedrin so my headache's gone but i'm wide
awake.
i am conncocting the perfect doll in my head that i will someday make..somehow.
a cross between natori's dolls and hans bellmer's...with some real doll thrown
in.
beautiful [22 Dec 2001|05:29am]
http://www.chirashiya.com/~aoi/gallery.htm
i have found the place that can make me into a mannequin! [22 Dec 2001|05:51am]
http://www.louisxvimannequins.com/
babelfish [22 Dec 2001|07:02am]
i MUST go to bed now. my eyeballs are falling out.
" from the place where you design, as for that time to be cut off and
don't you think? to the expression which does not have amiability in the long
single being good the girl the adult becoming it finishes,
It is sweet, the cotton candy of the would like to see the doing, concept,
the because time time it has done. Ocean ones with, the European type beauty
girl concept. The child it does The doing, it made the feeling which the coming
coming is done, you applied, is. Shrimp present The adult face nose upper
lip it is thin, but it is, as for the lip the tooth before the which is quite
the private hobby which is said briefly. "
[22 Dec 2001|01:32pm]
i would buy a glow in the dark fleshlight..the mouth..i've seen them at toys
in babeland in NYC and they are really wild! if only i had a penis...
http://www.fleshlight.com
[22 Dec 2001|01:43pm]
ok...up and at 'em i am. even tho i went to bed at 8am..i got up at 1pm. yep.
ready to start my day. it's snowing out. very grey. today i will clean and
work more on my anacam trading cards and wall hangings and spend time with
jason. i'm going to call him now :)
[24 Dec 2001|03:09am]
i remember when i used to get so excited about christmas. i should be sad
that i don't get as excited..i don't miss it....but i don't feel sad about
it at all. maybe that is because i still have excitement about other things
in my life. or maybe it's more like i realize that i can make every day just
as special as christmas used to be to me any time i want to. i'm not just
limited to certain predetermined days of the year.
i feel very happy right now in a much more well rounded and deeper way.
but i think that's because rochelle gave me this kick ass white vintage late
50's corset with garters tonight for winter solstice and i'm in heaven about
that. even though it was HER birthday today! i might sleep in it :) at least
for awhile :)
[24 Dec 2001|07:36pm]
i'm going over to jason's now to watch an episode of the NEW abfab :) even
though i'm not really celebrating christmas, it still feels very christmasy
and i'm in a cheerful christmas mood anyway :) i wish i had some christmas
pie! and i wish i had more carbonated beverages.
i had the best time last night at rochelle's birthday party :) she made some
brownies that were quite magical :)
happy winter solstice everyone! :)
[25
Dec 2001|05:53pm]
jason and i are making spghetti and watching the simpsons at my house. the
pups are full of xmas cheer and i even bought some xmas cookies :) we are
totally taking it easy and having a nice day. i hope you are, too :)
i'm
in an article in the chicago tribune today :) [26 Dec 2001|12:54pm]
click here to read it
[26 Dec 2001|04:38pm]
i got some new ink for my printer and three different kinds of photo paper...matte--semi
gloss and gloss...all made by HP.
i got my book today called " a bright red scream...self mutilation and
the language of pain" by marilee strong which is about cutters. i am
very interested in that since i know so many of them and sometimes it even
seems appealing to me, scarily enough.
funny thing tho is that when i opened the book it gave me a paper cut!
it's snowing like dickens out there and super cold. i'm getting it nice and toasty in here, tho :)
i'm
gonna go see if i bought the right kind of ink for my printer now...if i didn't
i'm going to scream like yoko
needing BCI-24 Black and BCI-24 Color [26 Dec 2001|04:48pm]
ok fuck. i did NOT get the right kind of ink. i have a canon bubblejet S300
and it takes BCI-24...and all that was available at target and at office max
was BCI-21...
in fact the woman at office max, who had worked there for 2 years, told me
she had never even heard of BCI-24...soooo.....i just hoped that the 21 would
also be compatible with my printer.
not so.
so...i still have no ink and i guess i'll have to order the ink online since
no one around me seems to carry it. grrr. and i'll need to get back to office
max to return all my ink. and i was so looking forward to printing on all
my new paper tonight and experimenting :(
blarg.
(*screams like yoko*)
[26 Dec 2001|05:12pm]
ok, i have many more things to play with while i wait for amazon to get some
BCI-24 black and color ink in.
sha la la
i have TINKERTOYS! ( thanks geoffrey!) 2 buckets worth! they make them out of plastic now...not wood. do they make them out of wood at all anymore?
i want to make some sort of bizarre mobile ouut of the whole thing :) i also got one of the PUR things for my water faucet which i shall now install. the water here tastes like it came straight from the mississippi, which it probably has.
i bought treats for the dogs and i still have green xmas tree shaped sugar cookies which turn my whole mouth and tongue green ( i should have gotten red! )
i bought
thsi weird lightbulb for 2 bucks that you can see on my cam right now. it
looks like a sea creature :)
[26 Dec 2001|05:32pm]
ok, i cannot get my pur water filtration system on either. i can't get my
faucet to unscrew. so.....ummmm....the next plan of action IS.....
i just
feel so weird. like everything that is mechanical in my life wants to break
or not work from the get-go. am i giving off some sort of anti-technology
vibe? i love you technology! i love you industry! please do not forsake me!
[26 Dec 2001|05:38pm]
i am so behind in reading my friend's list! forgive me!
[26 Dec 2001|05:51pm]
I am Kung Fu Master.
I like to be in control of myself. I dislike crowds, especially crowds containing
people trying to kill me. Even though I always win, I prefer to avoid fights
if possible. What Video Game Character Are You?
[26 Dec 2001|05:56pm]
i feel antsy. i was all pyched to print. now that i can't do that i cannot
seem to adjust into any other frame of mind.
if i could drive and my car worked..i would go to kinkos and laminate my trading
card/wall hangings that i am making.
i guess i will work on those more. i was adding gold paint marker and glitter
nailpolish to them last night.
i signed, dated, and numbered 393 of them...but i do not like the way that
made them look so now i am gold paint markering over that and they're looking
nicer that way.
[26 Dec 2001|06:23pm]
thanks to scarlettal i found the cheapest price for my BCI-24 ink at pricegrabber.com
:)
the
lowest prices are at a place called Provantage.com for what i need :) yay!!
[26 Dec 2001|06:32pm]
well, how bizarre....weeks ago i ordered mark ryden's new book anima mundi
with a gift certificate i had. and when i went to my account on amazon i would
see it hadn't been shipped yet. but all of a sudden it is gone. i can't see
that it has been shipped and it looks as tho i have never even ordered it!
argh. i do not remember seeing it recently at all when i go to view my account
there. i wonder what happened.
and of course i did not save my confirmation email or whatever i would have
gotten. blarg. i will email them. i hope that i find out what on earth.
[26 Dec 2001|06:59pm]
i will call my mom and dad now
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[26 Dec 2001|07:05pm]
oh shit. i cannot make any long distance phone calls. it won't let me. not
a good sign. oops.
[26 Dec 2001|07:29pm]
making a new anagram. tongue green from sugar cookies.
i wish i'd get my period already.