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my dogs save my life everyday with how much love they give
and how much they make me laugh :)


happy 1st birthday sebastian :) [12 Nov 2001|12:48am]
sebastian is a year old now :)
tho i don't know his exact day of birth..i know it was in november sometime last year :)
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[12 Nov 2001|01:24am]
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[12 Nov 2001|06:38am]
there's a really cool discussion happening if you scroll down to 12:36pm yesterday

it's 6:41 and i'm up again. i wake up 'cause i have to pee then i'm up for a little bit.
i wish i could get miss e's "one minute man" song out of my head. i liken that song...but having it in my head for over 15 hours is driving me nuts.
anyone have a cure for getting songs that are stuck in your head OUT besides going and listening to naother song?
perhaps i'll put on the goldfrapp cd. i'm glad my walls are thick concrete, i can be as noisy as i want most of the time. that's another reason i never want to move from here.


[12 Nov 2001|08:18am]
sun's coming up. i'm going back to bed


another plane crash? !! [12 Nov 2001|10:23am]
i feel really jittery now. :/

here's the new link to the anarchy bbs for those who want to know: http://www.ultrathing.com/bbs/


[12 Nov 2001|10:07pm]
it's just been a day. you know. just a day. got through it ok. how 'bout you?

[13 Nov 2001|12:01pm]
it's foggy outside and it's still foggy in my brain.
although i can feel the wheels turning overtime in the background working things out or at least trying to.
i lay in bed awake for a moment this morning thinking about this movie i want to make, and then the movie got even cooler, huger and more complicated.
you'd think that would make me happy....but now i just don't know how i would be able to create it on a low budget. but i am still working on how. and now right before i typed this is turned into a trilogy that almost might have an album that goes with and a book of photos. like bits and pieces of things that i've been working on in my head are now coming together like pieces of a puzzle rather than being separate entities all on their own.
i'm not sure i like this because it means years worth of work before i would finish something on this scale and i worry if i can keep up my interest that long. but then again, i have been working on these ideas now for a decade and i never ever get sick of thinking about them, so i think i'm alright.
now i really need to simplify it and come up with a plan. i need to map it out because it's too huge to just begin it without a map.
i get scared to start big projects like this because it means pretty much everything else in my life will not get my attention.
or maybe that is just my fear. i think it's just my fear. i can do it. when the energy starts flowing out of me that focused usually i think it spills into other areas of my life. i think...
i don't know...each time is different.

i have been depressed and stuck in a rut lately because i am too scared to get things rolling and move ahead. but i have to live my life as tho i could die anyday. and i think this is what i'd do is work on this piece. i think. i'm still working that out. either that or travel. or maybe travelling is somehow part of this piece...just a bit.
either that or travelling is me trying to get myself out of doing this piece and me not wanting to face what it is i need to face. as i have found with my recent travels, you can't run away from what it is you need to go through. i'm going to go through this process i'm going through whether i'm here or whether i'm there.

yes, that is exactly what all that was about that i haven't typed about in here much. i thought that getting out of the house and having some "new experiences" would catapult me into a new space where i wouldn't have to go through what it is i'm going through. i thought i could just decide to take a different road and that would be that.

apparently that is not the case, it would seem to be. apparently my "issues" are going to follow me wherever it is i go and there just is no "out" and there is no shortcut.

"now/here to go but through" as i say.

listening 2 miss e again
i got my "post porn modernist" book with the new extra pages in it today :)
and also annie's new book: "hardcore from the heart"
:) and my pleasure activist and cervix button :)
duckydoo got her hardcore from the heart book signed by annie herself and with annie's signature tit prints in it :) go look on her LJ for the picture :)


[13 Nov 2001|08:50pm]
ok, so far, this michael jackson special is THEE most scary, vacant thing i have ever witnessed since televangelism.
and what is up with liza minelli? yo.