annie
sprinkle, ducky doolittle, and anavoog: a sex positive seminar! [19 Oct 2001|10:42pm]
i am working on putting together a 3 day seminar with annie sprinkle (http://www.gatesofheck.com),
ducky doolittle (http:www.drducky) and i :)
annie sprinkle (http://www.gatesofheck.com) , ducky doolittle (http://ww.drducky.com)
and ana voog (http://www.voog.com):
a 3 day sex positive seminar!
with spaghetti
dinner and chocolate chip cookies cooked by me to make your tummies happy
while you take part in an inspirational , joyful, elevated event!
special prizes, free art, + make your own personal mandela and journal as
you move through this once in a lifetime experience+ more!!
who's interested? limited to 30 people
sponsors out
there? i need 3,500 bucks to make it happen!:)
it will be sex positive, inspirational and elevating and the coolest most
joyful thing ever! :)
the cost will tentatively be $100 for the whole event
the reason for this is that i want to make the group small so it can be very
cozy and intimate
if anyone has any ideas of anyone who would help sponsor this please let me know. or perhaps you would also like to do something for the seminar. i am open to ideas! :)
anyone interested? :)
[20 Oct 2001|05:48pm]
ohmigod. sally jesse raphael show wants me on! PRAY FOR ME RIGHT NOW THAT
I GET TO GO!!!!!
i need everyone's positive energy on this! i really really want to go on!
it must happen! :) they are going to call me back tonight!
[21 Oct 2001|01:14pm]
i'm still piecing together the sally show *crosses fingers*
tonight i'm
going to see tori! so all day i'll be getting ready :)
[21 Oct 2001|02:28pm]
ok! the sally jesse raphael show is a go! it's all confirmed!
i leave next week sometime and i'm not going to tell you anything more because
i want it all to be a surprise :) but i will tell you that it's going to be
HILARIOUS! :)
i don't know when it will air on televsion but as soon as i know i'll tell
you :)
[21 Oct 2001|02:35pm]
i called my dad and told him that i am not going to the funeral. it was a
very hard thing to do. but i cannot emotionally handle it at all. not just
because it's a funeral but it's because i cannot deal with seeing my mom and
then my dad stuck in between us at a time that she be about the funeral and
not about me and my mom. but i know it will totally turn into a thing about
me and my mom while we are there and there is just no way in hell i want to
go there and there's no way i should have to deal with that. i have to do
what's right for me. i know my limitations and i know what i can put myself
through and what i can't. i have limits as to what i can deal with.
i will have my own private ceremony for grace at my house where i will honour
her life and and her death and say goodbye to her and thank her for being
in my life.
she will always be a part of me.
my parents
will probably think horribly of me for this. but i have to live my own life.
[22 Oct 2001|08:43am]
secret mission
i'll be back tuesday night
with many stories and pix
:)
ana2 members:
keep an eye on cam2...i will send pictures with my wireless laptop to cam2
as i go along on my adventure.
but the pictures that it takes WILL be saved to my harddrive so i will have
lots of pictures for you to see when i return...most likely when i get back
tuesday night i'll sleep at jason's ...so wednesday you'll see me back on
cam and i'll make a really cool anagram for you and tell you about my adventures
:)
the story
of all stories... [24 Oct 2001|10:18am]
sorry the cam picture is stuck. while i was gone something bad happened to
my computer. i'm working on it! ack and double ack
man, do i ever have the story of all stories to tell you when i get enough energy to write the whole thing down. you are just not going to believe how utterly ridiculous and scathing this story is! oh my!
details to come soon...but first i need a bit more sleep and time to digest what has happened. it's a doozy!
[25 Oct 2001|12:38pm]
i'm still garnering up the energy to tell the story. it might be awhile. i
am pretty drained. so mcuh stuff going on right now in my life. i don't have
the energy to type it out. and it's freezing in my house. i have the heat
on full blast. they need to fix my windows.
i'm just gonna lay low today. i still have to get my soul and my body and
my house balanced. and that it going to take a few more hours at least of
snuggling in blankets and then some coffee.
the 28,29,20,31 i will be gone again...to tape the sally show and then to go to new orleans to visit with tori and friends. on the 31st i have no where to stay that i know of yet. i hope tori knows someone i can stay with, but if not...is there anyone in new orleans who will let me stay with them for halloween? i couldn't bear to miss halloween in new orleans just because tori would be leaving the day prior after her concert there. then i come home november 1st.
it actually snowed here for a few minutes last night. winter is right around the corner if not pretty much right here now.
a lot of change is in the air...i can tell from the wind howling and from a lot of changes i am making in my life. reclaiming pieces of me i tried to kill off.
i haven't talked to my parents about me missing the funeral yet and i don't plan on doing that anytime soon. i'm sure they are just furious with me and now i am thinking i may have made a terrible mistake by not going to the funeral, but i'm not sure yet...and i guess i'll never really know. i just try to do the best i can at the time and sometimes i do a good job and sometimes my actions are questionable.
i thought the stress of going to the funeral would break me, but now the stress of wondering if my parents hate my guts is equally worse. so i don't think running away was perhaps the greatest idea. i usually do not run away but confront things head on. but i've just had over my fill of confrontation lately. i dunno. i try my best. it's all i can do.
thank god
i had my electric blanket last night because it was so cold in here, i'm sure
it was 40 degrees. i have a broken window in here since april that my landlord
will just not fix. now i am thinking of withholding my rent until they fix
it because it's frickin' winter in here.
[25 Oct 2001|01:31pm]
i'm going to get the pictures off my laptop to make a new anagram today :)
[25 Oct 2001|05:48pm]
well, i just had a relative of mine call me and tell me that she thought it
was sacreligious of me to have my aunt's screens as a backdrop to my webcam.
i didn't want to discuss it with her and she was upset that i did not want
to "discuss" with her about why my lifestyle choices are disrespectful
to the memory of my aunt. oh yes. for real. like i should have to listen to
that AGAIN. she acted like she was the first person to ever say that so she
didn't understand why i wouldn't discuss it. she said she didn't call me up
to argue. well, no she didn't maybe...she just called me up to judge and condemn.
www.thankyousomuchforyourchristianlove.com/hypocrisy.html
i asked if if she had any other point to make or else i weas hanging up on
her. she said that i may as well hang up then. so i did as i heard her voice
raise to yell "sacreligious". click.
guess what "cousin", these things are 300 years old and i'm sure
they've seen worse things than my nude nammequins standing in front of them
( that bothered her...can u imagine? )...like maybe world war 1 and 2? which
is why the japanese family sold them for a song to my aunt in the first place
because they were impoverished from WW2. and i'm sure these screens will see
a lot more beyond our lifetimes than the horror of nude mannequins if they
don't end up in the basement of a museum for the next several hundered years
where they will never see the light of day, which is probably what will happen
to them.
does anyone
have any facilities to scan these screens so i can make a reproduction of
them before they probably get whisked away from me?
( please pray that they don't...i love them and treasure them so very much
and i love the fact that the whole WORLD gets to see them and love them, too!
)
i'm also not to mention the name of my aunt here in my journal anymore so i don't get anymore family members upset.
once again,
i am shaking. my adrenalin is shooting through my body.
the wind is howling. snow is on the way.
despite all of this and despite a bunch of other stuff that is highly stressful in my life that i also cannot talk about much i am in a pretty positive mood and have full on survivor mode on and i feel absolutely sure that my life is going in a much more positive direction that it was before. i can feel myself growing and evolving and cracking out of my constraints.
i don't know how else to put it right now.
i'm still looking through all the campix on my laptop to make a new anagram. it should be up by the end of the night.
other good
news is that i talked to my dad and although he was disappointed that i did
not go to the funeral, he still loves me and we are going to get together
soon to go to another symphony together, so that is an extreme relief to me
[26 Oct 2001|01:50pm]
ana2.com members: very cool new anagram up about my recent secret mission
:)
( part 1 )
i'm looking everywhere for the cord that connects my digcam to my computer so i can upload my pix into my computer and make part 2.
it's very grey and cold here today. i have to get to the drugstore to buy sokme bleach for my hair. then i'm going to tie lots of fabric into my hair to cover up my fuzzy roots. when i come back from tori amos new orleans adventure i'll get new extensions put in.
btw, my sally
jesse raphael story and pix and my upcoming tori adventure story and pix will
be an ana2.com exclusive.
[26 Oct 2001|05:26pm]
ooo, i got my hands on a pxl 2000 ( the fisher price film camera :)
and so i'm going to have that with me in new orleans to film!
[27 Oct 2001|03:17pm]
i'm just aimlessly and anxiously clicking links on the internet because i
am putting off packing and getting outside to buy some bleach. bad me bad.
i just want to crawl back into bed and not deal with anything.
i hate packing and flying.
it's got nothing to do with fear of flying, i just get terribly tired and
bored and antsy on airplanes, especially when i have to switch planes in the
middle of the country. that just aggravates me.
i always pack too much or too little or the wrong things or i forget to pack
important items.
we need transporters like on star trek.
[27 Oct 2001|05:19pm]
ok, i'm getting out of the house now to go buy some hair bleach. then i'm
going to tie in white strips of chiffon so it covers up my fuzzy roots. that'll
take me all night. it's 70 degrees in new orleans. i hope the magnolia trees
are still in blossom! and i can't wait to go get coffee at cafe du monde :)
[27 Oct 2001|09:14pm]
cris came over and we tried to get my car out of the garage cause it needs
to be out by 9am on nov 1st. but the battery was dead :( so i gave cris 20
bucks to buy some canles and hopefully he can get that car out of there because
i don't want it to get towed.
and we put my scooter in the hallway. i'm so glad it fits! now it will be
safe all winter long and i can paint it cool things on it during the winter
:)
got to the drugstore. got bleach. got a place to stay on halloween night. bought some halloween make up. but i'll probably just wear a mask and faerie wings and i bought this green glows in black light giant cobweb i can wrap around my body ( with a dress underneath ). then i will be a secret spy faerie making pixelvision films :)
jason just
left to go see the film k-pax with two of his friends. i'm gonna bleach my
hair now, but really i want to got o bed. so tired. so wired. so much packing
left to do.