Wednesday, August 9th, 2000
1:45a there certainly are A LOT of sock monkeys on ebay!
3:41a oh god, it's 4am again...i've been posting under the bed and i made
a new anagram. now it's sleepytime ( i hope )
5:26p i'm going outside 2 do some errands.
9:20p dog food
i just finally had the guts to taste my dog's dog food right now ( iams )...it
taste like chicken bones and popcorn.
i am wondering
if my friend carolyn would make me some homemade dogfood like she does for
her cats, if i paid her...
2:55a coffeecam
i am fooling around with a new webcam software from
www.coffeecup.com
someone sent
me the url of it
i'm trying out the trial version. i have it running now on cam4 and cam2
it has a few
fun filters :)
i just wish that u could see the countdown til when the picture will snap
and i can't seem to enter much of caption...when i hit "enter" to add a new line, the caption option turns off :/
and i wish it could send to multiple ips at the SAME TIME
then this thing would be pretty cool :)
i am hoping that if i use this coffee thing, maybe cam2 will cease ceasing.
if anyone
else decides to try this, let me know if u find any cool things u can do with
it that i'm not finding :) it's worth checking out :)
3:46p holy shit. i slept until 3:30pm! so much for getting on a "normal"
sleep schedule! i'm walking around my house in a groggy daze now...
i bit my cheek on the inside yesterday and it hurts.
i need a diet
coke...i am gonna go in search of one.
the pupsters are flying in circles making trilling sounds in honour that i'awake.
what time did u get up and what have u done so far this day?
better check
my email
1:17a i know that u could see my post of the prayer..but i have 2 repost it
again for myself...because i had my computer set at 1999 again...so i have
2 go to my 1999 calendar to see my post! so i am reposting this with my computer
at 2000 so i can see it :)
May
the Goddess of Mercy remove the wounds of our hearts. May She
solemnly protect our emergent shared-becomings. May She strengthen each
of us with the integrity of a pure, visionary love. May She leads us
through the labyrinths that keep us from seeing the holiness of Her form
and the essential joy of what lies beyond such form. In creative
breath, may She breath into each of us Her Songs and may we each sing
them with the deep respect they fully deserve.
-- Songs from the Morning of the World (*)
2:51p here's a funny site about me for prseident :)
http://www.geocities.com/theanamaniac
10:26p i think the msnbc thing that i'm in is on this weekend, the 13th...altho
i can't remember what time...just reminding anyone who could maybe tape it
for me! :)
i just bought 5 little cacti that rae so cute :) and a big big happpy fern :) i sure hope it stays happy! i want to be GOOD with plants, not kill them off!
and i had
something else 2 say but i forgot..no wait..i remember...i ate a mint chocolate
m&m blizzard :) mmmmmm :)
1:11a i got some cranberry colured microdreds from www.ragdolly.com, and i'm
tying them into my hair...
however...i am running out! ack! i must order more and then i'll have 2 have
this weird lopsided hait that isn't done!
i got lots more hair from ragdolly.com, too..but not in the microdreads
other posts:
Posted by ANA on August 09, 2000 at 04:43:35:
In Reply to:
Re: astroboy, oh boy posted by astroboy on August 09, 2000 at 03:30:00:
i am sorry if i hurt your feelings. i really just don't know what 2 say 2
that :(
as much as i'd like to, i just cannot possibly be everyone's really good friend
or read all the posts and respond to each one all the time..it's just not
physically or mentally possible for me to do that.
as i have
said many many times...
i suck at writing back, i hardly ever see any people in my "real life"..i
just am a hermit and i communicate through this medium 'cause i can do it
when i feel up to it and i like that i can have a conversation with many people
at once that lasts for days. like i am typing this at 3:30am...at my leisure
i don't like 2 talk on the phone...and...even my mom gets pissed that i don't
call her.
in fact, my dad cam ehere the other day and i didn't get together with him nor did i return his phone calls...and now just tonight i finally sent him an email.
i just blew off 4 interviews even.
u just cannot possibly know all that is going on in my life and everything that is in my head. i try my best.
i think that is why this place is cool...because it's mellow ( usually ) and we all just kind of come and go here and there is no pressure ( usually ) to be "here" any certain time or to post any certain amount , etc
ana2 is about helping to support my project of photos and words and sounds to document my life and how i see the world, and hopefully others will like that and gain some insight not just into me..but ultimately into themselves.
i see any interaction with me as being a bonus, not a prerequisite. u cannot force a friendship...especially with me...who has a different way of friendship than most people
it doesn't
say that when u join ana2 i will respond to posts. i do read most of your
posts...but y'know , sometimes i just don't have anything to say to them.
and that is not a bad thing. i still like them :)
i guess, like u said u wanted me to do...put an asterisk next to all your
posts so u knew i read them..i didn't do that. so...i don't know. what can
i say?
i think u and i just have different agendas going, obviously
i would think u would want me to respond to the posts u made in a natural
way..not a forced way...
and we DID have interaction together...at least to me..we have been interacting
for quite a long time now...and i guess our "relationship" is just
not at the level u wanted it 2 be...
i was actually very happy with it...i am sorry we are so different, because
i certainly didn't mean to hurt u...but u have 2 know that by going about
something in the way u did to try to get my attention and too become better
friends with u was sometimes a lot of pressure on me...and yes, your post
that i am replying to now, makes me feel very uncomfortable and u have made
other posts to me similiar to this...
i just...don't know what more i can say...
the kind of friends i have are the kind that we just KNOW we are friends, even if we never spoke another word to each other or saw each other ever again.
i guess under the bed has become a bit of a curse and a blessing in that people now leave ana2 because this place has it's ups and downs...and they sometimes forget that ana2 is also to support my art
it quite a juggling act, and when so much emotion goes on and drama and babysitting of analove sometimes...it can make me feel very drained and inadequate.
i just like
to focus on my anagrams, mostly
THAT is what i can give back to u...
that is what i do..
that is my major interaction
i give as much as i possibly can
and i still do believe that i AM the most interactive artist on the net :)
and i still have the unvalentine's to finish (lol!)
u think i forgot about those? :)
ana voog for president!
Posted by ANA on August 11, 2000 at 18:48:00:
http://www.geocities.com/theanamaniac