i made a lot
of cool "ana-mations" but i'll wait till the next anagram to put
them up 'cause i'm too darn tired to make links to them right now. here is
everything i've written in "read
my mind" plus some posts:
Posted by ANA on May 04, 2000 at 23:17:02:
In Reply to:
She'll always have England... posted by telic on May 04, 2000 at 21:53:11:
i just spell colour with a u, because i think it's prettier, that's all.
i visited england once for three months when i was 20.
i always hated america, i don't know why..until just a few years ago where
i cam eto terms with it and now i love it. every country has it's good points
and bad points.
at the time i was writing i wanted to live in england, i did fell that was
where i belonged. london is a great city, as u know
but cam eto
terms with being an american, and i AM quite american :) how could i give
up superamerica, GREAT food, cable tv, WAY cheap telephoen bills as opposed
to in other countries, dsl, david letterman, L.A, new youk, delivery service
and a wide variety of climates to choose to live in?
still, i'd love to live in london for a few years or maybe a decade...but
now i can't go because i have dogs
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Posted by ANA on May 05, 2000 at 21:45:50:
In Reply to:
You'll always have Canada... posted by telic on May 05, 2000 at 07:43:44:
i think i decided to start spelling things with a u quite a few years later...i'm
not really sure when.
about canada...my mom is canadian and she has lived her ( in the us ) since she was 20, but she still keeps her canadian citizenship.
:)
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Ana Voog's
LiveJournal
Tuesday, May 2nd, 2000
1:11a whew, made new anagram , analog, updated, blink, what's new...for short
sweet , simple updates on the major new things i've added lately to anacam
and ana2 go to "what's new" in the menus
1:23a he jennifer is back online! ( at least a new picture is :) yay! also,
i want 2 let everyone know that even tho i do not reply to all of your comments,
i read them and appreciate them all VERY very much :)
1:30a i just set my desk top wallpaper with stephanie from www.stvlive.com's
groovy monthly wallpaper she makes, go to her site and get it, or click on
my friends list right now and u can see it there, too :) i love her new baby
ferret she just got :)
1:38a holy shit! http://www.anarchista.com/ which used to be a very cool cam
by a very cool girl is GONE and a huge porn site is in it's place! did she
sell her domain to a porn site??? that would be so unlike her! what on earth?
1:52a i'm going 2 now attempt to get my printer running agin, so i can print
out the order form ay www.veralittle.com and order 10 or her magnet sets which
i think are beyond divine! :) if u haven't seen her set yet, u better go soon
! it is one of my faves!
2:25a ok, i've got my printer going, but i don't understand it yet, and also
all the cartrides seem to be really dried up 'cause it's not working well.
i need new cartridges. nothing is ever easy, eh?
3:15a of course, i can find instructions booklets to everything EXCEPT my
printer. i even have the instruction booklets to things i don't even own anymore!
but this printer will not workl! it keesp cycling through the colour test..using
up billions of sheets of paper. and i don't know what to do...turn it off?
yet it says NEVER turn it off if this one ceryainlight is blinking..and that
light is blinking. GOD. this is so aggravating. and even when i DID turn it
off to try to start over..then i went to page i wanted to print and it said
it was out of paper. which it WASN'T. i am beginning to think this printer
is broken...because now i remember when i had it working years ago, it also
would say i had no paper, but i did. unreal. and i wanted to go to sleep earlier
tonight. and now i'm not. oh great sadness.
5:53a well, so much for going to bed earlier each night to get back on schedule!
i got so hyper trying 2 get my printer 2 werk, and never did get it working.
it's an epson 800. then i forgot that when i'm cycling pictures with the chillcam,
if i open up the chillcam to make any changes, like change a caption, it will
start cycling from the very beginning again and i don't want that 2 happen
because i'm livegrabbing them onto my other computer so i can eventuially
have the chillcam that is cycling, on the other computer so it will not bog
down the computer i have it on right now. so...now i have made a permanent
archive cycling slideshow cam thing ( cyclecam 6 ) to ana2. it has it's own
page and own remote. i will add links to it all over the place like i have
with the other cams but i don't want 2 get into that all this hour. so for
now it's linked on the menu of ana2 and in "what's new" ...so there
ya go. just keep in mind that whenever i fiddle with my chillcam , it'll start
cycling from the very beginning again, which is why i want it on the other
computer where i won't touch it and it will cycle smoothly with no stops.
sun's coming up...and here i was getting better at getting to bed earlier
( last night i went 2 bed around 2, i thnk?) holy blarg. so that's that.
7:06a wow, just sat here and deleted 112 emails from my mailing list 'cause
they bounced back to me. ack. so after that i have 4,921 people subscribed.
sun is all the way up. jason's up doing anacam admin stuff and then he goes
2 werk. my brain isn't functioning anymore...so...goodnight...good morning
:)
3:26p i ended up going to sleep around noon. god, why do i get so hyper at
night? i couldn't stop DOING stuff. i kept having all these ideas then trying
them out, etc etc. now today i feel really woozy from my lack of sleep. i
hope 2 god now that i have had this lack of sleep i get to bed by MIDNIGHT.
that' s my goal. and then tomorrow at noon i have a telephone interview with
a new online thing called NOW. www.now.com
3:55p cloei, from http://www.nakkidnerds.com/ gave me her little frame thing
she made to put around my cam picture, but i can't get the back to be totally
transparent...i never can get it right..doing that "setting certain colours
to be transparent when using a logo" i want to make lots of cool logo
things to put on my pictures but dunno how! any suggestions?
6:26p i went off outside on a walk with jason and the dogs, i am just so overwhlemed
today by everything...
8:03p hi :) i'm back...i feel a lot beter now that i talked about what was
overwhelming me with jason and we went 4 a walk with the dogs. the dandelions
are out and i forgot to pick some on the way home 2 show u.....sorry i'm not
paying much attention my cam sright now, i just have so much on mind and 3
hours of sleep doesn't help. i just have 2 calm down and take one step at
a time and i need to get some food in me. i'm gonna look through the cam pictures
i made last night that combined two campictures together traspatent one over
the other. i got some pretty cool looking ones. so fun to combine things and
then it takes on a whole new life :)
8:44p i am now sorting through many many many campix for the next anagram,
this will most likely take me all night
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12:28a ok, a new anagram is up on ana2 with 65 pix in it. i would write more
but i swore 2 myself i would at least BE in the be at midnight and it's already
half past midnight. tomorrow at noon i have aphone interview with www.now.com
i'm kinda nervous 'cause i'm not very talkative lately. i just want 2 manically
DO things. in fact, now that it's midnight, even tho i only got 3 hours of
sleep ( from noon 2 three ) i am awke and feeling really energized to do more
stuff that i want to get done. like installing many programmes and figuring
out how to make an animated gif and scan all my photos from all my life and
type out my journals. but since i have the phone interview i better get IN
the bed now 'cause i want to be awake by 10am...or 11a, at the latest...g'nite
all u silly creatures :)
11:05a ok, i'm up. man i am tired. i'm always tired at the wrong times. i
could go back to bed now and sleep for several more hours. i yearn for it.baaaaaadly.
wanna curl up in the purple blanket and sleep and sleep. but i have a phone
interview in one hour , so i'm sort of singing ( sort of ) to try to make
my voice be less croaky. at least with phone interview u don't have to get
dressed up in anything nice! :) i just have to get "with it" because
right now i most certainly am not!
1:05p ohmigod, i am such a SPAZ! i went out 2 get some pop at 10 minutes to
noon...i ran so fast and made it back exacyty at noon
1:15p opps, hit "send" didn't mean to. so....the phone rang right
at noon and i hadn't caught my breath yet..then i told them how i forgot that
i can stream with visual and audio over with the real player, i have that
all set up again. but for some reason it would not work! so i called jason
at work because i thought i might just have the url wring! but he couldn't
get it to work, either, and now i feel bed 'cause i had the NOW people all
excited and stuff and now jason is all hyper about why the realplaer won't
work...'cause once he starts on a problem, he cannot stop thinking about it
( how i have been latel ) so finally we just said "crew it" and
they are filming the cam pictures as was originally planned....until the next
one where we had planned to use netmeeting , which i have never tried before.
i guess i was shying away from it because an interview with streaming video
and sound is still a "show' , in a way...and i like to keep my things
spontaneous. well, so....they asked me how i got started in the music biz
and my answer was SO terribly long abd involved because i refiuse to say the
sound bite version...so it's a VERY long story..i'm talking a mile a minute!
so it's somehwat of a good thing that i'm slowed down with a webcam to every
30 seconds or else everyone would implode because i am jennifer tilly on speed!
i am playing reruns of when i visted here and now on cam2. i am really into
this thing of transparent logos. god, i am a spax...so in the middle og my
long involved jennifer tilly esque sppech, she said she would call me back
in 1/2 an hour...and of course my insecurity thinks that it is because i am
such a spaz that they had to stop and were thinking "og my gd what have
we gotten ourselves into?" but....she assured me it wasn't that. i juist
wish i was in londin right now to soeak to them in person because i could
convey so mucj more that way...or maybe not...who knows! i hope i did not
freak out jason at work, the poor guy, there is always so much happening in
my life( and his! )
2:09p well, now is gonna call me back any minute....they were having technical
problems. the woman who is interviewing has this incerdible speaking voice
and it's a damn shame that they will edit her out. we have the best conversations
when the record button isn't on. then it's natural, full of humour and excitement
and not as much nervousness. more like two people getting to know each other,
like i love to do. she has a voice like that peacekeeper on farscape. i think
it would be a far better interview if they would let her voice be iin it too.
she says know one wants to know about her. i said , well , that' sonly because
people don't know u yet! and she says "oh , enough enough! " with
a laugh :) seriously , she is wonderful. i wish you could hear her. taking
away her voice is taking out 1/2 of the conversation. it's not right. she
wants me to read "beautiful monster" in the werdz/analect section"
i have read it aloud now three times to myself, and i sound lik e a dork.
i have never liked mt speaking voice especially when i am nervous. and i have
never read my "werdz" alous. i like that there is no punctuation
in them so each person will pause wherte they THINK the end of th esentence
SHOULD be. i lik ehow all the words comibine in each other. everyone would
read it diffetently depending on where u pause. i love that. i used to hate
ambiguity , now i embrace it. why? is it the best place to hide ultimately,
or is it just the best place to play? i am more intersted in how OTHERS would
say my "werdz" aloud than how I would say it. i've already said
it to myself..so that is boring fo rme. i want to hear YOU :)
3:45p oh blarg. my phone ran out of batteries in the middle of our converastion!
i hope she calls back on my other number!
4:34p ok, done with the 5 hour interview. must eat. sit on couch. soon jason
will be home. i
10:04p i don't feel very well. i have a headache and it's making me feel woozy.
11:32p still not feeling well. head hurts. i'm drinking a dr pepper. i took
an excedrin. i'm going to go order the new laurie anderson book now, it just
came out and i'm very excited about that!
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12:06a i stopped the cycle cam for a bit because i'm making some changes to
it. i'm starting 2 feel better :)
4:35p woke up at 4. went 2 bed at 6. it's so hot in here. the sun makes it
too hot in the summer and there is no circulation. they haven't turned on
the air conditioning yet. it always gets 20 more degrees hotter in here than
outside because of the way the sun hits the building. both of my computers
are working like sludge si it's hard for me to get anything done right now,
like make mp3 movies of me being on the phone yesterday with now.com. i thought
it's be a fun little mini movie ;) i a so hungry. i'm gonna go see what is
available to it , in the fridge.
5:45p my computers are really fucked up today. i have to reboot everything,
but i don't have time 2 do it right this second cause i'm gonna go out for
a walk with jason and he wants to leave NOW. so i'm sorry the camera is stuck
for a bit on the sam epicture, but i'm not home anyway and i'll fix it when
i get back, k? :)
7:25p i'm back from my walk, and my computer is all wiggy. so i've shut off
everything excet cam 5 and the streaming ( which are on the other computer
) and i'm going to defragment my harddrives to see if this will help in making
my computer not be like this. so it'll be anhour or before my cam s are back
on except for cam 5 and the streaming cam. while my computer is being defragmented
and i'm going to go sort through all my bills and hopefully get that all paid.
it's so hot outsode 87 degrees! i took the dogs are they were panting away.
we all drank a ton of water when we got in!
10:00p well, not everything is completely working yet. i think i have been
having to many programmes all working at once on my computers and they are
overloaded. i have started everything again, except cam 3 and 4 'cause i'm
gonna go to bed now anyway a9 at least be IN the bed ) so cams 3 and 4 won't
be showing much anyway. hopefuly when i wake i'll find that my computers did
not freeze up in my sleep!
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1:44a i'm laying in bed watching movies. at least i'm in bed! :) i was watching
"wolf" thee werewolf story with jack nicholson in it. i had seen
the last half of it the other day and it was on agaiin so i wanted 2 see the
first half. it was an entertaining movie :) then i got up 'cause i needed
some aspirin and it's a wee bit too hot in here. now there is one of thhose
soft porn movies on. u know..hbo. it's the first one i've ever seen where
it does the bets job pretending it's catering after women. maybe it really
was trying 2 cater 2 women...it was, after all...after "wolf" :)
some scene in a movie turned me on briefly the other day..but now i can't
think of what it was....but i knew that i liked it because i liked the characters.
it has 2 be psychologocal forme or it does nothing 4 me. anyway...when i got
up 4 the aspirin, i checked on my computer 2 make sure it hadn't frozen up.
well, it hadn't but the chillcam stopped working. it can't handle doing that
cycling of pictures for cam 5. i'm going 2 have 2 try other options but i
don't wanna deal with it right now so i rebooted my computer and came back2
bed. i'll fix it all when i wake up. if i start dealing with itnow, i'll be
up until 8am again...well, i'm gonna get back 2 watching this silly softporn
fantasy something movie because it's so damn silly i just have 2 watch it...at
least for a for a few more minutes :)
3:03p wow, i am so out of it. i feel like i'm still stuck in my dreams. i
feel like i'm made of rubber. it's 84 degrees out. i can't get cam 4 to werk.
that's all i can manage 2 type right now.
3:49p my god, i've realized that i haven't been in my chat room in eons because
i've been so busy doing stiff with my site and i had too many programmes open
as it was! so i'm going in there now ( if i can get in ...sometimes i can't
get in or stay connected..something to to with the configuartion of my dsl
) now i'm gonna go off into the hot hot weather and mail some bills nad buy
some cider. and then i'll be home to take a cold shower and i'm so freaking
out of it from taking so many xanax to go to sleep. and i still can't get
to sleep until 4am. fucking sux. and i've asked my dr. for something different.
but he has to call me on the phone before he can do tthat. when i call him
during office hours he is too busy. so he calls me after, and i always miss
the call, then i have nio number i can call him back on at all. so we've been
playing phone tage for two weeks...as the while i'm taking more and more xanax
to try to sleep, which isn't working much, then the more u taske the more
your body adapts. so i'm just fucked in and in a bad mood about that. i'm
suppoposed to only take 3 .25 mgs a day and i take more like TEN. so i run
out fast too then i worry they won't refill it if i bring it in too early.
god, i'm hyper. maybe it's the alignment of the planets. at least i'm over
being sick now. but my schedule is totally whacked. and of course, we got
about 3 days of spring here, which i missed, now it's just full force summer,
which i hate and they haven't turned on the air conditioning and i'm so hot.
and my face is breaking out like there's no tomorrow and my extensions are
all grosss and frizzy and i have tyo get them off my head pronto. but if i
do my hair will look really stupid without them. and fuck. i am in a bad mood
about this. i need more computers so i can run everything i want to run. if
my computer freezes up on me today i'm going tio scream. and that's all for
now. aside from all of this, i am in a realtively good modd
3:50p ok, fuck, i can't get connected to mirc, so fuck. that'll have to wait.
i have to go cover up my zits now as best i can then go outside to do the
oh such fun things like mailing bills and just hope to god no one will hoop
and hollar at me because if they do i'm gonna rip them a new asshole. peace.
4:50p well, my chillcam keeps doing that "illegal action" thing,
and i am so hot and cranky i cannot deal. i once again must reboot my computer.
i'm just going to have 2 reinstall chillcam. but i'll have 2 do that llater
because i was just outside doing errands in the hot waether without eating
first. and i have to eat niow and cool down before i can do anything else
5:52p argh. now i cannot even get connected on computer #2...sorry...there
is nothing i can do.....hopefully it will be back up soon...i'm eating scrambled
eggs
7:17p jason and i are gonna go ride my new scooter now that rush hour is over
and the sun is not as intense. i'm gonna go splash myself with cold water
and get dressed :) i'll be back soon
8:47p back from the cooter drive. now it's the perfect temperature in the
out..but still hot as gell in th eapt. i'm gonna watch fluffy stupid movies
now and drink ciders. i finally got a hold of mt dr. and he called in a prescription
for sinequan/doxepin so hopefully i'll sleep at a somewhat normal hour tonight!
i picked some lilacs. mmm. i ADORE lilacs! and i bought a ton more "sticker
film" for my iozone camera :)
11:32p ah., my journal is werking again hard 2 type with one hand at this
angle. at my laoptop in the bedroom. i am watching a biograghy on charles
atlas. i got my fan working. i found a brand new stuffed animal pink pig in
the trash. i saved it. i have 2 get my scooer license and get 2 the salvation
army 2 save the doomed-2-death stuffed animals and wash them and sew them
up and make them personal then send them out 2 people wo need an ana-mal friend.
call me crazy, but i believe they are real. can't type more, too weird of
an angle 2 type at///more tomorrow. i hope u have a good night
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Saturday, May 6th, 2000
3:13p hi :) i'm up :) but i'm going back into the bed to watch movies and
eat hotdogs with the dosg :) it seems that the weather is not as hot today,
so i'm thankful for that! i'll be mostly on cam 2 for the next while. th estreaming
still will not connect, so later on i'll try to get the realplayer streaming
going :)
4:28p i've gone out for a walk :) i'll be back soon
11:29p watching "sid and nancy" gonna go watch that in bed. it's
so hot in here. the fan is in the bedroom. sorry the streaming is not working
today...a problem with the server, nothing on my end. i'm sure it will be
fixed soon. jason and i went on a long scooter ride today and discovered many
new cool neighbourhoods and places to go visit later. we even went to st paul
and drove past this antique store that had this very cool 4 foor tall panda
bear ( not a real one ) that was only 15 bucks and i wanted it SO bad but
there was no way to hold it on the scooter :( i have 2 try to figure out how
to get back there and get it! watched a really cool documentary about all
forms of body art through the times and cultures. then watched yet ANOTHER
documentary on "hookers and johns" on hbo. they have MORE documetaries
about prostitution and of course i watch them all since sex work has always
been a great fascination to me from the second i was born. go figure! i ate
so much pizza today because i'm having that ravenous pms hunger thing! that's
all for now :)
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Sunday, May 7th, 2000
Time Event
1:44p i'm up. i'm so groggy. the doxepin makes me groggy. and i'm super jungry.
i gained 2 pounds in the last few days 'cause it's pms time. hungry hungry
hungry! i feel happy, tho.. jason and i are trying 2 figure out if the air
condditioning is werking or not..it doesn't appear 2 b. but it's not as hot
today , so it's ok. there is a weird depressing movie on the sundance channel
about this guy who goes from one depressing job to another. it's almost like
a documemtary. i love the sundance channel, they play some pretty weird stuff
sometimes. it's my fave channel on cable. i could watch movies for the rest
of my life and never do anything else and i'd be satisfied. i just LOVE movies.
i could sit on the couch with my pupsters and some coca cola and the sundance
channel, and that's all i'd ever need in this life. so i've got it good. 'cause
i have all that AND i even have lamos and computers and jasona nd crayons
and bags and bags full of vintage material to sew and billions of bottle of
glitter and 7 thousand kinds of lipstick that i never wear that sits there
in that basket getting older and older. i'm gonna go search for food. i'm
trying 2 stream with the real player today..but something is not right about
it. so i've emailed the man in charge of it for him to help me, hopefully
:) cam 3 and 5 are still nonfunctional, too. cam3, the black and white connectix
has a mind of it's own. and cam6, the cyclling one, i had to stop that because
it was feeezing up my computer. so much to work on anmd i wanna make a new
anagram but i am so listless today. but not in a bad way. just in a super
lazy sunday kind of way. i want ice cream
1:58p ok, i'm sorting through cam pictures 2 make a new anagram. i need to
get dressed, tho, and go outside and get some pop. i need carbonated beverages.
like now.
2:02p the movie jason and i are watching is called "american job"
it is SO harsh! one of the most harshest movies i've ever seen was a documentary
about bible salesmen. it was REAL and i swear it was so david lynch, but it
was REAL. i need a copy of that movie. have u seen "happiness"?
now THAT is THEE harshest movie EVER. and gummo is harsh too. dunno why i
like such depressing harsh movies! but i do....very strange of me
6:02p holy shit. software day from HELL. moved lots of stuff from computer
1 to computer 2...but could not move things from computer 2 to computer one.
but at least now i have all the pix i wanna cycle onto computer. so i installed
chillcam on computer 2 so i could cycle them. well, just...augh. too long
of a story , won't work. no reason that i can find. it's nice to cycle with
chillcam because all u have 2 do is select the folder u want the contenst
to be cycled. in webcam 32 u must put each picture in one jpeg at a time.
and that's 9, 313 jpgs!!! just kill me. many other things too. argh. gonna
go watch myu sunday night tv sbows with jason now 'cause i need a break from
this software hell.
8:13p i am making lots of little cool "ana-mations" for the new
anagram :) i have everything back running except for the cycle cam, and as
giggle suggested ( www,gigglecam.com ) i will go download the newest version
of webcam32 to help me with that. i am also watching "the secret life
od geisha" on A&E. i have the book, memoirs of a geisha...jodi sent
it to me ( www.jodizone.com ) but i haven't had time 2 read it yet :)