analog 032400 ( excerpt from anagram on ana2.com )

animated gifs by dankitti :)

new things in ana2:

Posted by ANA on March 24, 2000 at 06:27:41: these are the new things on ana2: 1) new in arcana pages 55-77

2) there is now a link on the menu for webtv users or people who are having trouble with the cam not refreshing. so use those cam links if that will help u :)jason made them with help from maw :)

3) i made a section for the journals i want to type out and make into some sort of book someday..or something...who knows. i had typed out 8 pages long ago and they were lost back in some old anagram. so i made a section for it, because i want to keep working on that, and then u can read it as i type it.

i counted how many pictures are in the archive now and it's 3,391! and then there are lots more in the anagrams that don't make the grade to go into arcana ( the archive ) *whew* so that's what i've been doing for the past few days! now it's almost 6am AGAIN. this is the third night in a row i have done this! so i'm gonna go get ready for bed now :)

now i am working on getting pictures from the first year of anacam into the archives. so i am collecting all the pictures people have saved and put in their ana fan pages. i also have a cdr of thousands of pictures. it will take me a very long time to sort through it all! and when i see them all...i have so many stories to tell that the pictures remind me of! i wish i had known how to do anagrams back then! it is interesting to see how i progressed with my pictures, too!

tomorrow jason is playing with his friend, paul horn ( they were in a band called ousia ), at future perfect at the weismann museum

their new project is called alpha 61

 

here is some thing i wrote to the journalist guy about aliens:

that's a huge subject. but in a nutshell, yes i believe that aliens exist and have come to earth and do continue to abduct people. i believe there are many races of aliens that do this and the evidence is overwhelmingly everywhere. i do not know the reasons why the grey aliens abduct people and do their "experiments" on them, but i DO know that it causes countless thousands to be extremely miserable because of it. i am have never been abducted by aliens ( that i know of! ) and i did see a flash of a u.f.o. once. it was a silent black triangle that moved at a ver high speed. but the government does have black triangular planes, so maybe it was that. who knows? but my friend, renee, and her entire family ( they usually abduct whole familes...u can trace it on through that families generations) are abducted quiete regularily and it causes infinite distress. the stories are too long and involved to go into and i do not question my friend's sanity. you'd just have to know her like i do and hear the stories she tells me. but if anyone wants to read anything about this subject, i highly recommend whitley streiber's book, "commmunion". they made a movie from the book that was positively horrible , so don't see that or think the book is anything like that movie. i can't even tell u how much i wish everyone would read that book. it should be required reading in schools!

and:

oh, and just to show u what kind of things i've been up to that u miss 'cause u aren't a memeber of ana2, i did put up a new sample anagram on anacam a few weeks ago:
http://www.anacam.com/anagram1
btw, why aren't u a member? i'm very curious as to why people who are big fans do not join! seriously..please be as honest as possible...i am trying to understand the psychology behind it because there are so many people who love my cam, who have watched it for years, but they never join even for a month! do u feel that it would be crossing a line to u? like...if u just watch for free then it's just a healthy curiosity but if u join that would make u a "pervert" or just something else that u feel u could not explain to your friends? also...last night, because of your question that i do not do dress up type things for the camera as much as i used to.... lots of people have said this and i have always felt somehow bad because of it...yet...if u see the anagram son ana2 u can see that i do much! but i haven't been able to explain it until last night the answer hit me and the answer is: i have evolved with my cam ( although i DO do quite a few dress up type posey things for the cam on many occasions...just not as many as in the first year ) i have evolved with it in that i have become a very good photographer in capturing things that are more "mundane" taking the mundane and making it magical and special i don't even know if that explains it very well, you'd have to see the anagrams to know what i mean i do things more subtle now...but yet it is not subtle..it is still very powerful and i've become more of a storyteller, i think but then i was a story teller from teh beginning. i don't know how to explain it yet...but i now realize and see it as that i have evolved not digressed or gotten "lazy" in fact, i have never worked so hard on my site and put so much into as i do now! anyway...i feel glad that at least *i* can feel what i mean and i can see that it is evolution...even if i cannot explain it yet but the ana2 members know what i mean :)

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here is something else i wrote 2 someone:

i almost always remember my dreams. 99% of my dreams are very stressful or just downright horrible. but still, i love 2 sleep! i dream about the same places a lot. places i've never been. i could even draw maps of these places, they are so detailed. i always remember places that i've been in my dreams while i'm dreaming...yet i can never remember it's a dream when i'm dreaming so i've never been able to lucid dream yet. if i could figure that out i'm sure i could "fix" a lot of my nervousness. i've always been nervous ever since i can remember. i would faint a lot when i was a child. so much so that my family brought me to the mayo clinic and did extensive tests on me. but all they found out was that i was as physically fit as a football player and that perhaps i was growing too fast which caused me to faint. which really, makes no sense. and i certainly did not grow very much! :) i would mostly faint when people would chase me...like playing tag. i still cannot bare to be chased even in jest. i really am sure this is because of a few "past" lives. i prefer to call then parallel lives..since all time is now i can remember a lot of them. too bad i mostly remember the bad stuff. it almost seems i am working through a lot of pain from "past/future" lives in this life. unresolved stuff. i think i'm making good progress :) it's a very fascinating thing to me. i wanted to go to a hypnotist to remember all the languages i've known but have forgotten and also to remember how to play the piano...because i just KNOW i know how to. i see a piano and it jus wells up in me that i KNOW how to play it. but then it occured to me that the fun of forgetting how to play the piano is that i get to experience it all in a new way in this life. why would i want to know how to play a piano the way i used to play it? so ever since then i have felt happy about my forgetting :)

being in austin, texas was very cool i usually don't like most cities right away...but austin IS very cool! i stayed with a woman named devota. it was her mother's name and also her grandmother's . isn't that a cool name? i laid in her yard and i brought out my walkman to lay in the grass and listen 2 the la's but the BIRDS made the COOLEST sounds! so i just laid there and listened to the birds one sounded like a backwards morning dove, and one sounded like a car alarm! there were even wild peacocks in her yard! about 6 of them! they make sounds like someone who would do a fake bird "caw" sound. i could go on and on...too much 2 say....i have only said 1% but i have to stop writing this email or i'll write it all night long and i'm in the middle of putting up a new anagram on ana2 and listening to xtc and eating smoked cheese and apples. yum :)

and i got to meet this cool little faerie girl named janie. she drove me around in her car and we listened 2 radiohead :)

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too much to say! too much 2 do!

things bought:

the little store:

$10.09 for 12 pack of fresca, 2 beef jerkies, 3 apples and 3 dark chocolate dove bars

the little store:

2 cans of tuna, 1 can of smoked oysters, chicken, beef, cottage cheese, smoked cheese, hot pepper cheese, a dozen eggs, a 4 pack of aaa batteries, 4 pack of toilet paper, 3 100 watt lightbulbs, 1 package of corned beef

$41.26