[19 Feb 2001|11:20am]
ok, i'm up. grey day. cold.
dunno what to do with myself quite yet
but i DO know
that on thursday i'm going to visit stacy from atomcam.com
and we are gonna be partners in crime as we stir up trouble making lovebombs
:)
[19 Feb 2001|12:08pm]
i think today i will bleach my roots so my hair looks nice when i go to NYC
i wish i felt
a great joy and motivation to get things done, but i worry about jason moving
out paril 1st, and i worry about how will i make ends meet when i'll have
to pay the whole rent on this place. like right now i have to go get my meds,
cause i'm almost out and i have to get them before i go to NYC, but i literally
have ZERO bucks. i don't even have a dollar.
i know laying on my floor and sighing won't help matters, but that's what
i do anyway.
i gotta think of something fast. like i think about selling my painting i made , on ebay...but that painting is so very important to me, but it looks like i will have no choice but to sell it...and that hope that it DOES sell!
or something.....
i am going to
play music really loud and hope that gets me going. that and coffee. thank
god for coffee.
[19 Feb 2001|01:34pm]
man oh man. my mom called and we talked forever. ack. i wish she'd calm down.
*sigh*
but at least we're getting along better than we were
[19 Feb 2001|03:59pm]
weee! i searched and searched and gathered up 60 cents from the floor! i can
get another coca cola! yee ha! :)
numbers stations [19 Feb 2001|09:54pm]
i am now obsessed
http://www.btinternet.com/~simon.mason/page30.html
thanks 2 stacy of atomcam.com for starting my obsession :)
this'll fuck with ya! [20 Feb 2001|01:23am]
http://tycho.usno.navy.mil/time_ann.ram
[20 Feb 2001|03:02pm]
wiggle naked in the sun while wearing only your favourite boots
[20 Feb 2001|09:12pm]
ok, at that url of the universal time:
http://tycho.usno.navy.mil/time_ann.ram
isn't that art
bell's voice????
[21 Feb 2001|03:20pm]
i have a really weird life.
tomorrow i'm going to NYC to visit stacy from atomcam.com.
i'll be bringing my laptop to take pix, but my cell modem isn't here yet so
i can't broadcast it live. but stacy has a new g4 to play with :) so keep
an eye out for that :) i am also going to bring my digital camera and take
a billion pictures and we're all going to get together with terri and banshee
and ducky doolittle ( www.drducky.com )
there is a lot of crazy stuff we are gonna do. i'll keep u posted about it
in here, and also watch atomcam, and when i get back i'll take all my pix
and put them into the hugest anagram ever. and i also think i'm going to bring
my fostex 4 track and record the sounds around me and conversations and also
put that up so u can hear :)
now i gotta get to the drugstore and get some batteries and cassettes and stuff then bleach my hair then wash sebastian 'cause he's coming with , then pack!
*meow*!
banshee is at
http://www.livejournal.com/users/banshee
and terri is
at :
http://www.livejournal.com/users/tsenft
and am i meeting
blackhellcat too?
http://www.livejournal.com/users/blackhellkat/
and also possible mistere
http://www.livejournal.com/users/mistere
and also my friend ben greenman possibly, who writes for the new yorker, and strangly enough is going to help gene simmons write his biography!
life is way strange and cool :)
[22 Feb 2001|07:44am]
ok, i got up at 7am so i can wash sebastian and bleach my hair and pack. now
it's 7:40am and all i've done is post everywhere what i'm up to and delete
everything from my ana101@hotmail.com account.
so if u wanna reach me while i'm gone, that's the email to send me stuff through
monday :)
i'll be getting into NYC sometime midafternoon, so don't forget to read here,
and also watch atomcam.com to see where i'm at and what i'm doing :)
and also i'll be in my chatroom on and off:
irx.galaxynet.org #anacam
[22 Feb 2001|08:00am]
ah wait..i must tell u this weird dream before i pack!
i dreamt that
i went into this little weird ride/trip thing...wherer u go into a stagecoach
that pretends to be moving and inside are actors who set the mood, and then
we, the visitors, improv with them. the coach kind a tumbles back and forth
like we're moving. the 2 women that are serving food hate their stupid job
of pretending to be in this oldtime coach.
anyway..i'm trying to make this as short as possible so i can pack.
at some point
a guy takes out his gun for some reason, i don't know, maybe to clean it,
and it somehow ends up in my hands and it accidentally goes off and i blow
this guys head up to smithereens all over the coach, and it is SO GROSS (
naturally )
i have no idea how that happened at all and i feel just mortified by what
i'd done and i know that i will be on trial for murder and be in jail even
if this was obviously an accidental death. and i can't remember HOW on earth
that gun got into my hand at all, i can't remember what preceded it.
all i know is that i am fuct , nad that his family iis now going to want to
kill me , and this'll be on my record forever, and i have enormous guilt and
sorrow and i'm crying and crying and i'm so weak in the knees i can barely
walk...
i find out the guy's name is terry randy, and he's a 50 year old schoolteacher
of english.
then, somehow, i get to relive this scene out and see how the gun DID get into my hands. the guy i end up shooting in "scene 1" stands up in the coach and says to me . " here, catch!" and he starts to throwe the gun in my direction. i say "no no no!" and so he does not throw it to me as i make every action possible to show him there is no way i'm gonna catch that thing. so instead then, HE shoots the gun into the ceiling and at other people and also at me until the gun is empty of bullets.
and so i go AH! if i HADN'T shot it was ME who would die instead! wow!
then the scene starts again, this time the guy gets up and looks over at me and just smiles a really nice smile, and exits the coach...knowing in his mind that i had learned what he had to teach me or show me.
WEIRD! that'll stay with me all day!
ok, i'm, in NYC [22 Feb 2001|04:52pm]
ana: i am heeeeeeeeerrrrrre!
spiral: how was your flight
ana: i'm all alone
spiral: alone?
ana: stacy has 2 teach until 11pm
EmmettSL: How did your... yeah, what Spiral asked ;)
spiral: ah
ana: glenn wil be here in an hour
spiral: u took a cab?
ana: y
: * EmmettSL slow typer
ana: stacy was an our off in her mind
ana: so i called her at the airport nd she was still home!
ana: lol :)
spiral: ack
ana: sebastian was sooo good
ana: he didn't make a peep
EmmettSL: That's good :)
ana: now he is being all shy and docile and wants to be on my lap
ana: he had a freaky day
ana: on the plane was a woman from eucaudor
ana: sp?
spiral: good
spiral: that he was good
ana: her dad died suddenly yesterday
ana: so she was flying back
spiral: not fun
ana: she was a nervous wreck and could hardly speak enlish
ana: but i gave her a bunch of xanax
ana: :)
spiral: heh
EmmettSL: :)
ana: i gave her 3 for the flight there
ana: and 1 for the funeral
ana: damn it's hard t type on this keyboard
ana: i held her hand on the way up and the way down
spiral: aww
ana: she's gonna send me a postcard now
ana: :)
ana: and she has email :)
spiral: did u tell her about the cam
EmmettSL: :)
ana: senorita nancy
ana: no
ana: she was heavily catholic
spiral: ah
ana: but i gave her my email
ana: we had a big love fest on the plane
EmmettSL: :)
ana: trying to figre out what each other was saying
ana: and laughing
ana: now i am sooo tired
ana: i was super awake on the plane
ana: then i had coffee too
ana: but i am just sooo tired
ana: that lady was so cool
EmmettSL: It seems like you made her flight more enjoyable, considering her
circumstance :)
ana: the poor litte creature
ana: ya, i (and xanax ) helped her alot
ana: :)
ana: i wish i could get stacy's cam to the couch in the living room
ana: but it doesn't go that far
ana: me soooo tired
ana: i want this computer in the livingroom
ana: so i can chat in there
ana: it's toooo cold in this office
ana: i'll be back
EmmettSL: okay
ana: maybe i'll cut and paste this into my LJ
ana: i forgot ALL my make up
ana: and sebastian's leash
bateman: Oops! Oops!
ana: that is SUCH a drag
spiral: u will have to make one
EmmettSL: You did??? manage to.... nah, forget it ;)
ana: i had all my neat sparkly stuff
bateman: You gave a strange Ecuadoran woman Xanax???
bateman: hee hee!
ana: ya
ana: :)
ana: 1st she asked the stewardess for some dramamine
ana: but she didn't explain it well
ana: and the stewardess didn't know what she was talking about
bateman: Dramamine is the shit, :-)
ana: then i ried to explain to her xanax
ana: and i said VALIUM
ana: and she nodded her head YESYESYES!
bateman: lol!!!!
ana: then i held her hand and told her angels were all around her
ana: and we talked about her family the rest of the way to keep her mind off
the plane
bateman: I wish I would sit next to people on planes who were dispensing xanax!!
ana: she was SO nervous
bateman: That must have been hard for her. :-(
ana: very
ana: i was a sudden death
ana: her dad
ana: she'd been up all night crying
bateman: Like Amy's mom a few weeks ago. :-(
ana: she taught me how to say "you are boring" in spanish
ana: but i don't know how to write it out :)
bateman: kick-ass.
ana: and we talked about flamenco
bateman: Did it help you to have someone interesting to talk to?
ana: i have no problems wih plans
bateman: I get so nervous.
ana: it was very cool to meet someone i never would have met otherwise
bateman: Definitely.
ana: we talked about her culture nd so many things
ana: but i only understood about 3/4ths of what she said
bateman: What does she do in Ecuador?
ana: and she only understood 1/2 of what i said
[23 Feb 2001|09:28am]
stacy and i are gonna go to toys in babeland and bring along the mobilecam,
so go to atomcam.com and watch cam 4 :)
[23 Feb 2001|05:27pm]
ok, everything insane. i'm in nyc, what did i expect? i definitely brough
the wrong pair of boots! i helped stacy teach her class. te subway ride was
packed. i had yummy mock duck things, i bought a really weird sex toy that
i hope jason will be happy about :)
i have no time 2 type anything...i gotta jump into another cab again and off
2 do so much more that i'll tell u about later. we are trying 2 take the mobilecam
where we go...but it's hard to stay connected most places. stay tuned to cam4
of atomcam.com
[25 Feb 2001|09:26am]
woa, do i ever have stories 2 tell u! but right now i just woke up and my
brain is fog. stacy is still sleeping and i'm trying 2 keep sebastian entertained.
stacy has this laurie anderson cd in her mac, that accidentally got bumped
on,and now i cannot figure out how 2 stop it! ack. i think we're getting together
with mistere for pancakes today..if he still dares :)
oh, btw, i gave laurie andersom some xanax and she ate almost the entire bottle.
i didn't know laurie could get any mellower than she already was!
i also gave out bottles of xanax to the cab driver and a street musician,
and the bell boy and to all the dancers at the show laurie anderson was performimg
at...and i really think it helped add a new dimension to the dance :)
all of stacy's
cats are now loving xanax, too :)
they have all been sleeping quietly since friday!
more later :)
[26 Feb 2001|01:15pm]
after a healthy breakfast of 2 bowls of xanax with soymilk, old cold coffee
and two small annoying children dosed with xanax, i feel ready 2 start my
day :)
stacy and glenn are at work, i think stacy will be home by 4, and then my plane leaves tonight and the wuzzler and i will soon be home to wuffle with the pooka and the deiter and the jason :)
yesterday, meeting mistere was wonderful :) he is just as twisted and kind and gentle as i knew he would be. and i even got to braid his hair as we exchanged our live's horror stories and thoughts about what happens when we die and how to make sense out of life's cruelty.
i found out that his hair is very soft and it smells really good :) and that he has been a vegetarian all his life, doesn't like tomato sauce on his spaghetti, and has a job that is so difficult and specific that he cannot even explain it. he also has a very kind smile and big creature eyes and he is wayyyyyyyy taller than i am.
i think the next time i see him i'll paint his fingernails if he'll let me :)
he also was very intrigued by stacy's kooky cats
it's very hard for me to type on this little mac keyboard.
ah, i am glad for this time by myself to gather myself up a bit more and just type here. things have been going at blinding speed mostl taken up by hours of getting from one place to another, which i really don't mind that part if i can take it at my own pace. i think the subways are beautiful but i don't like being inside them at rush hour. i would luike to send spend a few day is he subways just watching people scurry around and listen to the street musicians and the screeee noise of the subways.
more later as i find the energy to tell u the epic story of asking laurie anderson what is her favourite bath product and the triple epic story about the crazy opera woman in our hotel room with us and how ducky doolitle, infamous sex clown extraordinaire saved the day :)
and it was so cool to meet the gorgeous and soft spoken banshee with the beautiful tattoos :) i wish i could have taled to her more, i'm sure we will someday :)
there is so much 2 tell u, but i'm gonna go get my stuff in order, luggagewise
[27 Feb 2001|03:09pm]
i was so out of it on xanax yesterday that i missed my plane flight, so i'll
b back TONIGHT :)
i am sooooo sleeeeeeeepy :)
[28 Feb 2001|10:02am]
i'm home i'm home! i;m turning all the cams back on and getting reaquainted
with my house. the dogs are so very happy to be with sebastian and i again,
they are doing little twirly dances :)
[28 Feb 2001|07:11pm]
i'm cleaning the house, unpacking, and listening to patsy cline :)
[28 Feb 2001|09:08pm]
time for southpark and poptarts!
(s'mores flavour :)
Thursday, March
1st, 2001
12:44a:
did anyone tape the grammy's? caused i missed it :/
if anyone did and wants 2 send me a copy, i'll give ya 2 free months of ana2
:)
p.o. box 76152
saint paul, mn
55175
12:57a:
toast?
yes or no?
mmmmm, toast......
or bagels?
marmalade :)
mmmmm...apple butter....mmmmmm
almond butter with honey...mmmmmmm :)))
12:59a:
what's your favourite thing about the aging process?
1:07p:
rgh. i found my little memory card that has all my stuff from NYC on it, then
i set it down and i can't find it again! it's maddening!
1:20p:
ah, i found it, thank god!
2:08p:
ok, i got all the pix off my camera and various computers and i'm sorting
through it all to make a new anagram :)