well, hmmm, what can
i say? i am in some sort of weird place....like on the edge of SOMETHING.
yesterday, as u can see, i got more extensions. the brushing out of my little
dreadlocks hurt worse than when i had my nipples pierced because it went on
and on. like someone peeling away your scalp. my scalp really went through
the mill! i thought like last time my head would hurt so much i wouldn't be
able to sleep for the first night..so i went out and bought a big bottle of
captain morgans's spiced rum to assure myself i WOULD sleep by hook or by
crook! well, my head must be used to it now, 'cause it didn't hurt at all
much 2 sleep. plus i'm sure the rum helped a bit. i am listening to xtc's
skylarking album .usually i only listen to this record in the summer. it's
a summer record. do u know what i mean? do u have season's that u listen to
particular artists? like kate bush , for me, is winter...
i guess xtc is fallish to winterish. the b-52s are DEFINITELY summer.
i guess it just seemed like summer in my living room today..the sun pouring
in. i could never get an ultimate camera angle 2 show u how seriously LONG
my extensions are! i feel like "cousin it" fron the adam's family!
i will cut them by about 1/2 sson...but fiest i wanna play with them with
my hair this long, it's like FOUR FEET LONG! it's ridiculous!
they couldn't get the white ones i wanted, so i have the same colour as before.
what i'll have to do order white unbraided "hair" from somewhere
and braid it myself. 'cause i REALLY want to sew in lots of silver thread
and tiny clear beads into the hair. so i am looking for a place i can order
a ton of white synthetic LONG hair. if anyone knows of a place PLEASE tell
me! because i NEED to have my hair look totally silver and cyber and faerie!
i'm playing around with the realaudio/video today!
holy shit....rum in
the afternoon? what am i thinking? i think i'm turning into bachus or something.
hey i got an izone cameera! i found a drugstore around here that had them!
yay! so far i have only taken one picture of pooka 'cause it's like 70 cents
a picture..i feel like i have to take only SPECIAL pictures with it. it's
7 bucks for 12 pictures. i need GOBS of film!!!!!
wow, i look really
cool on the real player right now! all glowing green :) i think i better turn
the loud loud heater back on!
no, those two sentences had nothing incommon except that i wrote them from
the same swivelly chair.
anyone know of a GOOD chair to sit on while at the computer? i totally slouch.
SO bad!
geez, it's 3pm and i think i started this anagram at 10am. i went to sleep
at 9pm last night! ( rumrumrum )
here is the # to the robert james salon in downtown minneapolis:
612 305 1125
they don't just do crazy stuff like what my hair looks like. they do EVERYTHING, and the important thing is they do it EXACTLY how u want! plus trina and bobbi are such mellow kind people to be around. pooka and deiter agree!
ok, get this:
OUI magazine asked me if i'd like to "a spread" with them! they
want to change and update their image for the new millinium.
WOW.
ok, is that a"
TEST"? don't u think that came at a weird time in my life RIGHT when
i am thinking SO much about porn??? is it not EEERIE??? ya ya ya coincidence-schimcidence!
holy triple wow!
isn't oui like hustler?
i don't know anything about that magazine. years ago i told my manager i wanted
2 be in playboy...for a mixture of reasons...i wanted to know what it was
like to do that. i didn't want to bitch and whine about porno unless i had
delved INTO porno. i wanted 2 know what i was talking about. i thought that
someday..if i chose to use playboy pix as some sort of art collage, i couold
use MINE, therefore not using any other woman's pic as "what this means
to me". i dunno how to explain this. i sound like a froot loop. i feel
like beyond a paradox. after ALL this talk i say yes to oui? i say oui to
yes?
what????????
what i am trying to do here? i don't know. i'm just gonna go with the flow.
it woudn't be for a few more months. i told them i wanted to to something
cyber and "matrix" like. am i insane? could i "turn the tables"
on this?
any suggestions? oh, fuck...i like i really want your suggestions. ok, i DO
want them, but i'm scared about what suggestions you'll give me! do u know
what i mean?
and then part of me, I ADMIT, is like..." ooooo, i was sexy enough to
be in OUI magazine at one part in my life!" is that sick? yes and no.
i told u made no sense. here i am making no sense. i can't put into words.
maybe it's kind of like finally getting on the cheerleading team. in 10th
grade i made up my mind that i was gonna get into the "popular"
group with sheer will power. i tried out for cheerleading. i got in. cheerleading
WAS ever cliche u can think of! ( i have a pic of me in my cheerleading..very
small black and white..i'll try to find it and scan it someday )
it was STUPID. i won't get into it.
anyway....i discovered Adam and the Antz at that time and cheerleading went
down the toilet. i had found my calling!
ohmigod, i think i am slightly drunk so bear with my prefacing and jumping
timelines! argh why can i just not connect my mind with yours? please let
me ftp this info! it's TOO much to type!
so, ya, i admit 3/4
th of the reason i joined cheerleading was because i loved the oufits. i loved
the swish swish of the pom poms. god i love those poms poms. fucking sensual
as hell. only problem was i had to wear nike tennis shoes. only the cheerleaders
in 11th and 12th grade got to wear saddleshoes! ooo saddleshoes with white
anklets! mmmmmm. size 6!
i am still wanting those shoes.
so....anyway...i found
out that cheerleading sucked. all the girls talked about is how long everyone
had been going out with whoever..ooo, jackie has been going out now with buff
for 7 days and 9 hours. i am NOT over exxagerating with u. they had it down
to the HOUR!!! twisted???? YES!!!
so i quit during hockey season. banging my hands against plexiglass while
a bunch of slug heads bash each others guts out is not my idea of good fun.
i had discovered ADAM and the ANTS. they played on the solid gold show at
the same time as rick james "super freak" a song i adore, and danced
to much while being a stripper. but it lost it's appeal after finding out
that rick ahd smoked crack from a woman's vagina...putting the bong thing
up here. she had severe burns. god. so many songs i'd love to love but the
icky people that made those songs ruins it for me.,
anyway..i discovered adam ant, i still have written on almost all by albums, " please tell adam ant to call me! it's important!"
i'll keep writing that
until he calls me! i SWEAR! i almost got to FINALLY see him in person when
he was going to play here several years ago at first ave. there was a great
magazine called cake here for awhile. that's where i met chank www.chank.com
so cake asked me if i would interview adam ant for them . HELL YA!!! ( i inertviewed
simon raymond from the cocteau twins earlier! i will scan that someday and
get it up here )...so ...adam ant..i WAS going to get him to autograph my
arm then i was going to get that tattooed on. ok, laugh. but he did START
it all for me. i LOVE him. that in itself, is a story within itself! no i
would not be a freakazoid if i met him! i would just STARE at him INTENSELY.
no..just kidding :) but guess what, he had 2 cancel 'cause he was sick! oh
sad :( will i EVER meet him! hi to adam ant in case u see this! ( ya, right!
but weirder things have happened! )
ok, so what was my
point? oh ya, oui magazine. damn. ok, i am too CURIOUS to not take them up
on that offer! i am CURIOUS! i guess it boils down to that. who is the photographer?
how do they treat u? what is the "vibe" of it?
i think i could do something cool. those that" get it" will get
it ( about three people ) and the rest will condemn, and the rest will jack
off! my life. it's a sticky messy thang. am i gonna be in oui mag? really?
how many of u will buy it if it happens? and why will u buy it? will u feel
weird 'cause u "know me" from my mailing to u? will this make your
orgasm better or worse? or will u not be able to "do it" 'cause
it's me? or will u, like me, just buy it 'cause it "looks cool"
( very vague , i know )
another thing i wanna know is how much do they pay? aren't u curious?
hey , it's make an interesting journal enrty, ya?
am i picking at straws? am i desperate for cash?
no, but i like cash and i love new weird experiences. hell, i',m not gonna look like this for much longer. it'd be cool to be on that "other side" just so i KNOW know. i know....it's stupid. but curiousity killed that cat is my epitaph. i'm so serious. all of u remember that. "curiousity killed the cat". that can be 1/2 my epitaph. the other 1/e can say " i was here, and it was weird! bye!"
i have a lot to think
about. but i'll think about it LATER. but i am going to go more with my gut
and heart than my mind on this on.
and if i get free sushi out of the deal, i'm THERE. :)
also...my agenda is not their agenda. i will think this through 7 times.
i just remembered, i had a dream that i named myself "arial helvetica verdana" i think maybe that's a good idea! LOL :)
also, there is this fake cyber newscaster woman who is called ana nova( my cat's name..that i gave away to a nice family,. is named nova ), everyone is emailing me and saying its modeled after me. her hair is green right now. my hair WAS green...but mostly it's just been short like hers ( until now ). there is a contest where u can tell them who u think it was modeled from...so go here:
http://www.ananova.com/948291773_16224.html
and take a vote as to who u think she is modelled after ( me! ) :)
ok, that's all , i
think...i have run out of rum and steam!
ah, and i didn't even get 2 tell u about renee coming over! so much 2 say!