| november
14, 2007 |
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i bought some xmas prezzies for the
lili bean tonight. i just could not help myself :)
i'm too excited.
i've decided i will make her christmas dress.
i think it will be silver and white with a silver snowflake embroidered on
it.
(ya, when i find the time?)
i actually found some little silver boots to go with it.
so the outfit will revolve around those boots.
i'm going to go into the thing room and find my white velvet.
it's going to be a dress like bjork would wear (i hope)
i'm watching project runway.
i looked up in my journal when it
was i found out that i was pregnant last year.
it was on november 29th that i took the pregnancy test.
a year ago today i had NO clue how my life would drastically be changing.
for the better!
i feel i am in a whole new chapter
of my life, blooming all over again.
i am unfolding and unfurling.
as primal as a fractal.
spiraling and spiraling like the
buddhabrot
universes within universes
multiverses entwined with omniverses
when i press my nose against the
back of m's neck and smell him...
i know what i was meant for :)
and i know that i am home
when lili sighs in her sleep
it is the sweetest sound i have ever heard
and i know i am her home
i give birth to the genetically enhanced
i sing in triplets, the 21st psalm
it's true
no one can penetrate this
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next i'll make a lamb and rice stew
small fact:
i like to drink kefir these days
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lili's first christmas
it is exciting to have a child and be able get excited about christmas again.
when i was pregnant, m and i wondered as to whether or not we would do the
whole santa thing and xmas thing with lili.
after some thought, we decided OF COURSE!
i cannot wait to make her a christmas stocking and get a tree and make xmas
cookies :)
christmas is going to be fun all over again, even tho i am not religious,
i think christmas can still be a magical exciting time for a child.
even tho she will not remember this xmas, i think she will have some sort
of deep down primal memory of it...the smell of the tree and food, the lights,
the nice warm clothes and such...the feeling of happiness :)
here are some things i am thinking of getting her for xmas (i cannot afford ALL of these things, these are just the things i am going to choose from...and i haven't narrowed it down yet):
from here:
http://www.gap.com/browse/category.do?cid=23446
bear plush zip front hoodie
plush footed pants
brown cable knit one piece with matching bear hat
warmest down-filled bundler
and omg LOVE (Crazy stripe hooded
one-piece):
http://www.gap.com/browse/product.do?cid=14251&pid=520891
from:
http://www.hannaandersson.com
winter in the woods baby romper
and maybe this xmas dress if i can find some shoes hat would fit her and a
hat to match:
from my amazon baby registry here are the things i wish i could get her:
Baby Activity Ring Developmental Toy by latitude enfant
Stella Wrist and Ankle Rattle by haba
rattle by plan toys:
ring by plan toys:
kringelring by haba
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what are you thinking you may get
your child for christmas?
(if you have a child and are celebrating)
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teh intrawebs drama.
apparently i am a selfish bitch for
wanting to conceive another child. *rolls eyes*
and apparently this is a terrible thing because my next child will have T21
,too!
ohnoez.
and someone who i have friended in this journal is commenting here about that:
http://ljusersecrets.suckafree.ws/?p=283
(the comment by anonymous at the
bottom of the page stating that i am sad i have to get rid of my cable tv
so i can afford my new apartment...as if that is such a newsworthy thing?)
i haven't written about that publically so it is obvious that one of you in
here are doing this. shame on you.
so i am contemplating locking this journal down even further because it grosses me out to think there is someone i have friended here that is such a disgustingly dark soul.
i'm not sure what to do. it's all
so stupid.
someone always has to do this, i don't know why.
it's a good thing this stuff really
doesn't get to me too much anymore these days.
after 10 years of this crap it doesn't affect me much anymore.
still...it sickens to me have any of this to surround my daughter in any way.
but i suppose it's just going to happen if i am at all going to try and combat this massive stupidity regarding T21.
i would not be sad in the least to bring another person with T21 into this world.
it's funny, because these people are looking down on T21...yet they are the ones who are acting incredibly retarded.
it's ironic, isn't it?
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Baby Registry:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/baby/3BKBUJCBUDKXC