october 17, 2007

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11:24pm

last night m, lili, jason and i all went to this dinner thing and there was a drawing for a spa tretament and so i entered and won it!
i get a free pedicure, manicure and facial :)

as soon as my foot is better i will go.

tomorrow lili has an appointment with the pediatrician.

and also m's parent's come to town for 4 days.

that is all i have the time to write!
all is well!

i will let you know how lili's doctor visit goes.

i wrote this on the 15th:

i really wish i had seen this video when i had started pumping for lili:

http://newborns.stanford.edu/Breastfeeding/MaxProduction.html

http://newborns.stanford.edu/Breastfeeding/HandExpression.html

all i got shown and was talked to about and read about was basically only how to get a good latch.
and i was never going to get a good latch. so it was pointless. so in that 1st few days, first few weeks...
lost...

i'm trying so hard to get my supply up again.
eating oatmeal, taking fenugreek, trying to eat well, even making things like bone broth (for the nutrients)
i started drinking mother's milk tea today and i'm going to go back to pumping every 2 hours instead over every 4.
and i pump for 10 to 15 minutes at a time because i thought you shouldn't do it longer than that (and nipples start to hurt!) but i've been reading on some EP forums that some women do it for an HOUR. how?? god. so i will try to do it longer as well as more frequently, as well.
arrrrgh.
i just feel depressed about my milk production.
before i was making about 18 - 22 ounces a day, and when lili was smaller i could keep up with her.
now she drinks way wayyy more than that and i make about 12 ounces a day so she has been getting about 1/2 formula and 1/2 breastmilk.
really depressing. and her poop now smells like formula poop which stinks. i hate it. gah.

i'm going to do everything i can to increase my supply.
there is so little info out there on women who have to pump exclusively.
there is a drug called Domperidone, too that i may consider taking.

i feel so sad today about my milk.
and my toe is still swollen so i can't walk on it.
and my neck feels out of whack and hurts terribly, too.

i am a sad cat at the moment.
meow.

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recycling


does it really pay to recycle?

seriously.

with all the time, money, energy that is spent on saving, bagging, picking up all the recycling...
the gas/ oil/ repairs to the vehicles which pick it up and everything else/ everyone else that goes into the process...
all the water / electricity /gas (and whatever else else) ir probably takes to break down all the cans / bottles (and what have you) into a form that can be used again...
(really what resources ARE used to do this entire process?)

is anything really "saved"?

i'd like to know!

Current Mood: curious

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Men, on the other hand, go for women with higher pitched voices because they find them more attractive, subordinate, feminine, healthier and younger-sounding."

subordinate?

of course the fact that men may go for subordinate women doesn't even raise an eyebrow in this article.
it's like la-de-da...business as usual.

if this article were about blacks and whites instead of men and women...people would be all over this trying to have a dialogue about it to try and fix the inequality of it.

but no...it's just women. and it's so common and taken for granted that we are going to be seen and wanted to be inferior and lower ranking that it's just yawnsville to people.

fucking a.
it's the little shit like this i see in media all day long that drives me berzerk and shows how ingrained this bullshit is.
no one even bats an eyelash.

not to mention shows like rock of love (and of course flavor of love which is even more in your face about it...god bless flav, i love him in many ways, but COME ON) and the pick up artist (yes i get it it's about raising the self esteem of these young boys but lord can't it be done without this whole pimp/ho mentality? it's depressing. how is being a pick up artist achieving anything of value? the boys/men lose, too.) and all this crap i have been witnessing on vh1 lately and EVERYWHERE else.
what is up with all this pimp and ho culture?
i have been watching rock of love and can no one else see but me that the entire show is basically just an education and a refection on how to be a pimp and keep your hos in line? (btw, i hope bret picks the stripper. but really i like them both except for the fact that these women call every other woman a bitch. *sigh*)
it's sickening and degrading and this stuff just seems to be growing and growing and growing.

i swear, in my lifetime, it appears that women are taking huge leaps backwards in society.
sure, we have a woman running for president right now, and maybe she'll even win (oh yay)...
but really in the grand scheme of the day to day and the media and everything...WTF UP PEOPLE with how women are being treated and portrayed?

and WTF UP PEOPLE over how women are allowing themselves to be treated and portrayed...actually begging and lining up to be treated and portrayed that way it would seem.

i really can't believe my eyes when i see this stuff happening.
it's surreal.
it's like some sort of bad dream that no one around me is waking up from.


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