| sept
3, 2007 |
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7:22pm
lili's baptism day went well and
my dad said it was one of the best days of his life :)
even tho i don't "believe" in baptism since i don't think it's necessary
to go through a ritual like that to become a "child of god" or go
to "heaven", it was emotional to me because of my dad being the
one baptizing her.
it's hard for me to explain right now.
it is just such a sweet thing and it was hard for me not to bawl during it.
i did cry a bit and had to resort to counting as it was happening to not break
down into total sobs.
afterwards there was cake and coffee and the whole lutheran thing.
matt's parents came out for it, too.
god, i have so much to write about
it all but as soon as i sit down to this keyboard to type..the words allude
me to explain anythnig in my life right now.
i don't know if it's fatigue or overstimulation, or my brain is just not word
oriented right now for whatever reason or i don't have the focus or stamina
to wrote or the patience or something...but i just cannot seem to write a
damn thing about anything in my life at the present moment and it really sucks
because i'd love to have some sort of chromicle of wehat si going on with
me during this time.
thank god i at least have the cam to at least capture something.
today, during the precious few minutes
lili does not need me to tend to her, i try and cover the ugly ass graco baby
swing with silver duct tape.
i'm trying to turn it inot some osrt of silver sculpture i can bare to look
at.
it's going to take me awhile to get the project of that done.
lili is in it right now swinging
and vibrating and a horrifying midi file of white noise and fake tropical
birds are playing at full volumne.
it's maddening.
i'm glad it soothes her but it certainly does not soothe me.
more later
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