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31, 2007 |
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Tue, Jul. 31st, 2007 06:19 pm
i wish i had the energy to figure out my digital camera again, but i don't!
so here's one from the cam taken today :)
i will give you a full account birth story soon.
but right now we are all exhausted and overstimulated.
thank you everyone for your well wishes!
we all need to recuperate and regroup and swaddle ourselves.
i wish i also had the energy to tell you all more now but my bottom is so sore that it hurts to sit at this desk chair and i need to go lay down again and have some time with my man and child.
xox
p.s. i will say that it is true birth is the most painful experience EVER.
and it is a total lie that you forget the pain as soon as the child is born.
ha!
i remember every last traumatizing second of it!
but of course she is worth it!
but ya....wow...i was not at all prepared for how PAINFUL that would be!
i screamed like a wounded animal pretty much the entire time (and i mean SCRRRREEAAAMMMED!)
it was completely primal.
i had to push for over 2 hours!
i only had to get ONE stitch :)
thank god i made it through.
i couldn't have done it without M :)
edit to my post that i made in the pregnant lj community...added here, as well, just in case...
look, i will edit my post which explains, briefly, my birth experience (because
i seem to have raised some fears and that was NOT my intention) and say what
i should have said is birth has been the most painful experience for ME.
ok?
i did not mean to say that birth is ALWAYS the most painful experience for
EVERYONE.
i am well aware that some women even have orgasmic births, and believe me,
i really wish i had experienced that
i was open for it to happen.
we all have our different birth experiences ranging a full spectrum and beyond
of sensations, both emotional and physical..
this was MY experience, and i'm not going to lie or sugar coat it.
that being said, i'm GLAD that i had a med free birth, as painful as it was,
because FOR ME the dangers of meds and epidurals is not worth the risk to
me or to my child.
for ME labor is called LABOR for a reason.
yes it was traumatic.
it was horrible, i'm not going to lie.
but in the end, it was only ONE day out of my life and i have to keep that
in perspective.
also, i don't know if some people realize that giving birth without any medical
intervention such as pain medication IS an empowering experience in that now
i know what my body and mind are fully capable of doing that.
i DO know that our bodies ARE meant to give birth and that it CAN be done
and fear can be overcome on this.
of course this positive aspect of it all has yet to fully come to the forefront
in my mind because it's only been 24 hours since i've given birth and i'm
here in my house right now hobbling around still.
but i do know that it is there, in my mind.
i'm glad i did it.
IN MY OPINION, i think it would be foolish for anyone to take my birth experience
and make any decisions on how they want to give birth because of it.
EVERYONE'S EXPERIENCE IS DIFFERENT.
as i've said, some people have WONDERFUL no meds childbirth.
and some people have NIGHTMARE birth experiences when given all the "comforts"
of every single kind of medical intervention possible.
there is NO guarantee ever on what kind of birth YOU are going to have.
all you can do is be open to the possibility that anything can happen when
you give birth and be prepared, as much as you can, for all possibilities.
this was MY experience giving birth to my 1st child.
YOU will have a different experience uniquely yours, no matter what you choose.
IN MY OPINION, i don't think you can "choose" a birth experience.
your birth experience is just going to happen to you.
and that is that.
you cannot guarantee anything.
you can only go with the flow once it starts happening.
my only words of advice i can give to anyone from this is:
TRUST IN YOUR BODY.
you CAN do it!
you won't explode, break, or split in 1/2, even tho it may feel like you are
going to at the time.
and keep in perspective that this is only one day in your life, and it will
pass.
i hope this clarifies my post.
thank you for everyone who gave me well wishes :)
{{{}}}
Tue, Jul. 31st, 2007 12:42 am
she's born!
born 9:38pm CST
weight 6 pounds 6 oz.
lili :)
more later
exhausted
she loves my nipples
god i am sore
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