| june
29, 2007 |
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10:35pm
mama's got a mohawk:
the moon is big and full tonight
:)
beautiful!
today my midwife came over. now she
is going to meet with me once a week (instead of every two) since it's getting
closer to the time.
she pricked my finger to check and see if my iron count went up but the 1st
time she did it she didn't get enough blood so she had to prick a second fnger.
i am such a wimp when it comes to getting this done :(
but it was worth it because it went up! to 10.4 or something, which is still
low, but better than it was.
she took my blood pressure and that was good. we listened to the heartbeat
and that was good :)
i was love to hear her heartbeat :)
she has moved lower into my pelvis my midwife confirmed.
she could tell because she could not move lili's head from side to side since
it was starting to decend into my bone.
such a weird thing.
after she left i had a bad hair freak out session. i have been really hating
my hair and could not take it anymore. the sides were all frazzly and the
back is not growing out at the same rate as the sides were.
i was trying to grow it alll out so i could get extensions all over, but my
hair is just not growing very well and looked completely stupid.
so i started separating my hair into sections thinking i would shave the sides
and start a mohawk type of thing. but i could not get it even on the sides.
so i went outside in a frenzy, walking to 2 hair saloms to beg them to help
me. both were closed.
i felt so ugly and disgusting. i didn't want anyone to see me. i just put
sunglasses on and tried to drown out the fact that i was in public. which
i suppose sounds odd since here i am on cam and in the nude.
you'd think it would be no big deal for me but it just is as weird as that
sounds.
so i got back home and cut off 1/2 the yarn i had braided into my hair because
the whole long pony tail thing was not working for me anymore.
and then i finally got the sides semi straight enough that was able to discern
where to shave and i got out the dog shavers and shaved the sides of my head.
i thought maybe i would hate it and start crying about it and i was hoping
that would not be the case...and it wasn't, thankfully. i do like the sides
shaved more than i liked my frazzled looking grwoing out hair.
i'm nto THRILLED with my hair by any means. but at least it is a somewhat
improvement in my mind.
i don't feel completely ugly and stupid as i did with the other hair.
then i took the yarn i ahd cut out and retied it back in for volume, not length.
M gets home really soon and i hope he will like my hair.
i think eh will, he seems to like my hair whatever i do to it.
*crosses fingers*
i dunno...my and my haair are always battling it out.
i've basically been not happy with my hair ever since i decided to start growing
it out 3 years ago.
and then i got the dreads and then i thought that would fix it but that has
been an ordeal and 1/2 and still continues to be. and really what i want is
just my synth dreads back.
those are the only things i have really been totally happy with.
if i could just get my white faerie synth dreads back i would be so happy.
but i can't yet because i cannot afford it.
i really miss sonia and i miss that she did my hair for free :(
but someday i will have my white synth dreads back and i will feel like myself
again.
and my ingrown toenail will be healed and i will be able to wear my kick ass
high heeled boots again.
and i will not be pregnant and i will have my body back.
godddddddd just give me back my body and my rock star and hair and boots.
i feel so totally NOT me right now.
and that is psychologically hard.
i look in the mirror and go..who IS this person???
after i shaved my head i took a shower and finally got to shave my legs because
i got new shavers.
yayayay!
oohhh to have nice smooth legs again :)
i am lucky i do nt have very much hair on my legs and it is not course when
i cannot shave it..
but i really do love my legs to be shaved.
and then i painted my toenails and fingernails silver.
so...i had a tiny mini make over today.
and i feel 10% better.
it's hard to paint my toenails because it's hard for me to bend over.
i'm pondering going another week
with all nude all week.
i'm enjoying being nude more than i thought i would.
i think mostly because i cannot fit into any of my normal clothes anyway.
wearing the same pregnancy sweatpants over and over was getting me down.
i swear i am going to burn those when i am done with them.
i also am pondering doing some sort of cake show in the spirit of my previous
ones.
i think cake smeared all over my pregnant belly might look rather nice :)
it's so hedonistic.
so yes, this has been a very "girl" entry with talking about hair
and all but i am a girl/woman so what can i say?
then i sort of 1/2 watched a fellini
movie and crocheted a bit.
then i called my mom and she STILL cannot get over that i want a birth tub.
i don't know why she makes such a fuss about how she can't understand why
i would want one.
she doesn't HAVE to understand why i would want one.
i don't know why she insists on going on and on about it.
the rest of our conversation was good, tho.
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baby registry!
I thought you might like to know that I have created a Baby Registry at Amazon.com. You can find it anytime by searching for my name at http://www.amazon.com/babyregistry.
Best Wishes,
ana voog and matthew bruce
You can see ana voog and matthew bruce's entire Baby Registry at:
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ok, here it is!
if you can think of anything else that would be good for me to add, let me
know :)
if you find a better price for things or want to buy it somewhere else or simply send something else or give us a gift of money (yes!!! $ will go to buy fuzzi bunz cloth diapers and medical costs)
please send to:
ana voog
p.o. box 76152
saint paul, MN
55175
make cheques and money orders
out to:
rachael olson (my legal name) or matthew bruce
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