| june
23, 2007 |
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9:19pm
tomorrow M and i are driving down
with my dad to visit my brother.
it's going to be 95 degrees or something.
i haven't seen my brother since xmas!
another thing, i hate it now when
people ask me how i am and what i have been up to.
i have been PREGNANT. that is IT.
that's all i have been up to and that's all i have been feeling.
and that sucks but what more can i say?
that godamn mambo band or whatever it is they are playing is SO LOUD that
i have all my windows shut and my tv on and i cannot hear my tv!!!!
i cccaaaannn't ffffffuckking ssstttaaannnnnd it!!!!
i'm making chicken soup.
and i need to make some more banana bread but i am too tired and it's too
hot to make it.
9:13pm
oh and gah...some woman
kept giving me all this frickin pregnnacy advice about excercising.
saying i should walk, i should swim...do i do yoga? telling me positions.
arrrgh.
AND....
for the past several
says there is ALWAYS a band playing outside, and LOUDLY.
every weekend from morning until night!
and now on fridays too and sometimes other days!
alllll day today...jazz fusion. and just when it stopped....some sort of mambo
thing.
it's driving me insane!!!
the movie annie hall is on tv right now and even THAT is bugging me.
8:31pm
my mom does not understand what is
co-sleeping either, even tho it is very simple and i have explained it to
her.
so weird.
i took the little crib from her just because it was little and not very offensive
and she got it for free.
but now that i am going to get rid of it because it does not meet safety guidelines
she wants to buy me a full sized crib...
which is NICE of her. those things are not cheap.
but...we are not going to be using a crib, we are going to be sleeping WITH
the child.
she doesn't understand this concept :)
i don't get what there is to understand!
it's not my job to educate her so she will just see as it goes.
she's not being weird about it, thankfully. she just isn't understanding how
it works.
but who knows, maybe after 6 months
i'll want a crib. we're just playing it all by ear. how can we know what will
happen?
but we sure do not want one now. i put another small and portable one on the
registry.
we don't have room for a crib as big a refrigerator in this apt.
M's mom is getting more excited about the baby as the time approaches, which
is good! i was pretty worried that his parents were going to be removed about
it. but i think they will come around. they bought us a high chair that came
today.
it's sitting in the hallways waiting to be assembled.
i didn't really want a high chair either since we don't even have a kitchen
table. then i found one that was not completely ugly so i put it on the registry
and now we have it.
it will come in handy, i hope.
i really hate extra furniture.
what i really NEED is a chair to breastfeed in.
just a chair to do anything in that is not this computer chair!
my back is killing me and i am so sick of the computer chair or the bed.
i need a really comfy chair with
ottoman (is that how you spell it?)
today i went to a wedding reception thing with jason.
friends of jason's that became my friends.
i didn't really get to talk to them.
i ended up having to chit chat all this small talk with family members i did
not know and will never see again.
it was held in a beautiful back yard and it was nice to be outside. but god, the small talk just about killed me.
what IS it that every time i go out
now everyone remarks on how small my belly is in comparison to what they THINK
my belly SHOULD be for as many months pregnant that i am?
i say i'm almost 9 months and they go "oh you don't look it! or "you're
so small!" they are always so surprised.
i'm not exactly sure how to deal with this.
i want to say "i'm LYING! i'm only 5 months! haha!"
or do i say "yes! i'm giving birth to a shellfish!"
i mean WHAT??
i'm only 5'2" and not everweight. what do they expect?
i FEEL big. i AM big! good god.
i can barely even walk.
when my midwife measures me, my uterus is measuring exactly what it should!
it just sucks that even in pregnancy people feel a need to get in what they
THINK a woman's body should look like.
who are they to say how big or small i should be?
do they know my body? are they in it? or they my doctor?
maybe this seems like something i shouldn't be irritated about but i just
am.
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baby registry!
I thought you might like to know that I have created a Baby Registry at Amazon.com. You can find it anytime by searching for my name at http://www.amazon.com/babyregistry.
Best Wishes,
ana voog and matthew bruce
You can see ana voog and matthew bruce's entire Baby Registry at:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/baby/3BKBUJCBUDKXC
ok, here it is!
if you can think of anything else that would be good for me to add, let me
know :)
if you find a better price for things or want to buy it somewhere else or simply send something else or give us a gift of money (yes!!! $ will go to buy fuzzi bunz cloth diapers and medical costs)
please send to:
ana voog
p.o. box 76152
saint paul, MN
55175
make cheques and money orders
out to:
rachael olson (my legal name) or matthew bruce
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