| june
21, 2007 |
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12:09pm
mouseovers:
i'm trying to sprout another avocado
seed.
i tried before with some other long ago but was unsuccessful.
yesterday was a nice cathartic thunderstorm.
the clouds looked like they were glowing in the dark.
today is still grey.
my pelvis is being pulvarized by baby parts. sharp jabbing pains.
i was extremely numb to find that i am -36 in the bank this morning because
i bought food last night.
goddammit.
there are 2 pending things in there right now...food i bought and $15 worth
of anthony bourdain: no reservations episodes i bought, also, yesterday on
itunes.
farging effing F.
i did have 109 in there yesterday so i thought i was safe to buy 65 in food
and that.
but no.
this electric bill i paid many days ago did not go through until today.
and i did not see that it had not been put through yet.
so....once again i am fucked over and i'm going to get a 34 dollar charge
on top of everything which will make me under even more.
i can't fucking take this shit.
it's so depressing.
i also did not realize until just now that i am out of toilet paper.
and now i have ZERO money to get any.
i'm using 1/2 a roll of paper towels we have left.
i hope M has some money to buy TP when he gets home.
we are both so stupidly poor.
i hope M's day is better today than his last 2 days, which were really bad
for him.
working retail really sucks his soul. it sucks anyones soul really. i know
what it is like.
my poor lover.
i finally did cheer him up by the end of the night and we shared a yummy frozen
pizza as we watched the lightning in the clouds, happy in the fact that even
tho we are so poor we have each other and we have a love that is extraordinary
in its richness and we fell asleep holding hands.
this gets me through the days. and
also i look around the apartment and see all the blessings i do have.
dogs, mangos, yarn, a great view
cokes, the river, chennille blankets, sandalwood oil
baths, water, soap, rings, tv
chips, tomatoes, cheese, cds
bt ya, i need to work on the money thing.
it's nice to have money.
maybe i will do another all naked all week.
each one i do the last few years i say will be the last.
each one i think IS the last.
if i do another one , again, i do think it will be the last because i don't
know how i would do one with a child.
i mean, it'd be easy to do with a child. and i don't think the child would
give a rat's ass if i did it.
it's just all the puritanical crazy people who will get all flipped out.
and that usually doesn't effect me or cause me to stop what i want to do...however
this time..i have a child and they might be able to fuck with that.
and that is just not worth it.
by any means.
and it makes me angry that the world works this way.
it makes me more than angry.
it makes me so angry that if i thought about it i would explode.
so i will try to not think about it.
but anyway, i can have one more all naked all week.
and now would be a good time to do it.
it would also be very interesting to do since i am so pregnant.
ya, i really should do one. it's
summer.
and in august it will be anacam's 10th anniversary.
it could be a good thing.
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baby registry!
I thought you might like to know that I have created a Baby Registry at Amazon.com. You can find it anytime by searching for my name at http://www.amazon.com/babyregistry.
Best Wishes,
ana voog and matthew bruce
You can see ana voog and matthew bruce's entire Baby Registry at:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/baby/3BKBUJCBUDKXC
ok, here it is!
if you can think of anything else that would be good for me to add, let me
know :)
if you find a better price for things or want to buy it somewhere else or simply send something else or give us a gift of money (yes!!! $ will go to buy fuzzi bunz cloth diapers and medical costs)
please send to:
ana voog
p.o. box 76152
saint paul, MN
55175
make cheques and money orders
out to:
rachael olson (my legal name) or matthew bruce
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