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3, 2007 |
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6:15pm
i had the weirdest dreams last night. so vivid and detailed but they are fading now. none of them made any sense to me as to why i would dream that. they were almost cubist in nature.
i was awake this morning until early
afternoon.
then i fell back asleep until 5pm.
got up and ate potoes, chicken, strawberries, and vanilla yogurt.
it didn't feel totally satisfying, i don't know why.
i have an ingrown toenail on my big toe from whacking it with a bowling ball
last halloween.
i'm going to have to strat soaking it every day. i am worried about it.
i am VERY VERY VERY frustrated at my lack of mobility.
my pregnnat belly makes it hard for me to move, and now with this toe...it's
impossible for me to go outside for a walk!
if i put shoes on at all and walk for a bit even just to go shopping, my toe
gets infected and then throbs, itches and hurts all night long.
i could just cry. but i have resigned myself to the fact that i just cannot
get out and walk into the beautiful spring.
this is my last spring i will have to myself in this way.
and here i am, almost completely immobolized by a fucking ingrown toenail.
it's BEYOND stupid.
so i limp and careen about the house.
and at night my toe throbs and my legs twitch.
and i need to at least get to STRETCHING, because i am so unlimber.
but my belly makes it hard for me to even be able to put on a pair of leggings.
to bend over in any way causes my lungs to squish even more.
i can't get enough air.
and now i'm trying to figure uot how to facillitate rototaing my baby into
the right position for labout:
http://www.spinningbabies.com/
so if you see me in the bed in weird positions...this is what i am trying
to do.
we went to our first birth class,
and it rerally did nothing for me so far, but it was only the 1st one.
but M really liked it and did get good things from it, so if that is the case
then it is all worth it :)
the class didn't do much for me because
i am already pretty in touch and outspoken about my feelings about it all,
so talking about it that day and doing birth art (draw a picture of how you
depict labour) didn't push me into anything new.
the other 4 couples were pretty shy and i didn't get to speak with them much.
we all sat on the floor in a nicely decorated but cramped and hot room. M
thought it was very comfortable so maybe it was just me.
we were given opportunities to talk "what do we hope to get out of the
class? why are we there? what do you think is the point of pain in childbirth?"
and we did an excercise to cope with pain by putting a cube of ice in our
hand and having to hold it there until a bell rang.
that wasn't very hard for me, in fact it was kind of nice since the room was
so hot.
M tho had a harder time with it and it made him think about labour differently,
so i am glad we got to do the excerise :)
he did a good job at soothing me as i held it, too :)
but i couldn't help but think how is holding a cube of ice going to help me
deal with a child coming through my vagina?
then they read some poetry and we each lit candles and sent good energy out
to the other women in the world who were giving birth right at that moment.
now you know me, i'm all hippy trippy, but the whole thing seemed rather forced
to me. and i felt rushed about it.
plus i just did not feel connected to the others in the room and i was hot
and uncomfortable.
but...it WAS the 1st one. and so i expect it will get better.
our homework is to find out what sex, giving birth, and taking a crap all
have in common. hmm.
i guess it has to do with the sphincter muscle. i guessed that in 3 seconds.
and we need to find a picture to decoupage (glue) to our candles.
also i need to figure out this spinning
babies thing.
weee haw!
the spinning babies website is very difficult for me to understand...the diagrams
and explanations of positions and movement make me go "huh?" i need
a video of it or someone to show me in person. i'm not good with 2d diagrams
or text explanations of movements.
like read this....can you understand this?
How to do a Pelvic Floor Release
The mother lies on her side so that her hips are perpendicular to the surface she is lying on. In other words, her right hip is over her left hip when she lies on her left side. Her right shoulder is directly over her left shoulder.
Her left arm is up and can be used like a pillow for her head. Her right arm rests on her side as best she can.
This is important now, her lower leg, the left in this description, is straight! Not bent. Her top leg rests a moment on her bottom leg while her support people get into place. The main support person stands directly in front of her, thighs open so the baby (abdomen) can have a place to lean safely into (no pressure is made there though). The support person holds her hip bone. She crosses her hands and puts her palms over the front side of the hip bone with her fingers resting on top towards the back of the hip bone. She presses firmly, but not hard. This supports the mother's hip and prevents her from falling forward off the bed when the next step is taken.
The second support person kneels or sits by her face to give face-to-face support with calm, encouraging words. She can rest her hand on the mom's top shoulder for support.
Now here is the point: When the mom feels secure, she lets her top leg slide forward to hang in front of her. That's why the surface she is lying on has to be a little high, so her leg doesn't touch the ground. The weight of her hanging leg will stretch the pelvic floor muscle where it attaches to her top hip.
She breathes through three contractions in this position.
Then, between contractions, she switches sides and repeats the Pelvic Floor Release for three more contractions. If she doesn't do both sides her pelvic floor will not become symmetrical and make room for the baby to descend. Both sides are vital.
After this she can find a soothing position to rest in. She may be ready to push soon afterwards, perhaps in an hour. The midwife or nurse should not leave her afterwards. Pushing goes pretty smooth when the Pelvic Floor has been softened and made symmetrical from this technique. Let me know how it works for you.
11:42am
what is the hardest thing about being a mother?
i hear that being a mother is the hardest job on earth.
i want to know why that is!
if being a mother is hard, what are the hardest things?
i have a feeling that mothering does
not have to be as hard as people make it, but perhaps i am just being incredibly
naive and one year from now i am going to roll my eyes at myself for even
asking this question?
i do think it would be tough if you had more than one child and/or worked
outside of the home. i can see that.
(or if your child is really sickly or you have a partner who is not 100% supportive)
but what if you have only one child and work/play at home? is this so difficult?
i can see that in the beginning it will be, getting enough sleep and adjusting...but
after that...if you are not rigid in your ways, wouldn't it be FAIRLY ok?
just go with the flow of things? if i don't think of my child as something
i have to do in ADDITION to everything else i had previously in my life but
just redo my life in such a way that the child is holistically a part of my
life (and i a part of theirs equally)...then i would think that would make
things simpler, no?
don't get me wrong, i don't think
that being a mother is going to be a breeze, all peachy keen and hunky dory!
i don't have rose coloured glasses on (i don't think?)
(the same goes for fathers! if you
are a father i would also like to hear what you think is hard!)
3:21am
long day! must go to bed now. here
are some new images.
i'll write more when i wake up :)
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