| april
14th, 2007 |
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11:05pm
watched the 1946 movie "best
years of our lives" and got all tearful.
everything makes me tearful.
last night i laughed until i cried.
i cry i laugh i laugh i cry.
hormones.
7:25pm
i managed to get the bedroom back
into the BEDROOM!
the order of the universe is restored :)
a HUGE sigh of relief.
i laid on the bed and almost cried i was so relieved!
i laid on the bed and felt my baby squiggle in me as i watched the spring
clouds.
for a moment, everything was completely perfect.
i'd like to hold on to that feeling forever.
listening to the cure, 17 seconds, faith, acoustic
4:27pm
anxiety. can't catch my breath.
tried to take a nap. think good thoughts. trying to persevere.
i make yarn in my head. i clean in my head. i am exhausted.
my stomache is grumbly.
2:22pm
my stomchae muscles are being pushed
and stretched much more. it is very uncomfortable.
my belly button hurts and wants to pop out.
i think i've gained 2 more pounds. i weighed almost 114 this morning.
so i've gained 7 so far, all in all not a lot, but it's all right in my belly
and i am small.
i'm making quaker instant oatmeal and downloading the movie "water"
to watch.
i couldn't get to sleep until 7:30pm and i woke up at noon.
rotten anxiety ridedn nightmares.
floods.
a semi grey hazy semi sorta sunny
day.
not very warm but ok.
the shredded couch is an eyesore.
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