| april
10th, 2007 |
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7:31pm
i need to somehow take some sexy pix of myself to boost my self esteem or something.
i want bananas.
7:23pm
watching american idol and reading about co sleeping
5:17pm
i was looking at the babies r us
site for the past few hours trying to add things i might want...and man...they
have the worst online selection.
3:20pm
i feel like a beached whale and have
about as much energy.
what more can be said?
this april is the coldest and greyest.
i hope it does not rain or snow on my birthday.
i have so much to do and no energy to do it.
matoog keeps kicking me in my belly, more and more every day it seems. and
i have leg cramps and restless leg syndrome :(
yesterday i finally and went and got my bail money back becausde M gave me
a ride. so that chapter in my life is now CLOSED, thank god.
i would love to drink a mocha latte right now and clean like the wind.
but i can't have one and so i may fall asleep, especially since it's so grey
and cold.
listening to aha.
they are now editing the camgirls doc after a long spell of not. i am excited
about this :) especially since they want to fly out and interview
me again in may or june and this is GREAT because i was absolutely UNHINGED
when they interviewed me so long ago...whenever that was...over 2 years ago?
i was out of my freaking mind in mental anguish about jason and my mom and
extremely unfocused.
http://www.adakin.com/camgirls/
i'm glad i am in a beter
place now even if i do feel like a beached whale :)
i hope my body goes back to its original shape after i have the baby. i worry.
i HAVE to get rid of this couch that jason gave me. it's ridiculously uncomfortable.
i am about to have at it with scissors and throw it out in chunks. i am that
sick of it.
it's too heavy for me to get out with just M and i and the maintenance people
here will not help us because of legal reasons or something.
i am at my wits end over this friggin couch.
i need my bed back in here. i can't deal with it in the thing room at ALL.
the sound fo the fridge drives me crazy as i can hera it in there. and all
i do when i lay in bed in there is fold all my fabric in my mind and it drives
me bonkers.
we are trying to figure
out how to go to bjork in colorado in may but i am afraid about the cost of
such a thing.
at the same time i want to
throw caution to the wind and just do it because it's the last time i will
be able to go on a trip and not have a child (outside of my body).
it seems that driving there is just as expensive as driving and i would pick
flying over driving because of my leg cramps and such. i don't relsih the
thought of driving for houts in a car with my body in this state.
if we drove we'd leave on mother's day, which is fiting and freaky.
last mother's day i broke up with jason and had a nervous breakdown, basically.
this mother's day will be INFINITELY more joyful :)
i still talk to jason almost every day. we IM throughout the day showing each
other things we found on the internet.
he is getting a japanese chin!
i told him that if we ever broke up he would miss the dogs more than me, and
it's true.
he's getting a little monstrelle from alberta, canada :)
i helped him find it :)
it's a boy, only 5 pounds! 10 months old....tiny!
his name is sebastian but jason thinks he will name him kiyoshi so when he
comes to visit there won't be confusion with 2 sebastians.
i get to baby sit the monkey when he leaves town. i am psyched to meet another
japanese chin.
i bet he'll end up getting another because you can't have just one :)
it's my goal to make the twin cities the japanese chin capital of the world!
god i so much want to clean
the thing room right now.
it's so claustrophobic and i need to find my good scissors.
i need to make some hats to sell to pay for so many bills.
we watched blood diamond last night and it was AWFUL.
awwwwwfulllllll.
we also watched a doc about crosswords called word play, and that was excellent
:)
we have some episodes of dangerman to watch.
i need to see the sopranos season premiere from the other day.
the last season!
i need to find a way to see it!
i am mentioned in this article about blogging:
http://www.theage.com.au/news/in-depth/here-to-stay/2007/04/06/1175366469530.html
i'm surprised jorn mentioned me as "when i went pay", as they liked
to call it then, he wrote me off as a "sell out" and blah blah blah.
well better to make a living than be homeless like he was!
he coined the term weblog.
i didn't know that.
i don't know when
that article is going to appear in the brasil newspaper. they haven't told
me yet!
i am so curious as to when and if it will come out.
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