| march
17th, 2007 |
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5:02pm
(my nipples are darker now)
i wish i had the money to get my
breast implants removed for during this pregnancy and breastfeeding after.
you can still breastfeed with implants, but there is a small possibility you
may not make as much milk, for some reason. also, my "real" breasts
are super small so i do not know if they will make enough milk anyway.
and these implants are pretty tight, so i don't see how my breasts are going
to expand for milk, but i suppose they will, skin is very elastic. if it wasn't,
getting these implants would have been impossible in the 1st place. but i
wonder if it will hurt more for me because i have them.
but even if i had the $ i don't think i could have them removed at this point
because going under with aneasthesia would be a risk to the fetus, i'm quite
sure.
still, i wish i had the $ and the way to get them removed somehow during this
phase of my life.
i can get the saline reduced because
mine have "ports" in them that allow for saline to be added or removed
with local anesthetic. i might do that, i will have to call the dr. and see
about it. it would look awfully strange and feel strange to have that done
now, but if i make milk to "fill in" , then it might be ok.
what a futuristic dilemma.
4:07pm
the saga of the broken camcorder.
many months ago, when my mom and her husband came over, she accidentally tipped
over my main camcorder and it broke (ac adaptor snapped in 1/2).
her husband ordered a replacement adaptor that did not work. so i mailed the
camcorder to them so they could see what is the dealio with that.
here is the jumbled email communication i had with my mom today about this
as she tries to convince me that i have sent her the wrong camcorder:
mom:
You mistakenly sent me a different
camera than the one that got knocked over. Oops!
me:
no, that is the one. i only have 2. the other one is plugged in right now.
mom:
It's a different model number and a completely different camera. The one knocked over was a much smaller camera. By the way, you told me you recently had to buy another camera for $50.00 from Best Buy so you could operate your business ,so don't you still have that one to too? *puzzled*
me:
well that explains then why the ac
adaptor that ---- got for my camcorder does not work then. because the camcorder
i sent you is THE one that was broken. i only have TWO camcorders. the other
one, is plugged in right now. that camcorder is the one you broke.
it has been sitting in the room you broke it in since you broke it.
it's been in the same place. i have not moved it. that IS the camcorder.
i could not possibly send you another one since i only own TWO camcorders.
there is no possible way i could send you another 3rd "mystery"
camcorder since i do not even own a 3rd one. it would be physically impossible
for me to do something like that.
i did not buy another camcorder to take the place of the broken camcorder.
i bought a really cheapie computer cam from logitech. it is one of those really
small one that is about 3 inches big. it's not a camcorder. a camcorder can
take video, uses tape, you can make movies on it...you know like people who
have camcorders to make home movies and such. camcorders are of way more high
quality and the ones i buy are always between $600 to $900 because i buy a
digital one that has all the options i need on it like nightvision and certain
effects like sepiatone and other things.
logitech cams are only for putting on top of your computer and people use
them to videoconference and that sort of thing. they are really crappy cams,
image-wise. but they take a picture, and that is it. it's good in a pinch
if you have absolutely nothing else and no money.
i have it now as cam #2 in ana2. it just sits on my desk and takes a picture
of the room that has the couch in it.
it's hard to explain all of this.
but long story short, the camcorder i sent you is THE broken camcorder. or
i should, more accuratelty, say i do not know if the camcorder is broken yet...it
is the ac adaptor that broke and i won't know until i can turn the camcorder
on as to whether or not the camcorder , itself, sustained any damage.
i don't know how on earth ---- wrote down the wrong serial number and model.
that is truly truly bizarre and i have no explanation for it.
but it would explain why the AC adaptor he bought will not work with that
camcorder.
but now you have THEE camcorder, so all of this can , hopefully, be rectified
:)
mom:
The numbers were not written down incorrectly because the original adaptor which was plugged into the camcorder which tipped over is the same number of the adaptor ---- bought.( I still have the old adaptor from your camcorner that fell down) Never the less, I am not going to go any further with this because I already feel badly enough about it. Fact is, now I feel extremely terrible. If you say this is the camcorder I broke I will take it to the shop and if it cannot be fixed I will buy you a new one.
me:
mom, i have no explanation as to
how ---- wrote down different numbers.
all i can say is that i only have 2 camcorders. that's it! one is broken,
one is not.
the one that is not broken is plugged in. the broken one is now in your possession.
there is NO way in the universe that i could possible send you the wrong camcorder.
elves would have to have come in and switched camcorders on me in the middle
of the night or we would have had to all switch to another parallel reality
where physical reality shifted.
both ideas i am willing to ponder!
BUT, the facts are..i only own 2 camcorders. so how is it that i could possibly
send you the wrong one? i know my camcorders as i have intimately dealt with
them daily now for long periods of time. i constantly touch them and adjust
them and know what each one does.
they both have different menu systems, different kinds of nightvisions, different
effects etc etc etc.
i know these cameras inside and out.
there isn't an hour that goes by that i am not looking at it, touching it,
adjusting it, looking at it, or walking by it.
the one i have plugged in right now has always been in the OTHER room, the
room that now has the bed in it.
that one is the one that works. that was not the camcorder that fell down
when you moved the table. the table is not in that room. you remember what
room you were in. the room that now has the couch. i only have 2 rooms thus
2 camcorders.
the room you were in that had the camcorder in it that fell down is now in
your possession.
i never moved the broken camcorder to the other room. it has always remained
in the room it was broken in and the camcorder that is not broken has always
remained in the other room.
and that is the one that is plugged in right now. if you look at anacam right
now it is pointed at the bed and has been every since you moved the bed in
there.
there is no other camcorder in this house. i could not have possibly picked
up yet another camcorder and sent you the wrong one because i do not own a
3rd one.
do you see?
there is no reason to feel EXTRA bad now. i don't understand why you do!
it is GOOD that you now have the camcorder so that it nw can get the right
ac adpator and it can work, yes?
now we know why the ac adaptor that ---- bought does not work for that camcorder
because for some ODD reason, somehow, someway, for reasons neither of any
of us can fathom, steve wrote down some OTHER camcorder's model #. how this
happened is a mystery greater than that of the sphinx.
but it's EASILY solvable now, yes?
EVERYTHING IS OK :)
there is no reason to panic or get upset or feel bad.
all that camcorder needs is the right AC adaptor and all is fine!
it's good i sent it to you so there can be no way that any more confusion
can happen about this :)
everything is hunky dory! no worries!, ok? :)
oh i see, you have the ac adaptor
that broke.
so he didn't write it down, he has the ac adaptor and you still have it there.
none the less, that is the ac adaptor that was plugged into the camcorder
i mailed you.
so now you have all the pieces to this puzzle! so yay for that :)
but still weird that the one he ordered will not work for the camcorder.
but you have it all there now. the ac adaptor AND the camcorder, and the new
ac adaptor that didn't work, so someone should be able to figure it out as
you have all the parts now.
:)
mom:
It is very normal for a person to feel very badly when they break someone else's equipment even if it was accidental. It was a VERY expensive piece of equipment and I broke it. I will pay for it no matter what it costs. Don't blame ----. He wrote down the correct numbers. I am the one to blame. I take complete responsibility for it. No one is in a parallel universe. Elves were not involved.
me:
well elves MIGHT be involved :)
you never know!
i'm sorry i misunderstood that you have the actual ac adaptor that broke at
your house.
i did write:
"oh i see, you have the ac adaptor that broke.
so he didn't write it down, he has the ac adaptor and you still have it there.
none the less, that is the ac adaptor that was plugged into the camcorder
i mailed you.
so now you have all the pieces to this puzzle! so yay for that :)
but still weird that the one he ordered will not work for the camcorder.
but you have it all there now. the ac adaptor AND the camcorder, and the new
ac adaptor that didn't work, so someone should be able to figure it out as
you have all the parts now."
don't feel badly!
ok?
there is nothing to worry about.
i love you ok?
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thus is my day so far.
that and there was this parade for saint patrick's day in my neighbourhood
that was as loud as can be.
THOUSANDS of people, drunk out of their minds, honking horns LOUDLY and constantly
with the gleefulness of 3 year olds went on for HOURS. i have such a headache.
i read on my LJ and in the news that a lot of people were hit with giant snowstorms.
here it is sunny and springishly warm.
i had nightmares that my bbay was born prematurely and very deformed. today i read that the antibiotic i am on (tomorrow is the last day of it) can cause premature labour. i am not happy about this.
"getting rid of things and clinging
to emptiness
is an illness of the same kind.
it's just like throwing oneself into a fire
to avoid being drowned."
--yung-chia
look happy happy:
http://www.youtube.com/v/3anDCh0qKg8
look joy joy:
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