| february
20, 2007 |
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http://www.ana2.com/private/2cams.shtml
8:33pm
watching amercian idol for the 1st
time this season.
baking tator tots.
missing M. he should be home soon....
one more tech gliche is aloe cam saves only 1/2 of the photos.
i don't get it.
they seem to be maming it to ana2 ok, thank goodness. but when i save them,
they are only half saved.
weird.
5:57pm
i pluged my best mic in to the sound
recorder that comes with windows.
the shure mic.
still...i cannot record any sound on this simplest of devices.
(accessories, entertainment, sound recorder)
i do not understand.
the reason i want it plugged straight into my computer is because i want to
have live sound during the birth of my baby on live365.
if i cannot get one of the best microphones in the world, brand new, to work
with my computer to be able to broadcast live sound...then what on earth?
seriously have i bought the most cursed computer on the planet or what is
going on?
i have a sound card in there.
i mean i have to otherwise how would i listen to music , right?
what the hell, man?
and weirdly, when i switch to the 640 by 480 pixel version on chillcam for
cam2, in the preview window it is totally fuct and i cannot really see what
i am pointing on at all.
this is a "newer" version of chillcam than i have ever used before,
but it's the only version that work's on m's computer (so far)
so....i might just have to change back to 320 x 240 for cam2 because it's
pointless to have a cam on and not even be able to tell what it's taking a
picture of.
i seriously am working my ass off
here trying to do new things for you and to no avail (except that i did get
a second cam running, as limited as it is)
i've been trying to upload large videos to blip.tv , the place that does not
censor you, own your material or place a time limit on your video, as youtube
does.
and everytime i try to upload a video (this one i am trying is 14 minutes
long)
it times out on me.
i have put so much effort into these things....
if the universe is trying to tell me something i have no idea what it is except
to go jump in a lake and forget about trying to get ana2 back to it's original
state.
here i am, almost 10 years later....with
a "better" computer...faster connection (not 56k modem)
so called better technology...and yet almost everything is completely and
utterly nonfunctional.
WHAT IS GOING ON?
i'm going to crawl back into bed.
i need to eat something but i am
not hungry.
i am having trouble eating and when i do eat it goes straight through me.
i feel physically and emotionally miserable at this moment.
i feel so drained and exhausted from struggling with the simplest of software
and hardware.
it sucks the living creativity out of me.
i think i felt the baby move again
last night.
i'm still not sure.
it's a really odd feeling that i have not yet found the words to describe.
i can't wait for M to come home.
he almost always cheers me up.
i need to dquish into him and smell his scent and feel his warmth.
i feel fragile and vulnerable.
i feel a need to unplug from the world news in a big way and people who have
really myopic views of things.
i am getting in way too many arguments about anna nicole and britney spears
for my health.
i know that sounds ridiculous....but these things all are HUGE MIRRORS to
how women are viewed and treated, in general.
and so while many people may think of these "topics" as trivial
mundane fluffy nonsense...it really brings out the core of people's mysogyny
in a way that makes my skin crawl.
and how women are viewed and treated , in general is a BIG MIRROR as to how
society treats itself, down to each and every single person on this planet
and every living entity, actually.
it's all connected and it's all one.
and why so very few people can see this is beyond me.
or they pretend to see it...as long as it doesn't include anyone they thing
is
unworthwhile" of being part of the "one" just because they
think their music sucks or they think they are an airhead or insert whatever
other cliche in there.
it churns my stomache to pieces.
4:57pm
year of the golden (or red/fire) pig
i didn't know this was a special year of the pig...the GOLDEN pig.
children born in this year are said to be blessed with a wealthy and prosperous
life.
rockin'
according to sources on the net this either happens every 60 years.
so i have a little golden pig
in me :)
neat :)
so funny since i call all my dogs, piglets :)
(side note, i am a fire horse
and M is a metal rooster. i wonder what this bodes for us all?)
4:11pm
i made cam2 by 640 by
480, as well.
i'll make a page for it to be smaller, too.
a work in progress.
i am massively irritated today.
i have so much to do but i just want to curl up in a ball.
i need to get an usb extension cord
for this logitech cam.
it jhas the shortest cord on earth so it's hard to move it around and get
more interesting angles.
i'm trying to save the images from
cam2 with aloecam. but aloecam keeps shutting off because it does that if
you have not registered it.
but i HAVE registered it.
i bought it, have the cd, and have the registration code.
i've put the code in twice now.
what is going ON with me and software?
i swear to god it is insane.
1:00am
ohmigod, i THINK i've got an actual
SECOND can running on ana2 now. no shit.
god what a tech fest.
http://www.ana2.com/private/2cams.shtml
(it says it is cam2, but for some odd reason i have named it cam3 long ago...go figure. so ya, if you want to save it it's called cam3.jpg but i'll call it cam2. confusing? yes.)
did you know that webcam32 is now
discontinued????
arrrrrrrrrrgh.
that was the last one.
koolkam is nonfunctionla and no one writes back.
the only place left now is chillcam...they don't write back either but at
least you can still download the trial off the website.
there are 150 hours remaining on my trial version.
i installed it on M's computer.
it's just a crappy logitech cam but it'll have to do for now.
i hope chillcam will not freeze on his computer like it does on mine *crosses fingers*
and i hope that it it does not freeze and my remaining free hours run out, there is still someone around who will let me buy it ( again, again, again) and give me a reg code for the dang thing.
!!!
so far so good.
pray to the gods.
so now i am going to leave THAT one in this living room that was the bedroom. i don't know what to call this room anymore.
and i am going to move the other crappy camcorder i still have left into the thing/bedroom.
so yes there will be TWO cameras
on all the time now.
i HOPE.
i hope i hope i pray.
can i get ana2 back to it's way?
please god please.
it was a good day and a bad day.
good: got a cam running.
bought some cheap lingerie at target to get M's motor running (not that it
has had any trouble running, but heck...you know what i mean, ya?)
i guess i did it because #1 i want
more cool lingerie, even if it is cheap from target to please ma' maaaaaaan
(and me)
and also i was a bit manic after trying for the FOURTH time to go get my fucking
blood drained out of me so they can process it and find out if i have any
various diseases for this whole pregnancy thing.
well we get there and all they take
is INSURANCE.
not even cash.
they couldn't even tell me how much it wouild cost if i HAD cash.
so ya....
i have to now wait again until NEXT
monday and drive to a different one that takes cash.
and that will be the FIFTH goddam time i will be psyching myself up for this
shit.
*screams into void pathetically*
so ya, we went to target and i bought a bunch of cheap lingerie and high heel shoes and then paraded around in them for M. his little fashion show :)
i keep seeing 111, btw.
(a side note)
i have pictures to get up for you.
i'll get a few up for you now but i have more for you later on.....
i just don't have time right now to sort through literally over 1,000 saved
ana2 pix.
i'll do it when i wake up.
i need to calm down now and listen to coast to coast.
M is kissing my neck and likes my pink thong :)
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