| february
2, 2007 |
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12:56pm
today full moon.
i feel exceptionally.....
i am making chicken , potatoes, garlic, carrots, in a curry green tomato sauce.
baking.
listening to tragic songs....ipod.
dreams of floods, sex, death.
frozen white everything.
conflicting feelings about everything, it's spring fever.
let me loose.
i want to live, i want to die, i want
to fuck, i want to be left alone.
take me to the river.
i miss icicles.
i deleted a lot of my LJ entries.
i trimmed M's hair. he is gorgeous.
i miss cooking.
i should go outside and do errands but it's butt ass freezing.
windchill factor, frozen in place instantly.
i want to lie on the grass and flow
into the core.
i want to disappear into pleasure.
my stomache is quite puffed.
i can't suck it in anymore.
i have 2 hearts.
2 minds.
am i about to die or about to live?
or is it just another purgatory?
6 months from now i will have a human
child holding my fingers.
black birds fly in the distance.
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