| january
23, 2007 |
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weird:
http://www.mnspeak.com/mnspeak/archive/post-2546.cfm
people talking about my pregnancy.
not in such a nice way, mostly.
it's things like this that make me
sit on the fence on whether or not i want to talk about my pregnancy at all.
but i guess i should be used to this by now.
but i never quite get used to it.
when i go out on the town now, it
makes me wonder if these people will be there.
and others who do not talk about me on forums from here but have opinions
about me without knowing me at all.
i feel odd. awkward.
3:15pm
anyone in ana2 live in nashville, TN?
2:12pm
yesterday i went to the little store
to get some things and it was GONE!
it went out of business! when???
i knew they were not doing well, the place had bad feng shui. they kept ordereding
the wrong things.
i always wanted to help them and take over. the place itself has great potential
and a perfect location.
weirdly, when i saw they were gone it jarred a dream in me i had forgotten
that i had had the night before that i ha dtaken over a failing grocery store
and made it a total success. ordering food that delighted everyone.
this mornign after M left for work,
i dreamed for hours about this place and how i would redesign it, what colours
i would paint the walls, what i would name it, what food i would carry and
other things.
what vibe i would want to give it. how i could make it work.
it's all very intense and real.
i'm not really sure if in reality i should actually pursue this situation,
as this woudl be taking on a HUGE THING especially in the condition i am already
in.
getting a business loan, making contacts with people i would buy the food
from and other things.
decorating the place. hiring the staff. dealing with shoplifters. good lord,
just dewaling with business licences and taxes and it would be quite the all
consuming operation.
btu once i gave it a few years and turned it into a well oiled running machine,
i could just oversee it and let it run and have this business that gives me
money on the side.
but man, ya, HARD HARD work at 1st. the place needs to be majorly overhauled.
but i can see the entire vision and know exactly what needs to be done and
how to do it.
how completely unexpected really to even be thinking this.
that place just did not understand this neighbourhood at all and who lives
here and what we want andwhat woudl be successful.
and it's sucha PRIME location.
i knwo the rent is off the chart and the electric bill alone is staggering,
having talked to the owners before.
i would be probably just breaking even the 1st few years, which is normal
for any new business.
but it's not like i would be puttng in an entirely new thing in that place.
people know it as a grocery store and that it was it would mainly still be.
but i want to this place to have AMBIANCE and carry more organic, locally
grown, and homecooked food.
plus i could put up art in there by local artists. have a palce where people
can sit and have coffee.
play cool music. sell yarn, hats, whatever i want. i mean really, i couild
do anything i want in there, almost. i could make it a really fun place.
it has great lighting, too, which is just so essential.
i feel like going over there and taking down the # to call and just touring
the guts of the place to see if i am just being super unrealistic or what.
i certainly do not want to work in a grocery store all my life. but i could
certainly set one up and look after it for a few years and then just take
a cut of the profits after it's up and running and just keep an eye on it
after that. heck, in the back of the store i could probably set up an art
studio for myself.
another thing i am excited about is
i am going to get a tarot reading from william
henry! tomorrow at 3pm :)
he is one of my favourite people in the world and has had a great affect on
me.
so much knowledge he has!
he reads tarot over the phone and i really need an objective tarot reading
right now, so the timing is perfect, plus i get a free dvd that goes along
with his new book with the reading.
i am psyched.
he gives tours of egypt and a big dream of mine is to someday be able to afford
to go on one of those tours with him. he is really a remarkable man who has
an exceptional ability to connect the dots.
12:39am
i called ducky on her show and asked
about vibrating cockrings :)
her show rocked! it'll be on tomorrow night , too. you can listen online for
FREE with their free 3 day trial.
so listen! it's the best :)
i finally met with my midwife today.
yay!
she is going to give me my 1st exam on thursday.
it's so cool because she will come to my house.
i feel really good about this that i have made this progress and i now have
a professional on my side to help me along now.
so much to tell you but i have been so preocuupied. i will try to write more
when i wake up tomorrow :)
and it's cool 'cause she's ok with my webcam being on during the birth :)
i've been feeling this lately:
"What is round ligament pain?
Round ligament pain generally refers to a brief, sharp, stabbing pain or a
longer-lasting dull ache that pregnant women commonly feel in the lower abdomen
or groin, starting in the second trimester.
You may feel round ligament pain as a short jabbing sensation if you suddenly change position, such as when you're getting out of bed or out of a chair or when you cough, roll over in bed, or get out of the bathtub. You may feel it as a dull ache after a particularly active day — when you've been walking a lot or doing some other physical activity.
The round ligaments surround your uterus in your pelvis. As your uterus grows during pregnancy, the ligaments stretch and thicken to accommodate and support it. These changes can occasionally cause pain on one or both sides of your abdomen.
You may feel the pain starting from deep inside your groin, moving upward and outward on either side to the top of your hips. The pain is internal, but if you were to trace it on your skin, it would follow the bikini line on a very high-cut bathing suit"
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