| january
2 , 2007 |
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i just screwed up the index page
for past anagrams somehow.
argh.
i will fix it tomorrow.
gah.
1:28pm
well, we're off into another year.
i wish i had something amazing and profound to say, but i just don't :)
the sun is out again today for 2 days in a row now after weeks and weeks of
grey fog.
it's wonderful :)
it does help my mood somewhat but i am still full of anxiety.
about being pregnant and about my court date coming up on jan 8.
my dreams are full of fear and anxiety and running from the law.
over canyons and down garbage chutes.
i'm trying to add up all the anagrams and pictures in 2006 and also i relaize
i forgot to do that in 2005.
so that is taking awhile. hours and hours.
also i am coming across many anagrams that are broken and need to be fixed.
so i am making a record of those.
i've been uploading my entire site slowly onto my computer.
i hope one of these days i can redesign the directory so it makes more sense.
everything is willy nilly.
i'd like to redesign everything.
streamline it.
but for now i'm trying to just keep up with normal life and eat and clean
and deal with pregnancy and trial and then after that social services and
then god knows what. i'm just trying to maintain my sanity.
i'm so irritable and exhausted.
yesterday i slept most of the day as M cleaned and cooked and a very delicious
meal.
today i wish i had the energy to clean more.
i want to paint these floors. i want to do so much.
but i ma so exhausted and my anxiety exhausts me all the more that i just
can only take one minute at a time and try to remain as positive as i can.
but life is certainly a TON beter than it was this time last year, i can say
that with certainty.
i have many plans for 2007, as i always have many plans for every year.
but we'll see what happens.
years take on a life of their own.
i have a feeling 2007 is going to
be a lot of hard work and getting down to brass tacks.
and when it is done, and i survive it , i can look back and feel it was rewarding.
but while going through it, it will be , perhaps, tough. as i really need
to get disciplined and don't feel an ounce of it in me at this moment.
yesterday i researched a bit on
how to make your own stone house.
i'd really like to do that.
THAT i do have the discipline for.
how odd.
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