| december
31, 2006 |
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happy new year!
we made love from 2006 into 2007 :)
7:00pm
today has been a lazy last day of
2006.
in bed watching fred astaire :)
then i fell asleep and M cleaned the kicthen :)
now we are going to watch another movie :)
i hope everyone is having a relaxing new year's eve :)
here is M's journal entry for today:
"New Year's Eve [Dec. 31st,
2006|06:44 pm]
happy New Year's, everyone :) good luck to you all :)
2006 was an amazing year. i've had some strange ones in my time. and this was one of them. but this time, it was an extraordinary year in a definitively GOOD sense. my life has changed for the better, without a doubt. i've moved forward.
last year at this time i was living in a house with 6 other 20-something's, preparing a meal of Chicken baked in Champagne, and out to a party with housemates Leo the Argentine Lenninist, and James. i remember it was cold as hell, below-zero here in Minnesota, and a foot of snow on the ground. a few hours after midnight.
...
and somehow, i recieved the greatest gift i could imagine -- i found true love in June, with a woman i'd thought even impossible to have. i'd loved Ana Voog in many ways, for years. but somehow, improbably and amazingly and astoundingly, this year i was given the chance to fall *IN* love with her. and have that feeling reciprocated, routinely :) always and always.
then the suprise of her becoming pregnant with our Child -- our Fetus! she is home to our Fetus, the mix of her and myself. "the product of our love" :) a new life. who would have thought it??? it is still suprising, and exciting, and scary as hell.
but, True Love we do have. and that's all we really need.
...
it's also the year, 2006, that i found a job. i was penniless last year at this time. penniless and scared to death. paralyzed. not knowing what to do with myself. terrified of the Business World. terrified and filled with a mix of loathing towards them for perpetuating such a fucked system of life, and loathing of myself for being unable to think up a way to fix my predicament and to have the enegry to be able to put some sort of plan into ACTION.
in february, i found Surdyk's. damned Surdyk's. miserably flawed. but, it has kept me afloat. and gotten me out of the financial, and in some ways spiritual, sink-hole, that i was in. it gave me cash and some sort of momentum.
being in love with Ana, tho, gave me the energy i realy needed. and i'm still re-powering. still re-charging, after 6 or so years that, while good in some respects -- i reached a creative peak that i never would have expected -- was also very hard, emotionally and spiritually. i felt very alone and troubled. there were times i thought i was losing my mind, and times i thought i was just losing my will to live.
thank the Gods, that time is over. and i'm re-generating. healing. just like Ana is.
both of us had a rough time of it, for a while.
.....
it was a hell of a year, 2006. it began very uncertainly. my situation was very, very precarious. but it has turned everything around.
my life has fundamentally changed, and for the better :) thank the f*cking Gods :)
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today, Ana and i are celebrating with a Fred Astaire marathon. we're watching TOP HAT, BROADWAY MUSICAL OF 1940, THE BARKLAYS OF BROADWAY, and FUNNY FACE :) and of course Dick Clark's New Year's Eve in Times Square when the Ball Drops.
and amazingly, it SNOWED today
:) just like we'd hoped it would. when we planned Fred Astaire Day months
ago, we said to each other how perfect i would be to snuggle in bed together
and watch Fred Astaire movies and watch the snow fall out of the big window
overlooking the Mississippi.
and just as we put in TOP HAT, and i'd settled down with my mug of coffee
and Ana with her Mango and Non-Alcoholic Mimosa -- BOOM! Snow started to fall
:) it was truly PERFECT. i couldn't belive it.
i take it as a very, very good sign.
2007...i've got a good feeling
about you. let's shake it up.
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