| december
8th, 2006 |
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9:50pm
cleaning cleaning cleaning cleaning.
i emptied out the white shelf with the doors in the bedroom that had my yarn
in it and moved it all into the thing room so that M can use that whole thing
for his stuff.
so just rearranging like mad.
so much more to go.
i think i'll go to bed early.
i'm wiped.
did laundry, dishes, cooked.
time to put on pajamas and settle down.
7:06pm
M's journal entry from yesterday
(i hope he doesn't mind i put it here)
"[Dec. 8th, 2006|12:59 am]
it's been a long time since i've talked about my inner-life in any depth here
in this journal. or my paper journal, or anywhere in writing. which is sad.
i want to have a chronicle of my life for as many parts of it as i'm able
to have. but with www.ana2.com, there is an archiving going on, pictures for
the 1st time in my life, pictures constantly uploaded to the web and off to
ana's YAHOO! mailing list, to thousands and thousands of people all over the
world.
it's different. it's a different sort of record. but it is a record.
any troubles or worries or dreams
i have i talk about with Ana. she's my outlet now...for now. i'd like to get
back to keeping up my journal again like i used to. but this is new for me,
having someone there every day to talk to and be with.
i'd rather do that, for now, than to spend as much time as i was picking my
words and trying to get down in writing what i'm goin through, what's on my
mind, scribbling down ideas, making associations between concepts and images
and stories and symbols and etc. it IS still in my mind. and with Ana, thank
god i can talk with her and share all of it with her and vice versa. it's....as
close to perfect as can possibly matter. in many, many, many ways.
so, for now, i share with her. and bits come out thru her, on ana2, of what i'm doing. and pics of me, and her, and our life together.
........
anyway...
last night, watched the Ian McKellan version of RICHARD III. and started reading a book with Ana: TANTRIC AWAKENING. rawr rawr :)
and tonight finished reading SO
LONG, AND THANKS FOR ALL THE FISH. such a happy story! i was damn glad to
read it, and happy for Arthur. good for Douglas Adams, i say! a very warm
book. very very warm. poor Marvin :( but he achieved the impossible. everybody
did.
after finishing, and scrubbing the kitchen floor and thinking about it, i
thought that the David Bowie song "Heroes" would be the perfect
song to go along with the closing credits if they made a feature film of it
:) no doubt.
...next, the short story YOUNG ZAPHOD PLAYS IT SAFE, and then the final installment, MOSTLY HARMLESS.
...it is very quiet. Ana is in the bathroom, experimenting with her hair. only the sound of the dogs, and me typing, ratt-a-tatt-tatt.
Pooka stares at me.
and thank you for your kind words,
re: the most likely baby-to-be...my friends, you are The Tops"
5:52pm
back from errands. sent off some
hats and a big box of stuff i woeed this guy from a million years ago.
now i still have one more big box and 2 hats to mail.
i'm getting it done and my hallways is getting clearer, it feels good :)
i went to the little store for food but they were out of everything!
i had to resort to buying canned veggies. yuck.
so it's chicken with canned veggie soup for later.
i'm tired as all get out.
i sent these 2 pix to my mailing
list yesterday:
http://ana.livejournal.com/1829116.html
and some idiot wrote back "grow
up."
usually i can let things slide but this pissed me off.
i researched i found his phone number, address, myspace profile, place of
work, and found out he also belongs to the white supremisist organization
called "stormfront"
i emailed him back his phone number and address and told him if he'd not like
his wife and children to find out what a pervert he is, then he better fuck
off, coward.
i didn't hear back from him.
if he bugs me one more time i'll tell the college he works for that he belongs
to a white supremisist hate organization and see how that works for him.
i hope someone sticks a burning cross up his ass.
2:48pm
i only got 4 hours of sleep. i'm
so tired. trying to get off valium is a bitch.
it's sunny out and i am trying to get stuff done before the sun goes down.
mail some hats.
one person i cannot find their address...ahhhhhrrrgh.
i could swear i had it.
i am disorganized.
from now until the middle of jan
i am going to be solely concentrating on making new hats for pluckyfluff.com's
new book she is making.
so i must work my tail off.
i am glad for this because it gives me something to focus on and feel creative
and productive and not just sit and worry and theorize all day about pregnancy.
gonna buy a bit of groceries and
get a new battery for my watch.
a lot to do.
got to give a move on.
then i will probably collapse into bed.
more to say but gotta go...
10:55am
words soon.
going back to sleep.
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