| nov
4th, 2006 |
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7:34pm
it's almost a full moon.
and i sure can feel it.
*chains self to the wall*
5:57pm
i'm having a day of intense thinking.
pouring over M's journals which i don't know is totally ok, but hey...curiousity
killed the cat, i always say.
and he has read mine and can read any paper ones i have written if he wants
to. it's all here.
i love his mind.
i need to hear his voice.
the hours feel like weeks.
i don't feel like being on cam because of complex reasons due to my venus
being in pisces and a bunch of other things i am sorting through.
i need him here to fuck my brains out. not because i am horny but i need that
communion with him right now.
right NOW.
impatient aries, i am.
i take my chill pills like a good girl.
1:50pm
maybe i'll save lost for tonight.
it feels weird to watch it in the day.
"the truth about the queen of sheba" is on obs in 10 minutes i may
watch that and crochet.
i need to wash my hair but don't feel like doing so.
1:00pm
M said he'd write me an email when
he got to his parent's house. but so far, no email :(
allso no phone call. left a message on his voice mail right now.
i sure do hope he calls or writes soon!
i worry about his 4 hours drive in the dark through south dakota.
he left around 1am. he said he likes to drive in the dark because it's peaceful
and less traffic.
oh good, yay, he just wrote me an email and he arrived there safely :)
*whew*
so, the saddam hussein verdict is
tomorrow.
i didn't know. catching up on the news a bit.
man, i sure i am glad i don't live anywhere near iraq, that's going to be
one heck of ride over there for awhile, as if it hasn't already.
they say that civil war may erupt after the verdict, which is ridiculous,
because there is already a civil war there and it's been happening for at
least a year now.
i can't believe that they are still trying to tell us there is no civil war.
i guess after the huddesin verdict they may let us know "officially"
so then they can blame it on the verdict and not on the entire fuck up of
going over there in the 1st place.
sebastian appears to be fine. his
pee is normal colour.
who knows why it was the way it was for awhile there.
a urinary tract infection which has now healed?
he does have sensitive digestion.
still i'll keep on eye on him to see if the problem reappears.
i downloaded the last episode of Lost in itunes, since i missed it and i think
i'll watch that now.
i'm still feeling a bit lost myself, but my home is peaceful and i think things
are on the mend with me. i surely do hope so.
i've been pretty flipped out the past few weeks, with patches of total happiness
here and there, such as trick or treating and such.
but M is all moved in now, and so i am adjusting myself to the energy of his
things and letting my things merge with his, which is a process for me.
M said his parents were sad that i did not go and that his mom put on the
"good sheets" for me and his dad even finished repainting the room,
all for me in putting there best foot forward to meet me.
that is SO sweet!
i am sad i am not there.
but such is life.
i watch the barges go peacfully by.
i'd love to go out for a nice long walk but now i've got this black toe to
contend with.
i wear slippers or go barefoot.
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