| nov
3rd, 2006 |
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M has left.
it was hard...
but at least i got to hug him at all.
i jelped me pack.
i made him a care package and gingers snaps and pajamas :)
now he is on his way listening to c2c
and i am going to crawl inot bed and listen to the same show.
i miss him.
10:25pm
finally out the last load in the
laundry.
i hooked up M's computer but i don't have an ethernet cord long enough for
him to get hooked up to the net.
m gets off work in a few minutes.
i miss him so much.
i am so sad that i am not going with him to to see his parents and will be
alone until monday.
i think it's sebastian who has the blood in his urine.
but i think it might be clearing up, i'm not sure.
i keep an watchful eye.
looked up all the reasons why a dog could have blood in their urine.
he doesn't seem to be in pain or unhappy in any way and he isn't acting any
differently than normal.
i took my meds and look forward to listening to c2c with clean sheets on the
bed..
it was nice to visit my dad and i even saw my mom.
but i'm really glad to be home where everything is familiar.
my mom's house looks like something out of better homes and gardens.
she painted a giagntic painting FINALLY. i've been wanting her to do that
all the years i've known her, and i have to say the painting was STUNNING.
it was of flowers blowing in the wind in an impressionist way.
she really does have an eye for form, colour, and design.
her technique was masterful.
i knew she was a good painter! i'm so glad it's finally coming out of her.
she seemed extremely pleased that i loved it.
i can't wait to see what more she paints.
in the bedroom is stayed at my dad's
is my old dresser from my childhood.
i looked in the drawers and was surprised to see my old wallpaper in the bottoms
from when i was 5 or 6 years old. big red and pink flowers. pretty hideous
really.
but it sure was a surprise to see and the floodgates of memories it makes
you feel to see it.
8:57pm
doing lots and lots of laundry and
making room for M's computer on my desk and a ton of stuff like that.
put clean sheets on the bed.
7:17pm
watching the ghost whiperer.
had a little nap.
weird dreams.
4:44pm
my plant died while i was away :(
either dieter or sebastian has blood in his urine just a little bit.
i hope i figure out which one.
god. i hope it's not serious.
and another vet bill, i cannot afford it!
i have JUST enough money for rent and that is all i have.
not even enough to pay for phone or electric yet.
i need to go check my mail and i hope there are no disconnection notices :(
i'm doing laundry and dishes and picking up things.
no time for a nap yet.
maybe i will force myself to stay awake somehow.
it's so cold here.
i turned the heat on.
the dogs are nestled in the bed.
i don't think i should go with M to see his parents because i have to make
sure either deiter or sebastian are ok.
also i need to pay my rent on sunday, and i don't want to give it to them
on saturday as maybe the bank they use is open and i still need things to
clear in there, just by a few bucks.
i hate living this way, so financially on the edge.
hopefully things will get better.
my mom gave me some veggies. and so i will probably make a soup.
and i have noodles and rice.
4:18pm
i'm back from my dad's.
words and pix later.
unpacking and settling back in.
tonight M leaves to go to his parent's for the weekend.
i am considering going with because i miss him soooo much and i want to meet
his family.
but i am so so tired.
i think i might also like to stay home, relax, play with the pups, work on
my bedspread, clean, and stuff.
it's a 4 hour ride there and he would leave around 11pm, so i would just sleep
in the back seat of his car or something.
god, i wish he wasn't going today.
i need to snuggle with him badly.
on halloween we went bowling.
i dropped the bowling ball on my big toe.
it's totally grey now and hurts to walk.
poor big toe.
i am also a TERRIBLE bowler.
just absolutely awful.
i think i have to take a little nap
now.
i'm nackered.
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