| october
26th , 2006 |
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6:04pm
jaosn said he's not going to go to
the show now.
so one less thing to deal with.
i'm going to go wash the bleach out of my hair now.
5:39pm
i bleached my hair by putting ziplock
bags over my hands.
so at least that part will be done.
i'm not going to leave the bleach in very long. i just want to bleach it so
it's not brown and so that when i dye it a colour, the colour will stay in
and show up.
don't think i'll have time to dye my hair a colour. just time to bleach.
ohmigod i just realized that tonight
jason is also going to this. so this will be the 1st time he sees M and i
out.
weird.
they did briefly meet for one second by accodent when , after doing jason's
hair, jason walked me back and wanted to see the dogs so he came up and M
was home.
and they shook hands and that was it.
but ya...this is going to be weird for both of us, i'm sure.
gah.
i forgot about that factor.
*stomache ache*
5:11pm
talked to mark. dunno how much i'll
be able to hang with him before or after his show.
but yay, at least i get to see him :)
i want to dye my hair or bleach it and latex gloves are myseriously no where
to be found.
i've looked everywhere!
gah.
4:18pm
good grief i slept until 4pm and
now better start getting ready for the negativland show.
i can't decide whether to black my roots and redye my hair red.
i had terrible dreams that the devil was a hairy man in a bear suit.
he kept sending my voodoo dolls covered in staples and new age music with
subliminal messages in them. i couldn't get him out of my house and i couldn't
get anyone to help me get rid of him.
i kept having to take staples out of people's faces.
he kept saying "i have a message for you"
but i kept saying i didn't want to hear it.
then the guy playing in the man in the suit was dave chappelle.
i decided he was maybe feeding off my fear and so started to just ignore him
and pretend that i did not care at all that he was in my bedroom creeping
me out.
he kept blowing out the lightbulbs and i kept having to change them. everything
felt evil like there was something horible watching me rigth behind my neck.
weird backwards whispers would flow through the house. he mesmerized children
to come bring him presents while he would try and teach them horrible things
through cartoon propoganda.
it was really creepy and awful.
i'm glad i'm awake from that.
called mark on his cell. he
is probably at soundcheck.
M is going to try and get off early so we can go as early as we can. show
at 8pm sharp!
i really wanted to hang with them before the show and have dinner or something
but do to M and his work schedule and i do not have a car and neither do they,
i do not know if this will be possible.
day 3 of prozac. am i normalizing?
i'm not sure yet. i think so?
felt really sick with a headache yesterday and threw up.
spent the rest of the day in bed and finally started feeling better by the
time Lost was on.
i'll go do my hair now.
i'm really sick of being in bed feeling ill.
today i do not feel ill.
it will be good to get out of the house and see a show.
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