may 25th, 2006

7:42pm

there it is.
goodbye my litle danelctro.

6:51pm

today is intense for me (what day isn't?)
many decades ago my 1st boyfriend, ed, said if ever i want to part with my 1965 danelectro bass, please ask him 1st.
being a person of my word i asked him if he wanted to buy it from me because i was updating my equipment.
this is the bass that has been featured on ALL my demos (which i will upload to you)
i hate the fact that a guy i hate will now own such a creature of a bass, but i know for a fact that with ed, it WILL have a good home and be very appreciated.
it is a very special bass and ed knows this.
so he is sending over an "assistant" to pick it up in an hour.
(god knows we both don't want to SEE each, for real)
hilariously, the guy who is going to pick it up is an x boyfriend of a roomate i had who was the roomate from HELL.
"from hell" would be flattering.
that's when i fouund out that peonies were my fave flower.
like a dog in love he brought her those GORGEOUS white peonies which she shrugged over, with no emotion.
because she was such a spoiled brat i took those peonies up into my room and smelled them for DAYS. it was heaven.
i had no idea such a beautiful and fragrant flower existed.
thank you pamela for your fuck ass spoiled fucktardery so i was able to take those flowers with no notice to her.
ass.
anyway a VERY long story. a story like "single white female"
the last i saw her was at sonia's funeral.
we made up then and i did mean to call her but then all the bad memories came flooding back and i didn't.

anyway....
in about 1/2 an hour my 1st every beautiful little danelectro bass will be in the hands of pamela's x boyfriend and then into the hands of my 1st boyfriend from highschool.
life is weird.

but it's really important to me for my musical creatures to make it into the right hands than in the wrong hands because of spite.
this is how much i love my instruments, although i do not consider myself a musician.
my instruments are creatures, like my dogs, i would never short change them because of my own petty selfishness.

5:38pm

http://www.ana2.com/private/sex/

i hope this makes up for the lameness of everything lately.
please bare with me as i grieve.

 

pain.
i will survive.



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horoscopes from:

http://syndicated.livejournal.com/is_aries/
http://www.astro.com/
http://www.tarot.com/astrology/
http://itsalllove.com/starry_eyed/starry_eyed.html

Your Horoscope for May 25 , 2006

Thankfully you lose a couple of those minor, but annoying aspects that have stopped life being as sweet as it could. So things should seem to run that little bit smoother today. However, in terms of romance your flirty behavior is likely to send out mixed signals to someone.

and

Keep calm **
The energy of this influence comes rather explosively and may take on a life of its own. Its basic intent is to help you achieve a certain objective or make an impression on the world. But if you feel frustrated for any reason, the energy may be expressed in such a way as to work against your interests, as you would realize if you were in a calmer frame of mind. If you can control yourself during this time, it will help you accomplish a great deal of work and initiate projects that you might otherwise be reluctant to tackle. With this influence, self- confidence is usually high, although if your normal level of confidence is low, it may come out as irritability and peevishness. This influence is particularly likely to cause trouble in your home if you hold in your anger at work but allow it to explode at home.

and

Thursday
Moon in Taurus
Venus trine Pluto ARIES-SAGITTARIUS

Can destruction be beautiful? I just watched a controlled demolition of a nuclear power plant cooling tower here not 60KM from my house. Explosive, destructive and exquisite at the same time. It's Venus and Pluto dancing and this is the mixture, finding the beauty and harmony in destruction. It's there, every tragedy is ready for a joke and the flow of gorgeous compassion to rain on it. This would be a great night to soften old scars, breath a fresh spark into a relationship that seems to have lost the fire. The perspective and presence of harmony is always there, it's us that has to align with perceiving it.

and

You might be ready to move on to your next feeling, but today you can gain more by staying with one experience longer. A whole new world can open as you settle in past the surface distractions. Even if you are scared of what may happen, pushing through your fears can bring love closer to you now.