may 10th, 2006

 

i cleaned and organized so much in the thing room today.
but i don't knwo if you can tell from these photos.
it's seems like no matter what i do in there it's always going to look stuffed to the gills.
i'm trying to get some thing together to get rid of for poor because they are taking donations at my building and i want to take advanatage of that. because everytime i try to give stuff away via leaving it out in the hallway, it seems the cleaning people always take it to the trash, which really really sucks.
so i'm going through everything and seeing what things i can get rid of and know it won't go in the trash.

 

4:52pm

i wish i felt in a social mood but i feel the opposite of that.
my friend, mark, from negativland is in town for the last week and has wanted to see me.
but i don't have a car and neither does he and this week has been so bloody intense for me.
today coojie and mark want to get together but i just don't feel up to it.
i'm excited about many things but i just can't be around people right now.
i would be very energy depleting for me, even i i love them.
i need to be alone with either just myself, or my dogs, or jason.
then friday is mark's art opening premiere. so i must psyche myself up for that and i know once i get there i will totally get into it and i'm really curioous and excited to see what it all is.
it took him a week to set it up!
and then the next day mark and carolyn want to go see that bodyworks exhibit at the science museum.
but i don't feel like doing that either..i mean i really want to see it, but i don't want to see it this weekend.
plus it's just frustrating to see my friend buy not reallt because we are involved in "activities. which is why he wants to get together tonight so we can just have time to talk without activities and lots of people around us.
but i just can't.
i need to nest. i need quiet.
i don't want to talk. about anything.
i have no energy to speak, to share ideas, to listen, to explain.
and i want to fiddle with my new gear or lay in my bed or go for a solitary walk.

3:44pm

my 8 track, headphones, and microphone came today :)
tomorrow i should be getting the loop station :)
*eeeee* :)

 

 


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horoscopes from:

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http://www.astro.com/
http://www.tarot.com/astrology/
http://itsalllove.com/starry_eyed/starry_eyed.html

Your Horoscope for May 10 , 2006

With a powerful aspect between your ruling planet and the moon your love life comes under the spotlight yet again. However, this time you?ll be determined to get to the bottom of a particular problem, and woe betide anyone who tries to block your efforts. As negative as it sounds this will actually be a positive day for you!

and

Valid during several weeks: Past behavior patterns that have become completely unconscious now become active and come into play without your knowing it. Your efforts at self-assertion are undermined by these behavior patterns that you are not even aware of. And unfortunately the people who are alienated by these actions probably will not come out and say so, but will work behind the scenes to block your efforts. The only way you can counter this effect is to become completely conscious of yourself and these little self-defeating acts. If you feel emotionally upset as you often will during this time, refrain from any kind of significant confrontation with others. Instead, confront yourself. It is best at this time to work alone as much as possible.


The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Mars in the 12th House 12
activity period from end of April 2006 until middle of June 2006.

and

Wednesday
Moon in Libra
Sun square Neptune TAURUS-AQUARIUS
Moon Void of Course 10:14pm PDT

With the moon in Libra and the biggies, the SUN and NEPTUNE squaring off this could be a bit of a volatile day. Plenty of energy to be sure. It's how you use it. There could be a bit of edginess in peoples psyche, so careful with the jokes meant to just break the ice, they could start and avalanche. Not that it would be a bad thing, we just have the core issues about community right at the surface. It's a good day to survey the condition of your buttons; what irritates you about your environment, but more importantly why? We're not chained to our reality, as humans' adaptability is one of our saving graces. Often we adapt to less then optimum conditions without knowing it, now is the time to make a few subtle shifts that can alter the day to day flow significantly.

and

You want and need your independence, but you also need relationships -- intimate, casual or business -- that provide companionship plus a more objective perspective. Now you may be more certain of yourself, believing that the emphasis is on you. Keep in mind that you might be glossing over an important element in your haste to justify yourself to others. Even if it's a challenge, find equilibrium by acknowledging the opposite point of view.