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11:13pm
sorry if that last entry was hard
to follow.
i'm just sort of "freeforming" my thoughts as they come.
making connections.
writing it down helps me sort it out.
i never did get the clean sheets
on my bed.
i'll do that tomorrow.
i'm getting ready for bed now.
10:16pm
if you put in "oddfellows"
and "pumpernickel" into google.
you get back some weird results.
i wish i could read german.
or just put in oddfellows and nickel.
very odd indeed.
also te other part of the dream that really stood out to me is on one gravestone
there were 3 ankhs linked with each other.
i just found out NOW that the symbol for the oddfellows is 3 circles LINKED.
how ODD is that??
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a nickel |
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notice the hands here are extremely similiar to that of on the nickel |
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interesting that one of the things oddfellows do is "bury the dead"
9:29pm
the show "the unit" was
as ridiculous and transparent a progoganda as one of thos eborn again christian
rtacts they give out that are so stupid as to be laughable.
but this one was not so laughable. it was vile.
totally marketed towards the african amercican and minority populations.
using LYNCHING as a symbol to not break down during torture.
"don't you break down black boy! your gandfather hung from a tree!"
of course, the 1st person to break down and confess was the white guy whose
wife was an atheist and not praying for him. and the black guy was the hero
because his wife prayed.
seriously, it was THAT stupid.
i can't believe that show even got made.
but nothing should surprise me anymore.
i cannot get that weird dream out of my head where i saw the men in the grey
suits in the cemetary and there were 2 tombstones that said "pumpernickel"
with huge goblin type statues with them.
and for a whole week i have been thinking , what does pumpernickel bread have
to do with anything sinister?
but lo and behold, it's etymology does lead back to "demons" in
a strange way!
http://www.straightdope.com/mailbag/mpumpernickel.html
so i think my dream was telling me some very interesting things by choosing
to show me such an absurd word on these tombstones with the weird ancient
egyptian writing and the "odd fellows" with the big eyes and grey
suits being completely into halloween.
they really wanted to scare people.
that was like their christmas.
the most celebrated and joyous occasion (not like they had any emotions) but
to scare children with ghosts and goblins and halloween type things was their
favourite thing to do.
i would have passed this dream off as purely a result of me reading so many
conspiracy theories and learning about aliens....
except for the fact that i had NO idea what pumpernickel meant until just
now and why on earth such a funny and happy word (in my mind, because i love
pumpernickel bread) would feature so prominently on tombstones meant to scare.
so just WEIRD.
this whole "collective unconscious" thing.
it freaks me out sometimes how i can tap into it.
and know hebrew letters and their meaning and dream about the tree of life
without knowing anything about it,
and have dreams about runes, and now this pumpernickel word.
i'm going to investigate this more.
very very strange.
" Its elements are pumpern 'to break wind', and Nickel 'a goblin; devil; rascal', originally a nickname from Nicholas."
why do so many things lead back to
saint nick?
it's all very very strange.
and if saint nick was such a nice guy...why is his name also used to mean
"devil"?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saint_Nicholas
http://www.stnicholascenter.org/Brix?pageID=100
http://www.xanga.com/KRAMPUS/407758375/item.html
"you better not laugh, you better not cry, you better not pout i'm telling you why..."
and if nickel is a german word for devil, then what is the connection between
the metal called "nickel" and and the 5 cent nickel? i know nickels
are supposed to be made of nickel, so duh on that.
but why did we choose it to be a 5?
then we have wooden nickels. "don't let anyone give you a wooden nickel"
we have a lot of money sayings that are interesting.
"on a dime"
"a penny for your thoughts"
copper is highly conductive.
"a penny for your thoughts" seems really creepy to me now.
expecially because lincoln is on it.
the unit, the tv show, was really creepy. i wish i had the energy to type
it all out for you.
it was really extra creepy when the balck guy that would not "break"
said (in a fit of delerium) "you can't catch me i'm the ginger bread
man"
but if you know that poem you know he is indeed eaten at the end of it by
the sly fox.
but it's no big deal because they'll just bake another.
little army men. ginger bread men being eaten by sly foxes.
the ginger bread man comes to a river and there is no where else he can run...
the wolf says "catch a ride on my back so you won't get wet"
the ginger bread man has no choice.
he jumps on the wolf's back for the ride and gets eaten.
it reminds me of hurricane katrina.
no where to run, no where to hide.
the water is taken over.
join the army because you have nowhere else to turn.
in the end you'll be eaten.
ah, i see why nickel is perhaps named after the "demonic realm"
it is a combination of sulfur and arsenic.
sulfer is often associated with "the devil"
also, there again, is cobalt...the blue.
that keeps coming up , too.
a constant theme.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nickel
all of a sudden "jumping jack flash it's a gas gas gas" pops in
my head
http://www.timeisonourside.com/SOJumpin.html
i think the stones were tapping into something there with that song.
i find it hilarious that they put out "her satantic majesty's request"
and now mick jagger is a knight.
i'm not saying the rolling stones are part of some conspiracy or are evil.
i love the stones.
but they tap in sometimes into stuff like artists do.
i know this post is all over the
place.
i'm just thinking a lot of thoughts at once, and it's hard to be linear about
it.
7:31pm
eno, ono, bono, oprah.
dalai lama, deepak chopra.
got back from target. i used part
of my birthday money to buy a new comforter (not real down) and a duvet and
a white cotton blanket. bought some groceries, too, and not really that many
either but it STILL came to over 400 bucks! lord.
easy come easy go.
i have to really watch it...money can dwindle into nothing so fast.
but i needed a comforter and a blanket. all i have left for blankets is a
my white parachute, a blanket i bought for JASON, and a scratchy duvet cover
from ikea.
i'm excited to have a nice white down puffy comforter again.
seems i have to buy a new one each year because the dogs just destroy them
after a year.
i can't imagine life without my pupster beasts and they are sure worth all
the trouble ten times over beyind infinity, and i don't look forward to their
deaths and i will be so brokenhearted when they go (if they die before i do)
but i really do look forward to my life being dog hair free for awhile later
on in my life.
to be able to wear black velvet again.
have a nice carpet.
but for now, it's just soak in the pupster love while it's here and i am the
luckiest person on the earth to have this much joy and love in my house. and
i'll just keep buying new bed stuff and deal with not having my ultimate bed.
because "all the boys on the bed" is better than velvet blankets
anyday.
but SOMEDAY i am going to have a real bed with a frame and everything.
and throw pillows and i can put my stuffed animals back out , too.
but for now i have living stuffed animals :)
living teddy bear monsters that snort and snuffle and chew and sneeze and
love and whuffle.
and sleep upside down.
i bought sebastian a new fluffy "jack"
toy.
those are his favourite. he is completely obsessed with that one.
i can buy a million other toys in a variety of shapes, colours and textures,
but all he wants is the plush one that is shaped like a jack.
that is wooket heaven for the sebastian dog.
so tonight i will bake a chicken.
do laundry. put a new comforter and and clean sheets on my bed.
and unveil the new jack toy for the beasts to pretend they are ferocious hunters
with.
i'm looking at what is on tv and 8pm, and there is that new show "the
unit" that is basically just an hour long advertisement for the army,
i have sussed. and get this what it is about tonight
"The Unit takes on a grueling
exercise of torture and humiliation."
wtf?
i think i will have to watch it tonight for the 1st time just to see what
kind of nasty propganda it is.
how are they going to flip around what happened in abu ghraib and make that
"ok" for tv audiences for ENTERTAINMENT on prime time tv?
just what the hell?
and people flip out when a nipple gets exposed on tv yet we can have torture
snd humiliation?
wtf in the motherfucking hell?
i mgith only watch part of it because i know it'll piss me off really bad.
and i am in a good mood right now and want it to stay that way.
i've had a really good day up until seeing the description for that.
wow, the news just said "how a woman gained 40 pounds because she didn't
knwo she was eating in her sleep"
how can you gain forty pounds because you did not know you were eating in
your sleep?
wouldn't it clue you in that something was going on by MISSING FOOD in ther
fridge?
or did she just have so many groceries in there she had 40 pounds worth that
she just did not notice were gone?
very odd.
--
Korg D32XD 32-Track Xtended Definition Recording Studio
http://www.guitarvision.com/mf/mf_frameset.htm
*drool*
i wish i had the gumption to figure those things out.
i just loathe reading manuals.
but god, if i could just get over it and bite the bullet...
the thing i really like about this is:
"It provides 96kHz/24-bit resolution for pristine sound, plus 8 analog
compressors that can be used simultaneously for a richness of tone beyond
the capability of usual digital technology.
and
Automated faders."
*dreamy sigh*
the only thing i do not like is that it has an internal harddrive and internal
cd burner.
so the only way to save the songs is to burn them on cd?
i like to have tape or something like tape that i can keep around and have
the raw tracks on always, so that i can always go back and remix things or
reuse things if i want to.
with this, it seems like you would have to make a final mix of what you want
and burn it to cd and then that is all you would have forever. you would never
be able to go back and remix anything or or keep raw tracks.
then you'd go in and erase the last album you made off the harddrive to record
a new record.
am i wrong in thinking it works this way?
plus i just don't like that you have to burn it onto cd.
i have learned that saving thungs to cd is not 100% bulletproof.
but maybe nothing is.
maybe no format is ever perfect.
but it just seems to me that compact flash cards and things like that are
the way to go because there is nothing that can get scratched and so forth.
and you can just keep buying them and then saving the raw tracks on them.
i'd never have to erase anything.
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zvex effects
btw, as i am browsing all the gear out there now, i am looking at all the
effects my friend, zachary vex, has made lately.
and it's so many!
go and listen to the souns samples :)
i am thinking about getting the lo fi loop thing.
i already have a bunch of his pedals and they are amazing.
he is a true genuis.
each one is hand made.
http://www.zvex.com/
he even made an amp that can fit into the palm of your hand that is cool
as hell.
before bob moog died, zachary got to meet him at a gearhead conference thing
and moog was totally floored by it.
that's how cool znex things are.
they are tiny creatures all their own.
amazing unique things.
i especially love the seek wah.
i was the one who initially hand painted his pedals when they 1st came out.
and my painting style is still used on the pedals.
although if i had painted more than just a few i would have come up with a
better style...but he seems to have liked it just the way it was, and so that
style has remained.
and he is the one who helped me 1st make anacam, so we are like weird collaborators, sometimes.
i think i met him when i was 18 at a bus stop and we have been friends ever since.
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4:11pm
i'm hyper.
i've been looking on the internet at all the music gear out there now.
talked to zachary on the phone about his pedlas.
and then my best friend from high school called me, mary quinn!
it was just a total fluke that i happened to have the phone plugged in and
that i answered it because it said "space 150" and was in the same
area code as me, and so i was like WTF is that?
and i answered hestitantly...and it was mary!
and she works for this computer company thing, i'm not sure what it is.
space 150.
and they want to make a music video, kind of a "we of the world"
thing for the inter net to keep the internet free from the evil corporate
powers that be that want to lock down everything.
this woman is going to write the song:
http://www.lesliehall.com/
and some person named tequila something
who is some sort of huge internet celebrity on myspace of something who i
guess i should know who it is but i don't is going to be in the video.
i will have to look her up and see what is the deal.
i am so "not in the know" over who is who and what is going on lately
, i guess.
so i was trying to think of other internet people, and i told her halcyon.
and then i told her chuck statler to do the video.
and she said that was a good idea.
but right now they have some guy who works on the chapelle show who might
do it if enoiugh "cool people" get involved in the project. which
i thought sounded kind of snobby and high maintenance.
and chuck livesd right here, so get him, i say!
so we shall see what this will become.
dunno.
but anyway...it was just cool to hear from my friend mary!
and she has 2 daughters now and a 3rd on the way!
freak!
ok, jason got home just now and so i have 15 minutes to get ready and go to
target with him.
i just want to go with to get out of the house.
more later.
not time to write and i'm way too hyper and need food.
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