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ohmigod glow in the dark jellyfish!
look at this!!!
http://miwa.metm.org/PET_project/
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and did you know they make 4GB complact
flash cards now?
4!!!
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i'll bet maybe i'll see a day when
they will make computer monitors so flat and so cheap, that i could sell my
cam images with the monitor, and so you could hang my photos on your wall
like you would a painting.
except it would be lit up.
that would be so cool.
it could have a mini computer inside it that made aa slide show of my images,
or make it so you could just pick what image you wanted to show that day.
it would be like a screensaver or wallpaper for your computer...but super
flat and you could hang it on your wall like a framed painting.
i'll bet something like this already exists?
it just probably isn't cheap.
oh look, someone here at the same
idea:
http://www.grynx.com/projects/laptop-on-the-wall-walltop/
that is EXACTLY what i am talking
about.
i wish i had the technical know how to make that.
more links with people thinking about
this and doing it:
http://www.likelysoft.com/hacks/pictureframes.shtml
http://members.cox.net/fatbasta/dpf.htm
http://peach.mie.utoronto.ca/people/tsangc/frame100-index.html
more:
http://www.ceiva.com/home/hp/index.jsp
http://www.shortcourses.com/how/digitalframe/digitaldisplays.htm
http://www.wi-fiplanet.com/news/article.php/3093141
http://www.applefritter.com/hacks/duodigitalframe/
http://www.edgetechcorp.com/accessories/digital-picture-frame.asp
http://www.thinkgeek.com/electronics/cameras/7e13/
http://www.engadget.com/2006/03/09/samsung-digital-picture-frame-stores-pics-movies-music/
http://www.photovu.com/products.html
still, so expensive, ugly, or flawed.
but hey...at least people are starting to get the idea.
10:41pm
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crocheted some. didn't really finish
anything.
it's just a day. very blah.
i did little things here and there.
gave support to a friend. made rice.
contemplated my family.
watched survivor and csi.
talked to kristie and melissa back and forth about our show to see if there
was any feedback on it, and if there was, what was it.
asked them if they like to collaborate again in the future.
they were excited to do it and cam again :)
i've got their permission now to use their photos so i will put an archive
up of what happened as soon as i can.
tried to explain to them how a cam refreshing every 30 seconds is not just
"an homage to old school camming"
but a medium unto itself.
not not many people have realized that this is a real medium and still view
it as a quaint novelty, even tho it is not even that old. but it still hasn't
really ever been fully realized to its true potential, imo.
because so many people dropped out of camming once the novelty for them wore
off and they realized how actually difficult it is to do and keep up.
so i've never really been able to collaborate with any other artists in this
medium in the ways i have always envisioned it could be.
but there is a lot of room for this to grow, if people could see the potential
i see it having and not just a novel thing to throw away and pick up the next
new gadget that is faster or whatever.
i CHOOSE this medium because it suits me, not because i don't have the newest
gadget.
there was my sleepstation i made, which was a collaboration and that was nice
when people actually slept on it and didn't just try to advertise their cams
and take advantage of me be conveniently "forgetting" to turn off
their cams once they were not asleep any longer.
and isabella from isabellacam , who is not around anymore, we did a few impromptu
shows together which was really cool :)
i think she was the one who got it
the most of what i was trying to do.
but then she went more the porn route instead of the art route.
i sure do wish there were more artists using cams.
there are so many cool collaborations to do that still have never been done.
i have so many ideas...
and i'd really like people to realize
that a cam can be used for more than just porn, exhibitionism, or chatting
with their friends.
it's a new kind of photography...that has an immediacy to it.
and even tho it is still, it moves, at the same time.
so it's just a new thing all together.
like an online living story book.
or something...
i realized this more fully that people
aren;t seeing the absokute obvious when the other day a gallery owner asked
me if i;d like to show my photography and he asked me how i envisioned it
being displayed...like on a wall with frames, no frames, attched to clothing
pins on a line, put inside a box that people could look through like a little
peepshow...
and i said...well, i envision it being on a computer...slideshow style.
and this was like some new idea to him, even tho he knows what i do...it still
didn't make the connection in his head that my photos are supposed to be viewed
on the computer, not in some frame in a gallery.
but i haven't been shown in that gallery yet because he can't think of how
i "fit in" to something. like some sort of "theme".
and i'm thinking, isn't that kind of a huge part of what i do is NOT fit in
to something?
i mean, i'm doing something NEW...yet people are already calling it "old
school"
but as the person who defined the webcam as a medium for art, i am just going
to keep sticking to my guns and doing it until people understand that this
is not just a novelty or about porn or media or exhibitionism or fame or sex
or whatever it is you want to pin it into. it's just a new way of photography
that is live, and sometimes a slide show, meant to be viewed on a computer.
it's not meant to be printed out,
be in a book or a frame.
it's meant to be on a computer.
the computer is the book, the computer is the frame,
the INTERNET IS THE GALLERY.
i don't need galleries because i
am constantly in my own international gallery 24/7!
galleries need ME so they look more progressive.
not the other way around.
it always cracks me up when people
ask me if i "show anywhere".
and i'm like, ya, everywhere all the time!
and even tho it is rather quaint, it still is cutting edge technology, because
just look at how many times on the swas tour there was technical difficuties.
it's not just about sending one picture through your cell phone to your friend.
technology still has not caught up
with what i am trying to do.
and no one has still made the cam software i wish existed.
i wish i could just make the quantum leap to the place where people get what
i am trying to do with cams and go ohhh ya!!!
someday it will happen.
and i'll be here, ready to orchestrate it.
it wasn't too long ago that people's computers did not even go fast enough
to refresh a 320 by 240 picture on their computer every 2 minutes.
6:50pm
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6:40pm
i just heard and saw the first thunder
and lightning of the year! :)
the rain is beating against my windows.
i want to go out and get food, but it's so rainy out.
all i have is rice, ramen, and some cheese.
6:05pm
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5:10pm
shannon kringen has a new pay site with erotic/sexual/explicit content:
http://shannonkringen.com/samplerotic.htm
and in true kring style, it surely is unique and there is nothing ordinary about it :)
4:21pm
i'm listening to the new morrissey
record, ringleader of the tormentors.
so far, very good :)
i'm feeling a little off kilter today. i think it has mostly to do with my
disatisfying email interaction i am having with one of my uncles. he is being
very nice, but he just isn't "getting it", what i am trying to convey
to him.
and so, i just feel kind of empty about it and exhausted at trying to explain.
he is being nice , tho, and really trying to understand, i think.
mostly i guess i just want to him to acknowledge and explain to me why when
we last saw each other we seemed to have a very good respectful discussion
about our spiritual beliefs.
and then after it was done, weeks later, he told my mother i was into very
dark, dangerous and evil things.
but he doesn't even remember saying this. and that is frustrating to say the
least.
maybe my mom made it up? i just don't know anymore.
but i guess i am just not going to get any resolution on that because...he
can't even remember doing this awful thing which caused so much hurt in me
and added to the rift between my mother and i.
of course i told him not to tell anyone what we are discussing because i have
no wish for any of this to get back to my mom. i'm not trying to reach out
to members of ehr family (my family) to ty and get back at my mom or gossip
about her or hurt her in any way. i'm doing this for me and my relationships
with some of them.
but i did not get into details over what my mom did to me, but i did tell
him that she made like 20 aliases to harrass and stalk me on the internet
and lie to me and he somehow turned that extremely clear sentence into "well,
i guess i would try to do that to if i was trying to find you"
FIND ME?
how does he get THAT out of the words "harrass, stalk and lie?"
i don't understand.
it seems that even when i type out words, people will still just gloss over
what i say and interpret it the way they can deal with it. i'm not really
sure. i just don't understand.
but he is really trying to say really nice things and that he loves me too
and that i am invited up there anytime.
but i just don;t feel like i am being heard or understood. but at least we
are talking and on good terms more than we were, in a way, sort of.
i mean, he can't remember saying anything hurtful, just like my mom can never
remember either.
i don't know. i want a family, i really do.
but fuck, it's a bloody lot of work, especially after all this time.
i wish just had a family that "got me" and i didn't feel like some
sort of alien creature on another planet from them.
i don't know what is so difficult about understanding me.
i do think i am pretty clear about things. but maybe i am not.
i just don't know anymore.
so, i just feel a bit hollow today, on the family front.
but maybe it will lead to something better, somehow , later.
i tried. i guess. i tried is all i can say.
i can't expect to always get the reaction i wish for.
ever, really.
so...i don't know...i just feel a little off kilter and i'm trying to "shake
it off"
i don't want to reply to him again until after this has sunk in a bit and
i can formulate the best way to respond.
but he and his whole family are leaving for france and italy in a few days
so...i don't have much time.
and he sent me a bunch of baby pictures fo someone's baby. someone i must
be related to.
i have ZERO clue who this baby is or who it belongs to.
it's just all so odd.
maybe i should just give up on this whole family thing like i had.
trying to piece it back together again is proving to be more difficult and
exhausting than maybe i was prepared for.
i think i will go crochet to balance myself out.
ok, that made me all tearful to write
that.
maybe i have pms again.
maybe it's the days of rain.
maybe it's the sad morrissey songs.
the wind is picking up and drafting through my windows.
the people at the liquor store know who i am now, much to my dismay. i really
don't like my neighbours to know much about me.
they are really nice there, tho. but it just kind of ooks me out to know they
all can watch my life unfold and stuff. i don't know, i just like to be somewhat
anonymous around here.
but as i was walking out of the store the other day some guy recognized me
and said 'hey! you're ana voog! i love your art!"
and then went into the store and told them all about me and that i have a
website (and he visits it 3 times a week) and make music. so when i went in
there the other day again, the people that work there were all like "we
want to hear your music!"
so i conceded and brought in a few cds for them to listen to.
i have no idea what they will think of it.
but i was troubled because i could not find ONE single anavoog.com cd that
was not one of my advance copies that does not have the cool fold out cover
with all the photos.
so now i am scared i have gotten rid of, accidentally, every single copy i
have of the actual anavoog.com that was released. argh.
anyway, i hope everyone that works there will still treat me the same and
nto get all weird on me now that they have access to my life.
being a micro-celebrity is a weird thing.
sometimes it is a good thing, but sometimes it can make people act strangely
at you. once people see you naked, it makes odd sides of their personality
come out, sometimes, that is not always a very comfortable thing for me. once
people see you naked or think they "know you" it can bring out weird
behaviours and they say things you would not say to a "normal" person
under "normal" circumstances.
3:08pm
so cool:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSoVKUVOnfQ&feature=Favorites&page=1&t=t&f=b
also check this out:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1-gv2dYHGc
2:39pm
looking through photos annie sent
me from the swas tour. they all made me smile and it looked like everyone
had so much fun :) it was great to see what was happening, visually, more.
i wish someone had taken a photo of my cam being projected, there was one
tiny one, but you couldn't see anything. maybe it was just too dark to ever
take photos of my performance.
i did see a photo of my hats on the merchandise table. and one where soneone
was wearing one of my hats :)
i wish i could show you the photos but annie said they are private just for
me. i'm really glad i got to see them :)
annie has the coolest hair! i covet it!
big poofy curly spirally ruby red hair :)
my swas t shirt:
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1:33pm
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i want to put together a slideshow
of all 3 of the cams together so you can all see what happened. but i am waiting
word from the other 2 to have permission to use their photos.
but until then, here are a few screenshots.
it's 54 degrees and super grey and rainy.
it's supposed ot be in the 50's and rain all week long.
april showers bring may flowers?
i got my check for my work on swas,
woo hoo!
and my hats back and stuff :)
plus a nifty swas 2006 t shirt :)
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from:
http://syndicated.livejournal.com/is_aries/
http://www.astro.com/
http://www.tarot.com/astrology/
http://itsalllove.com/starry_eyed/starry_eyed.html
Horoscope for Aries (March 30 2006)
Generally you've got a bunch of positive aspects influencing your ruling planet, which bode well for your overall mood and relationships in general. If anything is holding you back it is the opposition affecting Pluto, which might be making you feel bored. Plan something exciting this evening to counteract this.
and
Calm down
Weak, transient effect: Today during the day is not a good time to discuss
any issues that are critical to you, because you will find it difficult to
maintain your equilibrium and not fly off the handle. On the other hand, if
someone challenges you unjustifiably, you certainly won't back down without
a fight. The main problem is that your sense of perspective may be so distorted
that you cannot tell the important issues from the trivial ones and will defend
both with equal vigor. There is also the risk that you will act hastily on
many matters, impulsively and without foresight or planning. All you seem
to care about is exercising your will and getting your own way. Obviously
with this influence, you must try to calm down and be willing to compromise
on any issue that is not really central to you.
and
You could face a real challenge today as you try to compose yourself after first getting overly excited. It may turn out that you overreacted, which in turn made the situation ever more awkward. Now it's time for the calm after the storm; ultimately, you've earned it.
and
The Moon is in independent Aries today, still feeling quite strong from its
amazing feat of blocking out the light of the sun yesterday. Similarly, we
are fired up, motivated by our own recent achievements and are now ready to
rock and roll. However, at 4:01 pm EST, the Moon enters earthy Taurus, moderating
our impulses and increasing our determination. We have already demonstrated
our enthusiasm; now it's time to employ common sense as we transform a good
idea into something that lasts longer than the flash of inspiration.