feb 27th, 2006
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11:27pm

nothing a little snuggling, macaroni and cheese, mystery science theater 3000 and iron chef can't fix :)

7:49pm

no seriously, fuck it.
my back is killing me.
the wind has been taken out of my sails.
this has been such a difficult day today.
jason and i almost broke up and then we didn't, thank god.
and so i am just going to take this time to be with him instead of doing a show.
i fucking need some love and so does he.
so i'm going over to his house for awhile.
i'll do the show tomorrow.
i hope you understand.

but god, it's great i put the show i meant to do out in LJ and had some great responses. which makes me feel like what i do is worth it.

and look it this:
http://tsenft.livejournal.com/347079.html

it brings tears to my eyes.
i have good friends, i really really do.
it means so much to me.

7:32pm

goddammit. they cannot get connected to the internet again.
so no show there for me.
however, i'm just going to do it anyway because i have made this entire set and planned it all out.
going to go take a abth 1st and eat.
fuck.

me getting ready for my show:

 

6:18pm

too a nap.
i am just beat.
tonight jason is going to help me put the captions in the photos while i pose.
this will help me out a lot because i will be able to pose better.
but i do have a lot to say and i hope the captions don't take over the photos like they did last night.
but that might happen, because i have a lot to say.
and it's hard to say everything i want to say in 18 to 20 photos.

i think the show might be on around 8pm CST.

12:24pm

here are the before, during and after pix of the show last night.
i'm not happy with the show pix at all. the text got in the way too much.
i could not get the text on there fast enough and then pose all in 20 seconds.
i just did not have a rythym down.
i wish the show i was going to do for huntsville (see yesterday's anagram) could have been the one i showed last night. that one was so much better.
also dealing with these dark subjects is strting to drain me a bit.
after tonight's show, things have got to get lighter because i just cannot "go there" to the angry place every night for the show.
which is why i do not play live anymore , musically, because my songs exhausted me to have to revisit all the pain night after night.
i'm just augh, not at all happy with last night's show. i'm bummed by trying to just let it go.
it is what it is.
you can't win them all.

this was the text i was trying to get into all the pictures but i had to skip some sentences because time was moving too quickly for me to get it all down.

oh, NIPPLE POLICE
save us all

NIPPLE POLICE
YOUR WISDOM IS UNEXCEEDED

WITHOUT YOu
NO TALIBAN

NO USA
TORTURE PHOTOS

nipple causes war
pussy causes sin

you have NO CHOICE

put a gun to your head
nipple says.

PUSSY
THE NEW WMD
FOR THE NEW AGE!

I AM THE THE NEW WMD!

nipples which fed you
pussy which birthed you

pussy, an easy excuse
for date raping your friend

go kill him, says the nipple

go rape , says the pussy

NIPPLE POLICE
save us all

i have so many things i need to get done.
go to the bank, go to the p.o.
go get dog food, clean my house.
but i am so exhausted.

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The two tracks mixed together
that goes with my cam shows for SWAS:

http://www.anacam.com/swas/anavoog.mp3

Individual tracks:
http://www.anacam.com/swas/music.mp3
http://www.anacam.com/swas/talking.mp3

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Horoscope for Aries (February 27 2006)

The moon moves into Pisces today, which is your twelfth house, so prepare yourself for a particularly emotional day. The negative influence will have you feeling at odds with the world and in need of a retreat, so make sure that you reserve some time where you can escape it all!

and

Emotional encounters
During this time your emotional experiences are much more intense than usual, which is reflected in the kinds of people and situations that you are drawn to. For example, you may draw in unusually intense or powerful people who have a strong effect upon you. Very often through your emotional encounters with these people, you experience moods and feelings that are quite different from your "normal" self. You may ask if this is really you, it seems so different. And you may also desire something that belongs to someone else, or you may desire greater control over something that is both yours and another's. In either case you must recognize that your attachment serves no real purpose and that it is a potential source of trouble.

and

Don't expect others to smile and tell you how great it is that you're so clear about your needs. It's not going to happen. It's more likely that they will be surprised, even shocked, by your disclosure. Although you may know what you want, don't push too hard. Your forcefulness could actually scare off what you wish to cultivate.