feb 21st, 2006
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11:46pm

11:25pm

this photo i submitted

to the photography community today was rejected for not being work safe.

i just have to laugh. wtf?
what on earth about this picture shows ANYTHING?
a very small reflection of a butt crack?
LOL :)

it's small fish to fry and i am not pissed , i am just more amused.
*rolls eyes*
i'm just glad to know the people who are stupid enough to look at LJ while working will be "saved" from the reflection of the buttcrack.
it's good to know we are all safe now from the "not work safeness" of the buttcrack. we can all sleep sounder.
power to the people slacking off on their jobs.
rock on.

i'm just posting this because i am passing the time and felt like bitching about something completely pointless.

also to the person who keeps making new LJs just to try and make fun of the fact that i believe i have had past lives...god, seriously, get a LIFE. i know i have had SEVERAL, but if you believe you've only have one and this is IT, then you probably should make use of this one life you have rather then make 10 journals to go "neener neener, you're a weirdo for thinking you've had past lives".

*rolls eyes again, this time even more dramatically for special extra effect*

pointless bitch session done.

this entry will probably self destruct any second.
so if you want to save it to your files or do a screen cap of it to prove that it actually existed.
you better do it now :)

'cause , you know, it's really really vitally important.

oh, and my favourite american idol so far is paris bennet.
i'm rooting for her.

this has been the ana update #09384038409234803284038402384092348039284930
i like to keep you all well informed...like anderson cooper.
except i'll up his 360 degrees to 777 degrees!
take THAT you nordic elven god.

10:01pm

i want the body back that i had when i was 30.
that would be so nice.
i wonder when i am ever going to get back to excercising?
"hit me with your rythym stick. hit me hit me."
(for those who remember ian dury and the blockheads)
soon it will be spring.
another winter zipping by without me recording a new record like i said i would.
but i am CLOSER. i DID make a soundpiece, and that is a small step in the right direction, right?
when lionbrand sends me my cheque and when i get paid for SWAS, i hope i can have a small financial buffer so that i can just work on my music and movie.
god, i hope it all works out.
i ade another hat tonight to sell.
i just have to keep at it. making money whenever and whereever i can.
i will not give up.
things will work out.
they have to because i will accept no less.
i feel like i've gotten of course a bit, but still managed to keep juggling during my nervous breakdowns.
i'm getting rather good at it.
it might be my new schtick.
"watch the girl juggle while having a nervous breakdown! entertainment at it's finest!"
i wonder if i ever will stop referring to myself as a girl.
is it weird that in 2 months i turn 40 and i still refer to myself 1/2 the time as a girl?
i am getting more comfortable with the whole "woman" word...but still why do i shy away from it?
i just can't imagine a time when i am not going to want to wear pigtails or short skirts or frilly pink girly shoes.
i just don't want to give that up.
i want to still look fetching in a cheerleading outfit.
but i know there will be a time that this will not look so well.
but then who gives a shit right?
doesn't the guy from AC/DC still wear that schoolboy outfit and he is like old, right?
but then again, is that a very good example?
how can i always take the essence of what i love about "girlness" and keep updating it for me now?
oh god, i seriously cannot be contemplating this right now.
i don't have time.
i do want a face lift tho. i really do.
it's the last thing i could ever afford right now.
but if i could afford it, i would get one. like tomorrow.
just a little one, if there is such a thing.
maybe it's just me and my weirdness but i think my eyes will look kinda cool and catlike after that.
i like alien. not like michael jackson alien, but i don't mind a certain amount of alieness.
i think it can be sexy.
just one thing i will never do is do the lip collogen thing.
that never looks good on anyone.

either that or i am just going to have to come to terms with aging and embrace it fully and headon.
if i don't have any big cash flows coming my way, then i really do not have a choice, do i?
jesus louise. life is a bitch.

if i am going to age i may as well just go lay in the sun and get as wrinkly as possible.
look like some badass russian woman who has seen harsh winters.
damn, i have seen harsh winters.
not lately , but so?
i'll just get tan and wrinkly and put feathers in my hair and make friends with the buffalo.

god, i don't know what i am saying.

made some hats today.
yep.
just gonna keep on truckin.

tomorrow a show in new orleans.
i'm in a quandry over what to do for it.
i want to address the disaster or maybe they are just sick of it already and want to party.
i don't want to be disrepectful.
i don't know what to do.
i'm still thinking about it.

just doing a cam show about me in new orleans right now seems way too self indulgent.
it really should be about them.
i mea, who cares about me and what i go through if you've been through hurricane katrina?
i just don't know what to do...
i feel it's like talking about myself at a funeral.
the dead have not all been buried or even found.
i feel tacky to do a show about me.

i'll figure it out somehow.

god, from talking to face lifts to this.
what the hell?

who even knows if they will be able to be connected.
*sigh*
like i have the right to complain about something like that when people do not even have houses.
i feel like such a pig sometimes.

8:11pm

ok, paris bennett is my fave american idol so far.
i hope you have enjoyed this very important update :)

7:36pm

i've been taking it easy today.
working on crocheting 2 hats.
cooking some salmon.
watching american idol.

2:55pm

2:32pm

12:44pm

morning light

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The two tracks mixed together
that goes with my cam shows for SWAS:

http://www.anacam.com/swas/anavoog.mp3

Individual tracks:
http://www.anacam.com/swas/music.mp3
http://www.anacam.com/swas/talking.mp3

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Horoscope for Aries (February 21 2006)

The restlessness bug that's been affecting other signs will bite you today, and hard, thanks to an opposition between your ruling planet and the moon in your ninth house. Travel, foreign culture and adventure will all appeal to you, so even if you can't do anything now you can still get planning for a future vacation.

and

Going for the one *
Valid during several months: This is a time to formulate your goals and actively pursue them. You identify your basic ego energies very much with the future now, and you want to work today for the sake of what you can bring about tomorrow. You will be able to achieve your goals most effectively by working cooperatively with others. This is not a good time to be a loner, nor should you allow your own ego drives to conflict with everyone else's. The trick with this influence is to create a balance between your own self-interests and other people's interests. Physical activity with friends, such as athletics, is especially good for you now, as are projects in which you work with a number of other people. Now you should get some strong personal gratification from what you do, so do not put yourself in a back-seat position with others.


The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Mars in the 11th House 11 exact at 15:25
activity period from 21 February 2006 until end of April 2006.

and

Someone motivates you today to take on a leadership role, but it may not be as simple as it appears. It's not that you are in over your head, but it does require more detail work than you planned. Keep in mind that the more you focus your attention on your current obligations, the easier it will be to take on the additional responsibilities.