jan 27th, 2006

 

 

10:45pm

it was so good to lay in bed and zone out.
i have a temperature of 99.5
going to try to go to sleep soon.

5:44pm


my little
rice cooker
the yarn
for the
3rd thing
i was going
to make
the very ugly
floorlamp
i got from
the trash
that i am
going to
transform

my very
messy desk
my very
messy room
feng shui!
help me!

kaliedoscope
from pbs
i got today

last night
before i
hooked them
all together

my one
plant

 

4:43pm

i'm trying out my rice cooker i bought awhile ago.
it doesn't say how long it will take to cook it.
it just has a button you press to cook and when it's done the button will pop back up.
i hope it "dings" or something to let me know when it has popped up!
hmmm.
i am going to make rice and eggs with butter and tobasco sauce.
i used to live off that years ago.

4:19pm

i can't even move now to make myself food.
my immune system is really low right now.
i can feel it. i have pms and i feel on the edge of getting a cold.
my body feels like it is on the edge of breaking down.
i need to go fry myself some eggs but i am just too tired.
my eyes burn.
i need some really huge rest.
even in my dreams i do not get any rest because i am working things out on some deep level.
feeling like i am in a war, holding down the fort.
i feel strong, warrior-like.
but i need rest.
even the guy at the grocery store said i look tired.

i happened to watch "geraldo at large" last night because , as i was crocheting, it was the only thing on really and i was too into crocheting to change the channel.
i can't even believe that guy is real.
there was a tiny little segment on "indigo children" and i think they went out of their way to discredit it.
they had some mom on who would say she thought her kid was psychic because she would be in the kitchen not wanting to cook supper and think "maybe we should order pizza" and then the kid would say "i think we should have pizza tonight!" and the mom said...why didn't he say..."we could have tuna fish? i mean, it could have been anything else but he said pizza!"
like that is SO extraordinary.
wow, a boy wants pizza for dinner.
and i won't go into the rest of it but it was downhill from there.
then they had a scientist on that said maybe these kids are insane and need to get on meds.
wow.
so...yay geraldo for your "passionate" in depth reporting.

3:31pm

back from the drugstore and sent the scarf off. i hope they like it.
i took some pictures, i'll get them up.
it's eerily warm out.
january is usually one fo the coldest months here.
it's usually below zero.
but it so warm here that the grass is starting to get green!
that is just totally wrong.

you'd think this would be an ok deal but people don't seem to undertand the dire consequences of the the ice shelf melting which is adding fresh water to the oceans which move the currents which control the weather.
soon it will stop moving and no more warm winds will come up here from the currents when they are supposed to and their will be a new ice age. voila.
it IS going to happen. it's just a matter of time and i think that time is sooner than people realize.
when their is green grass here in january, that is NOT a good thing, as pleasant as it seems right now.

anyway...there you go.
an update from the north.

i'm really tired but still full of energy in a weird way.
i'm going to make a hat for pinkveneer now.
and work on making my sound piece for sex workers' art show.
i guess i will work on the words 1st, which is opposite of how i usually work which is to make the sound 1st.
i've been going over and over it in my head how i can condense 8 years of my cam experience into 10 minutes of sound and pictures.

i had really intense dreams last night and i can't remember any of it now but i know they were really really intense.

i need to get something to eat.

jason will be home soon and we are going to relax in bed and watch more episodes of battlestar galactica.
this will be good.
i need that very much.

right now i feel like coveriing this lamp i retrieved from the garbage the other day in yarn.
it's a really ugly floor lamp. it holds 4 bulbs, all of them work except the middle one.
it has no lamp shade so i am trying to figure out how i could create one with wire and yarn.
i want to make a really weird yarn floor lamp.

i'll take a photo of it now so i have a "before" photo.
i think it could look pretty funky all covered in yarn with a weird-ass organicy lampshade thing.

every day, at least 5 times a day someone tries to find out what my password is to my blogger account that i never use. it's so weird.
i just get email after email after email every single day:

"This email is a response to your request for information about your Blogger account. To regain access to your account, please click on the
following link:

*link*

Clicking on this link will take you to a web page that will let you choose a new password. Once you've submitted your new password, you'll
be able to log in to your Blogger account.

If in the process of recovering your password you see the log into Blogger page, please see this Blogger Help article for information on
how to fix your browsers cookie settings:

*link*

You could also try logging in/recovering your password from a different web browser - we recommend Mozilla Firefox:

*link*

Sincerely,

The Blogger Team"

this has been going on for about a year now.
it's so very strange.
i don't know if someone has a bot set up to just constantly email blogger to find out my password or of someone is so obsessed they are just doing this 3 to 5 times a day for a year or of this is just a gliche in their system.
it's very odd.

another thing that is really aggravating is that when i sign up for things sometimes, people use my name and so i have to have a different username. like people will pick "anavoog" as their username. their is someone on aol with that username, for example.
i think people think it's cute to take my name.
like how i made my electric bill be under syd barrett's name for awhile. but the thing is i KNOW syd barrett is NEVER going to try to get electricity in minnesota.

ok i need food and then work on my yarn lamp.
i want to do something fun for ME.

1:59pm

i'm not going to get a third thing done.
it's just not possible. bah.
so i am going to send off this giant scarf and also walk back to the drugstore to get my meds. i just dropped them off yesterday because it was an hour wait.
it will be good to walk. it's totally sunny and warm.

1:37pm

another 48 degrees day.
just freaky.
they can't even work on ice sculptures here this year.
no one can go ice fishing either.

1:22pm

ok, the link to yesterday's anagram works now.
sorry about that, i was tired and screwed up with the naming of it.

of course when it was time for my alarm to go off, i said fuck that, and slept in til now.
now i am trying to decide if i cab make one more "thing" in 3 hours or what.
trying to wake up.

i love these 2 photos of an artist named kiki smith:

in the 2nd she almost looks like sonia.
i want to look that intense and powerful as i age.
i can't wait for my hair to be long so it can be tousled and wild.
i love that tattoo.

5:30am

set my alarm for 11:30am
(see yesterday's anagram for late night ramblings and pix)

it's all in how you look at it.

http://www.getty.edu/art/exhibitions/devices/flash/pdf/p_anamorphosis.pdf

who we are shapes how we view
how we view shapes who we are
what shape we are and are in defines how and what we view

http://www.olemiss.edu/depts/u_museum/Millington/cylinder.htm
http://www.stefanisaacs.com/movabletype/images/wenner.jpg
http://www.thebigcamera.com.au/Magic-mirror.html
http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/Museum/8716/stairs.html

 

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Horoscope for Aries (January 27 2006)

Don't jeopardize your own health by doing too much for others. Put more time into your own well being instead of laboring over things you can do nothing about. Financial gains are apparent. Keep a close eye on any investments you have.

and

Enjoying repartee
At this time you will seek increased mental stimulation through contacts with others. As long as it doesn't get too acrimonious, you will enjoy repartee. Also you may seek out other people to learn their views on some matter. This is a good time for consulting any kind of expert for advice, such as a lawyer, doctor, psychologist or an expert in some branch of business. It is also a good time to negotiate with others for contract settlements or business deals. Your mind is reasonably clear, and you are attracted to people who are similarly inclined. This makes it possible for you and another person to make things very clear between you without leaving a lot of matters unsettled and unspoken. It is also a good time to get something off your chest that you have had trouble expressing recently.

and

Following rules is not something you necessarily excel at, but now you must pay attention to them or suffer the consequences. Even if you have trouble coloring within the lines, they are there for a reason. Self-discipline counts far more than anything else these days. Establish guidelines and then stick to them. Remember, you are in this for the long-term benefits, not for immediate gratification.

and

Friday
Moon in Capricorn
Mercury opposition Saturn 5:03am AQUARIUS-LEO
Venus sextile Jupiter 11:57am PST
Sun opposition Saturn 2:48pm AQUARIUS-LEO
Jupiter square Neptune 5:29pmPST SCORPIO-AQUARIUS
Moon void of course 11:57pm PST

Just look above and scan the transits. Any one of these would affect a whole week. When the outer planets align it's a few days of build up before and then the release. That it's all crammed into a few hours is a bit of an astral avalanche. Mercury opposes Saturn putting a tension between what is talked about and what is the reality. It brings together Aquarius, the sign of the coming new moon and Leo. The heart and mind can fuse in a fresh perspective, freeing feeling and thought process to new levels. Shortly after the Sun moves into the position opposite Saturn also turning up the dial on this energy of the union of the heart and mind when communicating. It is all styles of communication, with nature, the elements as well as the people in our lives.

We should remember that communication is 90% tone and body language, so exchanges that aren't conscious will kick back and frustration will be the least of the emotions experienced. The best can be a surprising clarity of exchange with a new method of interaction, old issues smoothed out in moments and a fresh path to walk that feels comfortable under the spiritual feet. Jupiter and Neptune square in the evening putting the social curve in a new light. There is a progressive evolutionary option for us, it's not just new age double talk. Once the first few kernels pop the pan of sizzling oil and seeds quickly become a bowl of delicious popped corn.

http://teddysternmedia.com/redscorpionmedium.mov