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8:25pm
mouseover:
jason drove me to the drugstore and
then we went to target. i got the cokes, dog food and tp and some little plastic
egg shaker things that you use in music (usually for a shaker, i use my bottles
of xanax...and no i am NOT kidding. actually now that i think of ti, i think
use the bottles of amitriptyline because the smaller pill size gives a lighter
sound:). and also 3 things of "tub tints". yay! i was so glad to
see this. jennifer from jennicam gave me those tub tints eons ago and i have
been out for a long time. now i can have yellow, orange, pink, red, purple,
green baths again!
then we went out for japanese. i had shrimp and cucumber rolls, boiled spinach
with sesames, and edamame.
nummy num num.
now i am super sleepy and just want to konk out.
4:38pm
called the pharmacy and my prescription
was called in and is all ready to be picked up!
THANKS PHARMACY FOR NOT CALLING ME AND LETTING ME KNOW THIS LIKE YOU SAID
YOU WOULD! *sarcasm*! arrrrrrgh.
at least it is there now.
but now the sun is going down so i have to walk in the fucking dark.
asswipes.
tomorrow jason and i are going to
see camper van beethoven.
and then sunday is his dad's birthday.
4:11pm
reading up on indigo children.
i completely fit the type except for the part where indigos may bore easily
or have ADD.
that is not me at all.
i did find out that there are indigo children who were born in the 60's called
"alpha indigos" by some.
and i think that would be me.
but the majority of them are on there twenties now, most say.
http://www.starchild.co.za/indigo.html
and then after that comes crystal
and rainbow childrenn.
google it and you'll find a lot of links.
my doctor's office is now closed.
and the pharmacy has not called me back to tell me that anyone called in my
prescription, so i am a little worried that this was not done :/
this is totally what i am expreiencing:
http://www.starchild.co.za/tired.html
3:23pm
my general astro horoscope for the
year is positive. this makes me happy.
(waiting for the darn phone to ring so i can move on with my day)
http://www.astroprofile.com/2006sunAries.htm
it's about time i have a good year. yes?
check out what is in store for you:
http://www.astroprofile.com/2006sunsigns.htm
2:55pm
actually talked to my shrink and
he said it's at the top of the recptionist's pile to call in my prescription.
i wish i knew exactly when they were going to call it in so that i knew exactly
when to go pick it up.
i think my shrink is a robot. after seeing him on and off for 20 years now,
i would say that indeed he is.
he never really ages nor does he appear to have a heck of a lot of emotion.
i have never seen a doctor be so incredibly detached in my life.
it's very quizzical. when he does "do" emotion is is very much like
data of star trek.
but i guess i do not know many doctors so maybe most of them are that way.
i'm sure he has to be that way just to stay sane in his profession.
i've seen some of the cases he has when they walk out of his office or in,
and it's not a pretty sight.
i'd love to see him around his family and see if he is any different with
them.
he is such a strange guy. i wonder who he is and why he decided to become
a shrink.
all i know about him is that he is an aquarius and appears to be an x-hippy
from the quirky things he has around in his office. and he looks almost exactly
like john denver.
ok, called the pharmacy and they
will call me when his receptionist calls it in. *wait wait wait*
it's strange how i love the symbol of the telephone but i absolutely hate
the telephone and never have it plugged in.
i used to be a total phone person and would talk on it all the time. now,
since the internet, i hate it.
i don't like the idea of something ringing in my house whenever it wants to.
it's such a jarring sound. it's so intrusive.
and now my day is at the mercy of
when this thing will ring.
blarg.
i guess it would be more accurate
to say that my day is at the mercy of xanax. i have enough for today but not
tomorrow.
it's sucks to be addicted to something. but it sucks more to have panic attacks.
x-ana-x
i like to say xanax is like 2 kisses at each side of my name.
but one could also take it as been fenced in by 2 crosses.
why do they say SEALED with a kiss?
2:40pm
very nice :)
i need to get to the store for dogfood
cokes, and tp.
and get to the p.o.
coffee kicking in.
2:25pm
lisa bufano (formerly vera little)
has a new webpage:
http://www.lbufano.com/
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1:42pm
a blog entry at graphic truth about the upcoming sex worker's art show
1:21pm
women in freemasonry...
http://www.masonicinfo.com/women.htm
excerpt:
"To the majority of Freemasons today (dominated by US and Canadian brethren), the concept of women becoming Masons is, for all intents and purposes, an anathema. This is not because of some sexist feeling or because they feel women are incapable of understanding and appreciating the moral and spiritual lessons that Freemasonry can impart. It is because, simply, in their obligation they have sworn not to be present at the making of a woman a Mason. This is, as stated by their Grand Lodge, one of the 'Landmarks of Freemasonry' and is deemed unchangeable."
definition of anathema:
1. A formal ecclesiastical ban, curse, or excommunication.
2. A vehement denunciation; a curse: “the sound of a witch's anathemas
in some unknown tongue” (Nathaniel Hawthorne).
3. One that is cursed or damned.
4. One that is greatly reviled, loathed, or shunned: “Essentialisma
belief in natural, immutable sex differencesis anathema to postmodernists,
for whom sexuality itself, along with gender, is a ‘social construct’”
(Wendy Kaminer).
other excerpts:
"(Adding insult to injury, as it were, another female group 'attached' to male Freemasonry in the US - the Order of Amaranth - also appeared on the scene in the late 1800s.)"
"We suspect that sooner or later things will change relative to women Freemasons and all of this will be much clearer. We'll plan an update for this page in the year 2070 by which time that MIGHT happen.... "
2070???
so, women, we are not SEXIST we simply view you as a curse to god!
you are excommunicated from "god"
you are an INSULT to our "good and godly" organization.
nothing PERSONAL.
we just loathe, revile and shun you because you are damned.
nice.
really fucking nice.
how can that even be legal in the united states?
i'm going to go to one of their lodges while i have my period and dance around
it with a snake rattle.
it's all well and fine for them to paint the goddess of the moon on the state
capital and to study the teaching of isis and hekate.
put the statue of liberty up and worship "lucy". put barechested
women guilded in gold on top of the state capital (and then demonize janet
jackson for revealing a frickin nipple for 2 seconds at their sex and violence
fest). but women a a loathed damned curse to be a part of their organization.
that is really fucked up.
hypocrites.
imbeciles.
12:25pm
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can't get LJ to work for me today.
anyone else having this problem?
woke up with a bit of a headache today because last night jason and i went
out to our favourite irish pub and drank ciders. mmmmmm ciders :)
but nothing a little coffee and aspirin can't fix!
so today is all about crocheting. at least i started it now. so it is a "thing"
.
if i really work hard today perhaps i can finish it by tomorrow and send it
off on monday.
a mounted policeman just walked past my window. odd.
i heard a horse whinney 3 times and the clop clop clop of it's big feet.
now that is something i do not see everyday.
from the sound of it, the horse was not a happy camper.
it was a gigantic brown regal horse.
i love horses. i wish i lived on a farm where i could have one.
they are such amazing creatures.
where do they keep these horses for cops in a city?
i'm drinking coffee from my ducky doolittle cup which always makes me happy
:)
it's driving me nuts that i cannot get into LJ because i had it there for
a sec and kat said dan's surgery went well, and i want to reply to that and
i cannot get it to work! gah.
so kat, if you see this, i say "yayayayayayayay!!!!!"
yesterday i called my doctor and left a message with him to call my pharmacy
to give me more xanax because today i am going to run out and i do not see
him until march. i called the pharmacy and he had not called yet.
so i called the his office again but everyone was on lunch break. i hope to
god he calls in my xanax today or this weekend is going to be a fucking nightmare
for me.
and he has to call it in TODAY because i think that particular pharmacy is
not even open on weekends.
so i am going to keep on their tail today.
stressful.
other than that i am happy.
i don't remember my dreams except that they were stressful dreams.
i'm glad i don't remember them.
there is a bit of hazy sunshine today, which is nice.
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Horoscope for Aries (January 20 2006)
Things are beginning to happen so
keep the momentum going. Resurrect your ideas, only this time do it yourself
instead of letting others get involved and take over. No one understands what
you do better than you.
and
High energy
Your energy level will be high, perhaps too high if you are not careful. Watch
for signs of irritable impatience with others whenever things do not go exactly
as you planned. Be assertive only when the situation calls for it, not whenever
you feel like it. Also watch out for baseless conflicts with others, which
you may not necessarily instigate yourself. Today you should be particularly
careful of conflicts with authorities. Voice your complaints if they are legitimate,
but expect a certain amount of hostile reaction to them. Also be careful that
the tone of your complaint does not aggravate this hostility. What you get
is usually a function of the energies that you put out. On the physical level,
try to find an outlet for your vigorous energies.
and
You've been working hard enough and
now it's time to increase the social dimensions to your life. This isn't just
about fun and games; it's about spending time with others who can help you
to move beyond the day-to-day responsibilities. Hanging out with friends may
stimulate thoughts about the distant future. Open your mind and widen your
horizons.