jan 12th, 2006
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7:56pm

right now jason is teaching a basic course in webpage making at a college! he jsut all of a sudeen had this chance to do an 8 week course (only 1 day a week). so he was nervous because it's his 1st time doing something like this and he only had a few days to prepare. but i just know he is doing really well right now. he's such a thorough person and a good teacher. the students are going to love him. if this works out he may do a few more teaching gigs on the side. my lover, the college professor.
at least it will be good on his resume if it ends up being something he doesn't particularily want to persue right now.
it's so weird to be at an age where your boyfriend can teach at a college. especially since jason is 7 years younger than i am :)
he is so damn smart :)

it feels weird because my mom is married to a college professor and her mom was also married to one. and so there is this weird parallel happening with that and it feels a little strange.

and then i am an artist, and my mom wishes she was an artist but never really "goes for it" (but she's not 1/2 bad!) and then my grandmother was an artist...but i think my grandmother instilled in my mom that she would never be as good of an artist as she was...which is why my mom is scared to be one.
but she shouldn't be because grandmother was not that great of an artist, she was just really prolific. i think my mother could have been better. i do hope she picks up painting in the last years of her life and really just throws her insecurities away about it.
i really would like to "see" my mother creatively thriving like she so much wants to but never truly will let herself.
she still could live for decades, so she could still become a really magnificent artist if she put her mind to it.
i sure do hope she finds her path.

7:18pm

ok, i've gotten all this up here.
i've eaten a little something.
i need to do a few more chores.
and then i am going to go into bed and crochet dammit!
i have to get that hat done for lionbrand, this week just WHIZZED by!
i then i swear by all that is holy i am going to do everything in my power to get myself to sleep by midnight and not 8am!
i HATE sleeping until the afternoon, especially in winter because i don't get to see any daylight at all!
so no more theorizing about stuff! good grief i can just get LOST in it forever...it's such a puzzle..it's like the greatest puzzle of all time and it's hard not to try and figure out LIFE and EARTH when you are LIVING on EARTH :)
but now i must actually LIVE on earth instead of try to figure out the inner workings of it.
although i suppose in many ways that IS living. ok, enough already, there my brain starts to do a catch 22 again.
and speaking of catch 22, that is an interesting thing! i just found out the originla meaning of catch 22 by accident yesterday. it was something like you can't be in the army if you are insane, but only an insane person would join the army...so that is the catch22.

22 is the number of a circle, btw. in case you didn't know.
it is the snake eating it's own tail, the oroboros.
i FINALLY figured out WHY 22 was the number of a circle a few months ago but i have completely forgotten now and i don't know how i could forget such a thing, especially when i was trying to find the answer to that question for years.

odd.

i bought 2 rings after dinner at the walker art center with jason for our anniversary. (the restauraunt is called 20.21)
one is sterling silver and it is a perfect circle inside a perfect square. and the other is like a special kind of chain link.
each piece has 3 joints that link it to the next piece.
and i counted how many pieces were in the ring today and it is 13!
a total of 39 jointy things then, i think.
the craftmanship of it is really astounding. i really don't know how anymade made it. it was such a mystery to me.
so, because i had had several glasses of merlot, i was not thinking about my pocketbook and HAD to have BOTH rings to commemorate our 8th anniversary.
and the next day i wished i hadn't been so compulsive to buy them because #1 i cannot afford it and #2 they are not the most comfortable rings to wear.

but at the time i was like, the silver ring will stand for solidity within our relationship and the chainlink oen will stand for fluidity (and that one is made of stainless steel).

i still really love them and i keep putting them on my fingers and then taking them off again.
trying to figure out which is my favourite finger to wear which ring andif i could get used to the heaviness of them.

now i'm glad i bought them (but not glad that i will be hurting for rent money) because i think i can use them in my movie.
i was totally wanting to buy some rings or pieces of jewelry that would fit into my movie, and i think these ones will do.

5:55pm

pix:

wonka pix:

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5:20pm

 

i got yesterday's big wonka discussion here:

january 11th was WONKA day :)

today was spent, pretty much, just thinking about the tim burtom movie , charlie and the chocolate factory and talking about it in LJ here:
http://ana.livejournal.com/1704671.html

it was good to just think about something that was more of an abstract puzzle and had nothing to do with the anger i felt for the recent lj drama that went down on me. so it was good just to get away from that. and i decided to not even archive all that in here, in ana2, because i don't even want to remember it.

i'll include all i wrote here about wonka (mind you, it's weird conspiracy theory/new age/ancient myth stuff, so if you aren't into that, you probably won't want to read this, be forewarned)

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charlie and the chocolate factory

so i finally watched it on pay per view last night.
and i really wasn't expecting it to be good or to like it despite the fact that i love tim burton's movies and i love johnny depp.
i just wasn't all the keen on the idea of the remake after i saw the trailors for the film and saw that they were making willie wonka talk like some sort of valleyguy surfer dude.

but holy freaking SINISTER was this movie!

and here i go talking like a conspiracy theorist again, and i'm not saying that tim burton is a member of the illuminati because that seems too far fetched even for me :) but holy freaking illuminati and masonic references made throughout that entire movie so much so that my jaw was hanging the entire time watching it!

i have to watch it again, this time NOT smoking anything in particular before watching it (ha :) just to see if what i saw was truly what i was seeing or if i just have way too vivid of an imagination to see "the deeper symbology" behind it all *gives the peace sign, maaaaan*.

i don't know how many of you are well read on all the different far out whacked out conspiracy theories there are in this world.
but i have read up on , i think, just about every single one by now :) and i swear to GOD that entire movie must have referenced every single one EXCEPT the JFK consiracy theory. lol :) seriously! that movie was FUCT UP!

am i the only one who saw it that way? did anyone else catch anything more than just a little WEIRD with that movie?
and yes, of course the entire movie is weird, it's willie wonka and the chocolate factory for crying out loud and there are oompa loompas and all that.
but i mean, sometimes in the dialogue they would just throw stuff in that was completely nonsensical. i have to go back and see it again so i can tell you the exact scene and what they said.
but there was a scene, i wish i could remember exactly, where someone said "it's exactly like...", and then someone else exclaimed" fireflies!" and then someone else agreed "exactly!". and that made NO sense at ALL to ANYTHING that was happening in the movie.
if i was a paranoid schizophrenic not on my medication, i would swear to you that these were "code words" used to "awaken MKultra sleeper cells". because it was like "wha???". i should probably post this in one of the abovetopsecret forums and everyone would would go "totally!".

there were all this little references. and willie wonka as this god like, almost grey alien being with the big eyes, how they added to the story his entire bizarre dad as a dentist thing...and his dad looked like he was from the middle east. and the symbology of what the chocolate really WAS, and willie wonka kept saying over and over how the waterfall made the chocolate "light and frothy" and how no where else in the universe does anyone else mix their chocolate that way. and for reasons too intricate to explain right now, that just gave me the CREEPS.

and this continuing theme about the teeth. it reminded me of dune and also of the cremaster films. rememeber in dune "the tooth!"
and probably very little of you have seen all the cremaster films because they aren't even out on dvd. but teeth are a HUGE part of one of the films.

and charlie makes a replica of the factory out of something (white wax?oh...toothpaste) and then the last bit he adds what looks like a TOOTH on the top of willie's head as his hat. so we have this theme about "the tooth" and chocolate is almost like "the spice" on dune. what in the freaking #$% was THAT?

then we have the different countries/archetypes (all of them aryan) competing to get this magical chocolate from this alien being and his alien race of oompa loompas (shamans from south america?)...and don't even get me started on THAT. but all the races/countries are shown one by one to be "impure" except charlie who, i guess , in a way is almost like king arthur, the more i read up on that. but telling that charlie is chosen not because he gives the everlasting gobstopper back and so we see that he has a pure heart, that scene is totally not there. charlie is just chosen simply because he happens to be one that did not get hurt in some way.
the whole ending...was just beyond strange. and charlie helps willie wonka reunite with has godlike dentist father who only could recognize willie because of his perfect teeth. and what the hell was THAT about?

and when we go into the room where the chocolate is turned by the waterfall, "magic mushrooms" are everywhere!
(to be so completely obvious about it)

and the thing that comes and sucks people up like a vacuum cleaner is like a UFO...
i'm not being succinct about this right now because it's hard to be, and i just need to see it again before i can say for sure what it is that i saw. and maybe if i watch it again completely straight this entry i am making now will seem ridiculous to me.

but if anyone ever reads up on all the weird theories there are about god and lucifer and how they are both just aliens...
and lucifer fell from god's grace and decided to go off and make his own world...or i guess it could even be like "eve" who ate of the forbidden fruit of the tree of knowledhe and was then banished from the garden of eden (after eating the chocolate he had to leave his white god looking father's house, whereas willie looked rather "luciferian" to me...but lucifer i do not mean the devil or satan..it's just another theory entirely).

anyway, freemasonry and hermetic order of the golden dawn, or the knights of templar, or the rosicruscians or whatever you want to call it , this movie totally STEEPED in the symbolism. even coming out of a big red cross as they come out of the other side of that scary tunnel when they are riding the "purple/fuschia seahorse/dragon" (oh no wait, the they come out of the red cross through the glass elevator)

and when i look up the guy who wrote charlie and the chocolate factory, the book, it seems he WAS a freemason.
so it would make sense then that this whole movie that i guess was based more on the original book, this time, was full of masonic references.

and even knowing now what i know about numerology and rhymes and weird stuff, 5 golden tickets...like 5 golden rings...

i could go on and on and i will later after i've seen this movie at least one more time. and i'll have to get the book and read it and also get the follow up book to this which, from the amazon review, sounds REALLY bizarre.

bizarre as in scientology bizarre. i don't know if you have ever looked into what scientologists truly believe in...that earth is like a prison planet and...well...it's a lot like the matrix.

i hope that ONE of you is up on all this stuff, and has read what i read and can see the corrrelations between these things so i have someone to talk to about this!

i'm not even saying it "means anything" i'm just saying it IS very weird how everything just parallels all these things so EXACTLY.
and it DOES! even down to the skull and bones symbology of some candies that were in a basket with skulls and bones on them.

and then i was lead to THIS reviewers page:
http://www.amazon.com/gp/cdp/member-reviews/A5ICDTC3HI26L/102-9674257-5514511?_encoding=UTF8

whose reviews, (again, if you are up on all the theories about the illuminati and the gods and who the gods really are, and aliens and the annunaki, genetic experiments, the giants, the emerald tabelets of thoth, and la de da and on and on (i have been reading about it for years because it's SO much to take in.)..are just...i hate to use the word bizarre again, but what other word will suffice?

especially his review of "the trumpet of the swan" WTF?
just reading his review of that makes me feel VERY strange all over!

and just all of this guy's reviews are so off the wall.
like here is an excerpt of his review of "harriet the spy":

"In the end, in order to get her friends back Harriet learns that sometimes you have to tell a little white lie in order not to hurt other people's feelings. She also discovers that her talent for writing might be better served as a newspaper reporter rather than as a military spy. "

this is also an odd thing to say in his review of "the wanderer"
"In the 60's there must have been a great deal of mistrust between the populous and the government and several of the characters reflect this feeling in that, "The Man", or "The Fuzz" are out to get them."

i mean DUH! i almost feel like the person reviewing these books isn't even human or from this earth or time period.
his reviews about humans are so "detached" . it's hard to explain without sounding completely and utterly off my rocker!
it's like he is some alien being reading about this planet's hidden history and just talking about it in such a matter of fact, detached, and quizzical way. always referencing how much his daughters thoroughly enjoyed the books.

i guess i just have not read enough of these books to know that so many children's books are SO freaking WEIRD.
it reminds me of the feeling i had when i learn what the simple rhymes you said as i child as really very creepy.
like "ring around the rosie" or "hush little baby don't you cry" or "jack and jill".

and believe me, i FEEL a little insane about this. because it makes me feel like either #1 i am completely insane (many people would like to agree with this theory :) or #2 there IS something VERY ODD going on here. either one not a very comforting thought.
i had the same feeling watching charlie and the chocolate factory as i get when i look at and read about the denver airport and it's bizarre murals and other things.

Deep Roy

Birth name
Gordeep Roy

Height
4' 4" (1.32 m)
His given name, Gordeep, means 'God's Light.'
Parents are Indian.
There are 165 Oompa-Loompas in Tim Burton's Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and he plays every one of them.
A true 'Blue Blooded' descendant of India's Maharajah Vinepal, 26 generations removed!

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i like how they took the initials WW an turned them into 4 triangles.
which makes up a tetrahedron.
http://mathworld.wolfram.com/Tetrahedron.html

and i could go on and on about that..but won't! :)

but i will say it's odd as i was googling images for tetrahedron is was brought here:
http://www.wias-berlin.de/workshops/tetrahedron/

which is a fuschia dragon made of tetrahedrons which is quite like the dragon willie wonka rode through the tunnel (under the "bifrost" bridge?)
i'm NOT saying that that site from germany and the new willy wonka movie are in choots with each other.
but it IS interesting to note that similiar themes keep appearing for similiar things, whether by coincidence or synchronicity or what have you.

here's a great photo gallery of photos from the movie:
http://www.deppimpact.com/charlie.html

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side note from here for my own reference:
http://tetgen.berlios.de/examples.html

http://tetgen.berlios.de/examples.lucy.html

Current Mood: curiouser and curiouser

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replies to various people about this:

i've said a few more things in comments to people here...and right now i am still researching more on the internet.

all of this guy's books are wild. like the BFG. (big friendly giant).

and i didn't know he wrote james and the giant peach, too.
now that i am reading reviews of the book (i saw the tim burton movie of that too), i now knowing more about Yggdrasill, asgard, loki, the giants, and the rainbow bridge called "bifrost"

a lot of similiarities arise :)
and it's very interesting!

it seems to me, like all of this is a game (as you know) and right now the "programme" we are in is this order vs. chaos thing...god vs. lucifer, frost ginats vs, sun gods..

and then throw in one hell of a lot of genetic engineering by many races of aliens (and as humans we do this to)
and we get this sort of bizarre nazi game that is going on where continuing "bloodlines" is of utmost importance. the whole "davidic" bloodline, being a reallly huge one because supposedly "god" was very pleased with "that line" (almost like a line of designer wear :)
so that particular god likes to keep that bloodline going, like a favourite kind of dogbreed or something. god seemed to be pleased with that particular creation and theere is something about the blood that keeps "something special" with that god continuing.
it's just...weird.

the children represent the various "types" that were genetically engineered, each thinking it is "superior"

the 1st child to go is the german one because he is too gluttonous for "the chocolate" and he almost drowns in it by his own gluttony for it (hitler)
, but we still have a blue eyes aryan race who like to think of themselves as superior, too. they were the mom and her champion blue daughter, they were even wearing blue tracksuits.

but then we have the british "blue bloods" who also think they are "heir to the throne" and they are very gluttonous , as well.

and then the new american "death kid" who is mike teavee...that is obvious.

all these groups think THEY are the rightful heirs, btu in the end it is good ol' charlie bucket (bucket as in vessel, as in "holy grail" or cup) that is the true heir (of the davidic line)
and so it is he who will learn the secrets of chocolate making.

there is way more to it, too, but i know this thing is going to cut me off :)

the WW are also very masonic.

and i a researching what the red and white striped barber pole oroginally meant. because i just know that has something to do with all of this. red and white stripes are huge deals in the whole "heraldry" thing. (see our flag for one example)

als, when charlie and willie are in the elevator, they pass by a "white mountain" which is VERY important in the scheme of all of this.

i think wilie is a grey alien. he even stands in front of a shop that said "grey" on it for a very long time.

i'll find the photos. i think his one white hair meant he only had one strand of dna and his dna was getting weak so he need to go in search of more dna to keep himself and his factory going.

which is the current and most popular theory as to what the grey aliens are doing to the human race.

i found it interesting how androgynous, robotic, and almost not understanding any feeling he was. he was als very grey. and had the googles. and standing next to a big sign that said "grey". and he didn't understand or want to think about sex and thought humans smelled funny, which really ties in to the whole grey alien thing.

ok, it let me post that much so i will continue.
the W is the double YOU. or the double U.
V+V= W
or 5+5= 10
10 being man and material form.
W is like our dna strands. 23 chromosones on each strand.
2+3=5
which is why v=5

the W also looked like a snake and you see that over and over in all myths.
and is tied in to dna and also adam and eve and on and on and on.

i think the factory was like the inner workings of earth, at 1st on the outside he tried to make that stupid little toy show that started on fire in the end. that was like "god" having fun just playing with us like toys and the kids all thought the destruction was a mistake when actually willie planned it that way for fun and for show.

and i thought it was extremely hilarious that willie pointed out to the children that eh had t be in the audience , too, or else how was he going to see it and enjoy it too?

i think the chocolate stands for our blood, or human souls or something.

through hardship and struggle (the waterfall) the chocolate becomes "light and frothy" (we becme more "enlighted beings") and therefore more tasty and enjoyable to eat.

it sounds insane, but the more i think about it, it seems that earth is just a giant soul farm, where out dna and our souls are being fooled around with by a bunch of other alien races, each with their own agenda. but i think we "agree" to play this game with them.
in the end it IS just a game. because that is what the universe does. it plays.

but i think we are in some way being eaten, or some product of us is.
which makes sense, because that is what WE do to survive is eat other living things. i don't think we are as high on the food chain as we think we are.

and like we genetically modift cornand cattle to meet our needs and keep certain "breeds" going that we like...so it is with these "gods" and us.

and we are human BEANS :)

and each race likes theirs a particular way. some like to eat us when we have a lot of fear in us. or they like to eat the actual fear, more likely....exactly like monsters. inc.

and some "feed" off our "enlightenment"
and so they want us to "grow" that way.

it seems earth is a special place and is unique in that , as willie wonka said "it's the only place that uses a waterfall for it's process"

and so i think there is a "battle" going on because some beings like to eat this part of us a certain way and others like t eat a different part of us a certain way, while i think another race is trying to "set us free" and "be like the gods". and this pisses off a lot of the other "gods" who like to keep us "trapped" on this planet to keep harvesting our "light" or our "darkness".

that one i guess is kind of like PETA who is running inot the monkey labs and trying to set the monkeys free and it's pissing off the scientists.

but in the end, it's all a game, a cycle of life...and the snake eats it's own tail.

there. how's that for weird?

unquietmind says:

origin of the barber pole

http://www.straightdope.com/mailbag/mbarber.html

http://www.brownshair.com/history.htm

http://www.edjeffersbarbermuseum.com/barberpole.html

i say:

very interesting!
but i think it also must have some sort of tie in with peppermint sticks and candy canes, as those are striped exactly in the same fashion.

maybe peppermint was a "magickal" ointment used by barber-surgeons and so the tie in with that somehow...

but then i also see so many egyptian kings and queen, gods and goddesses holding stripes canes that look like candy canes.

so i wonder what this is all about.

at SOME point, a striped pole, especially a cane, was started. and whether by egptians or before, i don't know...nor do i know why.

but red is definitely a sign of blood and white of purity (i would think)

and then here is the "christian" version of the candy cane:

http://www.noelnoelnoel.com/trad/candycane.html

anyway, stripes are interesting.
liek why do "witches" always wear striped stockings?

i think it's interesting how the meaning of stripes come into play in so many things.

ok one last thing :)
found a picture:

interesting to note that blue and gold are the colours for alchemy. i don't know why except for the fact that it is the "bluebloods" who most often practice it in their quest for "gold", whether physically or metaphorically.

i suppose the hook could just mean "keeping the population under control" like a shepherd and his sheep.

btripp says:

Those are the "crook and flail", symbols of Osirus ... see: http://altreligion.about.com/library/glossary/symbols/bldefscrook.htm

They are shepherding tools, and have a similar (if lower-key) "implication" as is present in the Roman "Fasces" (rods bundled with an axe) (see: http://www.livius.org/fa-fn/fasces/fasces.html) ... which even was featured on the back of the U.S. dime from 1916-1945 (see: http://www.coinresource.com/guide/photograde/pg_10cMercuryDime.htm).

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i say:

i definitely have to read the book :)

the whole father dentist thing really reminded me of a lot of the nordic lore about the frost giants, who were supposedly were here "before time". and then the "aesar" (or something spelled like that) who were the "creative" gods, "broke off from that and created the earth and moon and sun and stuff. and this made the frost giants jealous..but the frost giants are more wise...having been the 1st to "be here".

it's like the swan that moves in and out of time.
when the swan is "in time" it's white and if it's "out of time" (the place where there is no time before anthing "existed"), then it is black.

it seems like almost every culture has a parallel to this.

but i thought it was interesting that willie's dad lived in the frozen north. like a frost giant.

and i don't know what the deal is about the teeth.
but they sure made a big deal about it in that the new wonka movie, and in dune, and in the cremaster films.

also, it's interesting to note that the hebrew letter "shin" means "tooth" and looks like a crown.

when charlie put the tooth on willie's head (or cap from the toothpaste)..it was like his top hat or crown..it all fits in this whole crown/tooth/shin thing.

"Means "tooth" and is the symbol of Divine Peace, Power and Mastery, but also of Corruption and Falsehood. One of the holiest letters in the Hebrew language, it appears on its own on the mezuzah attached to the doorpost of all Jewish households as the sign of El Shaddai, the Holy Spirit."

http://shekinah.elysiumgates.com/hebrew.html

anyway, it's interesting to piece together :)

i read a synposis of the sequel and was just like WTF?
creatures that go into the shape of letters and eat people? and they spell out "SCRAM"?

it made me wonder if the girl who turned blue...when she left the factory she had been genetically changed to be permanently blue and she was really flexible...would become one of the creatures from the sequel?

and i wonder if the creatures in the sequel who make themselves into shapes of letters are blue?

there are a lot of stories of blue aliens.
especially in hopi culture.
if you google hopi blue aliens it will take you to a ton of places.

you probably don't want to get into it but here are 2 links for anyone else who wants to investigate:

http://www.crystalinks.com/sirius.html
http://www.crystalinks.com/hopi1.html

and then there are a lot of cultures who have blue gods or goddesses.

oh weirder still, i looked up who played the oompa loompa in the film and he is a guy named "deep roy"

in his biography from a site about him it says
"No wonder, he’s a true ‘Blue Blooded’ descendant of India’s Maharajah Vinepal, 26 generations removed! "

so odd i should pick out that willie and his father were wearing neru jackets..and then this whole india thing..and then blue blood...and then the guy who played the "key" character to the inner workings of everything is a "blue blood from india"

i was just like..i bet there is a REALLY specific reason that they chose him and only him to represent all the oompa loompas...and there you go!

curiouser and curiouser.

http://www.deep-roy.com/biography.htm

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well there ARE things that are absolute facts because you can see that they physically exist and that there is continuity with it all and the people who made these things all belonged to societies whose belief systems were the same.

there is absolutely no way of denying the actual physical evidence that the freemasons have left upon the physical planet in terms of giant buildings, monoliths, sculptures, careful EXACT measurements to all of these things which is wayyyyyyyyy beyond "coincidence".
it would be like loking at the white house and saying you don't see a white house.
it's all there, as plain as day.

now there is no "perfect" website about the masons because for 1, theyh are a secret brotherhood so no one knows for sure EXACTLY everything.
but the physical evidence they leave behind, the sheer volumne of them in positions of power, and the times and dates they do things. and the DEGREE and measurements by which these things are made are absolute fact and cannot be disputed.
you can walk up to them, touch them, see them, see that uyes indeed that is at 77 degrees latitude and such and such an occasionDID occur at such and such a time and date and longitude and latitude and these words were said. this is just fact.

this is a sort of ok place to read about it:
http://watch.pair.com/mason.html

if you just ignore this websites christian agenda, and just look at the FACTS it presents, it does a good enough.

and i'm not even saying that just because all these people are conducting these ceremonies and building these monouments, not to mention all the symbols in the dollar bill...believe that what they are doing is REAL that makes their "god" or whatever it is they are doing "real"

but to ignore MASSIVE physical evidence and fact that proves completely that these are beliefs these people believe and make HUGE decisions by that effect all our lives what be just myopic.

you can't just ignore the fact that the district of columbia is a perfect square and righht in the exact center of it is an upsidedown pentagram facing exactly north. and that the man who designed it all was a free mason and so was george washington. this is just a fact. this is what our "founding fathers" believed in. and maybe it's gotten waterered down through the ages, i don't knwo, but the fact that remains that these certain "things" these peolpe do remain being done to this day on certain days at certain hours at certain places. and you can just SEE it with your own eyes.

is the fact that there is an upsidedown pentagram in the middle of the capitol mean for a FACT that every single person in washington DC is a satanist?

no.
does it prove that ANYONE in washington dc is a satanist? no!

BUT...there IS the fact that there IS an upside down pentagram in the middle of a sqaure and how the buildings line up with this and the measurements of everything cannot be denied at all.

that is REAL. and so the question is WHY?
these people went through GREAT lengths and money and effort to make these very exact things in a very super exact way. it isn't arbitrary.

so one has to ask WHY are they doing this and what does it MEAN?
because the decisions they are making about our lives are connected to this.

and so it should be investigated.

i mean, if the entire layout of washington DC were in the exact shape of mickey mouse wouldn't you go "hmmm!" why??

but yes, i completely understand why you wouldn't want to use so much effort to figure it out. it is a lot of effort. and for me, i have to balance it out.
but i still have to question why when i have the energy. i just am far too curious :)

it's just too BIG for me not to question it.
especially after 911 and now we are in this war. with things progressing in a bad way more than ever before. i think it's crucial to ask questions and investigate this. at least for me it is.

but yes, i understand that answers will come from within and not without :)

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i really haven't delved into the entire king arthur thing a ton yet. so i can't really say.
i'd have to look into the entire king arthur and knights of the round table thing. i think they BELIEVED they were good and people like to THINK of them as good (just as any country likes to think of it's political leaders as being especially good and noble). but the knights of the round tale had a political agenda based in religion just as much as any other faction of that type.
and so for the good of THEIR beliefs they did what they did, whatever it was they did.
kept their "people from harm" etc. just as any army does.
king arthur happened to be able to take the sword of out of the stone and so he was not really "chosen" but he was king "by default" because he was a so-called direct descendant of the bloodline of jesus christ, the davidic line, from king david of the bible. because god made a pact with that particular "breed" to always make sure that bloodline was in a position of power because god was particularily pleased with the david line :)

in the new movie, charlie is not chosen because he is a good person (although he is), but he is chosen only because he happened to be the only one left at the end of the tour :)
so wonka doesn't pick him, he wins by default.

but really you could just see this film as yet another propoganda tool for the davidic bloodline.
telling us that the davidic bloodline is naturally and automatically good, better and nobler than any other bloodline because they are "god's chosen people". do you see what i am saying?
why would "god's chosen people" want to depict themselves in any other way other than fantastically wonderful? who is writing history?
who made sure the legend of king arthur continued and in the way it did? just like the story of christ. it's both full of political propoganda and religious agenda...and then ALSO a little bit of truth sprinkled in. so you always have to take everything and really examine it and not just make fairy tale stories that make sweeping generalizations about things (as much as we love to do that..it makes everything so much simpler and comforting that way)

and maybe they ARE god's chosen people and therefore NATURALLY "better", more "pure" and etc etc...but it also can be quite a twisted way of thinking because look how hitler wanted to "interpret" that. when *I* say god, i am not saying what *I* think of as god (which i think of god as the entire universe). i think the "god" who chose the davidic line was a very powerful "high up there" entity who had the capabilties of creating life. i think there are a bunch of "gods" that can do this, and that's where all this conflict comes in. and i think WE create life in our way, too. our "thoughtforms" literally create life, too.
so we are like "minigods" and then there are some "bigger" gods and then there is just GOD god who *I* think is comprised of "everything that is"

just like anything...it has it's good points and it's bad points.
but in the end, it's all about agenda.

oh ya, duh the knights of the round table were searchig for the holy grail. the supposed cup of the last supper.
(getting back to the humans as poosible food theory...is it not jesus christ himself (so they say) who said eat of my body and drink of my blood? i mean, talk about a massive reference right there!)

there are a lot of theories as to what the holy grail is. some people think it's literally a grail and it was what jesus drank out of at the last supper. some think it was a cup that people gathered his blood in as he dripped on the cross (why?? again, to drink it?)

the most fashionable theory right now is people think mary magdalene was the holy grail and that she was pregnant with christ's child. and the holy grail is literally "the bloodline" of the descendants of this child.

that is what the whole mason thing is about, practically. and it's true that the royals of england CLAIM that they can trace their blood right back to christ, again, the davidic line. and THAT is why they are royal. seriosuly, that's it. they claim it. it's on record.

the problem some people theorize is that this is a lie, and that it was princess diana who actually wasfrom the "TRUE" davidic bloodline and that is why charles married her to "sire" his sons and then they had her killed off on the 31st on the 13th pillar inside the tunnel named after the goddess diana was named after. as a ritualistic sacrifice (it's all very weird! and a lot like the JFK "blood sacrifice at the 33 degree parallel)

anyway, since god made a pact that only the davidic bloodline will ever sit on the throne of "judah", the so called "reptilain" german family currently living as royalty did NOT actually have "rightful" heir to the throne. so they needed to get diana's TRUE blood into their BLUE blood. so that their offspring would remain in power.

and just like christ, it is "said" that king arthur will rule again. and it's theorized this will be prince william (i think?) who supposedly already has a "fancy" for thinkig as himself as the resurrected king arthur. pricess diana supposedly even said she would be "his merlin" and together they would remake "camelot".

it's all just stranger and stranger the more you read about it. because whether or not ANY of this is actually TRUE, the fact remains that is appears greatly so that these "royal" people DO believe this and are basing their actions and decisions on this belief.

so either they are so disconnected from reality that they are living in a fantasy world (which i think is true) or some of this actually has some truth in it (which is also probably true). the truth lies somewhere inbetween, as usual.

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Horoscope for Aries (January 12 2006)

Prepare for the unexpected. You can count on someone creating emotional frustrations for you. Don't let it confuse you. Anger will only lead to more worry and trouble.

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An ambiguous day
Valid during several months: For most people this is a good influence, a time when you will feel like being with another person and expressing your love. For lovers this can be quite an amorous time. You will have a strong feeling that by yourself you are not quite complete and that you need someone else to make you whole. This feeling is not born out of personal insecurity; it is a real need and desire to give and receive love. However, for some persons at some times, this influence can have a negative effect, almost the reverse of the above. It can make you overly self-involved, so wrapped up in yourself that you do not relate very successfully to others. Or you may demand more love than you are willing to give. But for this to occur there must be a predisposition to it in your nature.


The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today:
Venus Square Med.Coeli exact at 15:30
activity period from beginning of December 2005 until end of February 2006.

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The conflict now may be between your head and your heart. You know what's best for you, but you are still pulled in another direction. This may be one time when you are better off listening to logic than to your intuition. Make a decision and act on it, but don't overextend yourself.

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Thursday
Moon into Cancer 2:50am PST
We push off into the sea of emotions and sensitivity with the Moon going into Cancer at 2:50am PST. Cancer Moons should be marked on all calendars, 'cause when the issues start popping and the buttons are getting pushed we always wish, 'if only I knew!'. This full moon is super sizing this Cancer transit. Along with the building grand cross. of Sunday. Even little incidents are not so subtle hints of core patterns and issues. Any time we want we can change the way we look at them, not like genetic defects and permanant but mechanisms of our thinking and feeling. Then is when we begin to mold them and not take the shape they define. Now is the time to sink in changes if you want them to resonant for a while.