jan 9th, 2006

today sucked ass.
just total LJ drama. it's not even worth getting in to.
i just deleted everyone from my friends list in all my journals and i may disable all commenting as well.
i just don't want to waste one more second of my valuable time when i could be doing cool things for all of you in here. making art, doing photograohy, crocheting all these things, working on my movie, reading a BOOK, ANYTHING but sitting around being sucked into a bunch if idiotic psycho LJ drama.
god i am so OVER IT.
jesus h christ, it's time for me to just move ON already with my life.
2006 will NOT be wasted on assholes.

tomorrow (today) is going to be a GOOD day.
and THAT is THAT!

4:24pm

it was actually sunny out today!
i missed most of it , tho.
but tomorrow it is also going to be sunny, according to weather.com :)
also, tomorrow is jason's and my 8th anniversary!
can you believe? such a long time!
he is taking me to a special restauraunt for it :)
also he got us tickets to see lili taylor speak and see her new film, too :)
and i know what i am going to get him, i need to pick it up tomorrow :)

i'm listening to imogen heap.
i'm going to clean a bit and pick up the pieces of my soul and it converges back together again.
dust myself off.
get to work.
take out the trash figuratively and literally.

and then later we are going to watch some more battlestar galactica.

here is a review of it from time magazine:

Time Magazine - Best of 2005: Television
#1 - Battlestar Galactica
"Most of you probably think this entry has got to be a joke. The rest of you have actually watched the show. Adapted from a cheesy '70s Star Wars clone of the same name, Galactica (returning in January) is a ripping sci-fi allegory of the war on terror, complete with religious fundamentalists (here, genocidal robots called Cylons), sleeper cells, civil-liberties crackdowns and even a prisoner-torture scandal. The basic-cable budget sometimes shows in the production, but the writing and performances are first-class, especially Edward James Olmos as the noble but authoritarian commander in charge of saving the last remnants of humanity. Laugh if you want, but this story of enemies within is dead serious, and seriously good. "


http://www.time.com/time/arts/article/0,8599,1141640,00.html

3:11pm

i feel very nervous today.
i had good dreams, tho, which was odd considering that i am not in a good mood.
i dreamt that tori sent me i really nice letter, the only problem was is that it was smudged by a big block of square ink and it had gotten waterlogged, so it was hard to read.
but i still could make out that she was saying happy things to me. and i just was so glad to hear from her and it felt healing.
she also sent me some blankets and some trinkets.
and then i had another good dream, but i can't remember what it was now.

i had a run in with this really psycho bitch on LJ and shouldn't have "gone there" and even argued with her.
but i did. but then i deleted it all because i want it out of my life. of course now she saved (the parts she wanted to save) and put it all in HER lj so more people can make fun of me, even tho she is the one who is psycho.
god i really hate people right now.
and i hate when they lie about me.
argh. let it go let it go let it go.
so many psycho people in this world.
SO MANY.

and i am really fucking aggravated by people who "friend" people on LJ who are obviously so insane and hurtful to me.
WHY?
why would anyone do that??
why would people who like me FRIEND other people who are VICIOUS to me???
what the fuck is UP with that?
if i had friended a person that i KNEW was being VICIOUS to one of my lj friends i would defriend them!
because i do NOT want people like that in my life! and i don't wish to friend people who are mean to others! period!


i've got to get out of this negative thing and get back to happiness where i was.
i have so much to be happy about and thankful for.
i have to avert my attention back to that.

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Your Horoscope for January 9 , 2006

Money may be a concern but, if you spend too much time worrying about it, it will be a waste of valuable time. Instead, drum up more business, change jobs or work on an investment that will make your life easier.

and

Mental work
Valid during several weeks: This is an excellent time for all kinds of mental work. You are much more attentive to detail than usual and especially concerned about using the best techniques available. You want everything you do to be as perfect as possible, so you plan carefully and work out every detail in advance. This attitude toward doing a job well will enable you to get along well with employers and with employees. It is a good time to sit down with either of these groups and talk over any problems that exist. One problem to be careful about is criticizing others. This influence may sharpen your critical ability, and while you are less concerned with your own ego needs, you may also be rather careless of other people's ego needs. Even in the interest of what you consider to be "objective" truth, try not to trample on others' feelings.

and

It may be a lazy day, Aries, so don't worry if you don't accomplish as much as expected. In fact, even the things you start may not feel like they are taking hold. Be gentle with yourself now and enjoy what you can instead of getting frustrated. The energy will shift later in the day and you'll be back on track by tomorrow.

and

Monday
Moon void of course 10:58am PST
Moon into Gemini 5:58pm PST
What were the moments this weekend you sensed it felt good to feel so good? Not the particular food, setting, sometimes even the people at the table is the reason. It's usually our ability to pick up on it. Science says happiness, real happiness, experienced fully can raise the serotonin levels in our brains. Remembering how we feel, when it feels simple so good can install it as a new piece of software on your human hard drive. The evening gets chatty today and remember walking our talk is easiest without putting our feet in our mouths.