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i'm listening to the new tori amos cd again. ok, GET THIS! i have BIG news! i probaly shouldn't even be announcing this in here but i'm too damn excited. but the possibilities look good that i'm going to get to interview/chat with tori amos online! just she and i together in a chat room. and with tori on a cam, too maybe! i am checking into what they want today. trying 2 get a feel for it. i just left a message on john witherspoon's cell phone asking for him to call me back so we can discuss it! i am SO BEYOND excited! what i had asked tori before is is she'd like to do an email interview, then i heard from john that she'd like to do a chat. maybe i can do both. because i really would like to ask her some questions that she had some time to really think about and get back to me on them in her leisure time ( ya, right...whe is she gonna have leisure time? but u know what i mean!) i'm just not going to believe that by talking about this i'm going to "jinx" it or something. but it's true, things could fall through. who knows? the nature of the "entertainment industry" is flighty. but i feel strongly that this will happen and i want to share my joy about it NOW! :) hehe :) can u imagine? i am FLIPPING! how cool is that? i am SO honoured beyond infinite!

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and here is an email i sent to tori. including it 'cause i only write down stuff once so when i email someone it's like my journal:

oh ack my stomache hurts. i'm out of xanax.
i'm waiting for my boyfriend, jason, to get home. listening to mark hollis. he went to the milo fine free jazz ensemble show. i was supposed 2 go with but he had 2 werk late and couldn't come and get me :( do u like free jazz? i just discovered it a year ago and it was QUITE an eye opener!

i could go on and on but my stomache hurts. anxiety. i wish i didn't get anxiety. i've had it all my life ever since i can remember. i want to go to a hypnotist to get rid of it because it's really pointless. i've been meaning 2 write u for days, but again...i try to wait until the perfect time. but there is no perfect time, so i'll just write 2 u now during my anxiety attack as i wait for jason to come home. typing to keep my mind from going in silly circles. and then i can go to the drugstore and get my xanax. it's so cold in my apartment. i've had the electric oven on all day with the door open on 450 degrees. october 8th they switch the heat on i found out. and the kitchen sink clogged today and water was flowing up from it and i had to get a big pan and dish it into the waste paper basket then throw it down the toilet. it just hasn't been a good day.

but my hair is great! :) i have it all twisted up in these cool knots with crocheting metal sticls through it. i've been wanting to do this to my hair for YEARS! but i keep bleaching the crap out of it so it doesn't grow very long. but hey! i have it long now! insta-hair! :) i feel like betsey johnson. i love her! do u love her? i'll bet u do! i met her once too really briefly it's a cool story i will tell u about that sometime.

ok, the purpose of this writing besides to just type to pass away the time to get my mind off my stomache is to tell u that i am REALLY REALLY excited about possibly getting to interview u in the same room in NYC. when john w. said that was a possibility my hair wanted to stand on end if it could! wow.

triple fruitluck embroidery wow!

i just hope that they talk to me cause i know all about that stuff and sometimes people can get a bit gung ho with the technology only to have it poop out on them in the end. so i have lots of good plans. like for instance, this band i ADORE called The Pretty Things, have u heard them? u HAVE to hear S.F. Sorrow if u haven't it is in my top 5 fave albums ever. it was the 1st concept record made around the time of sgt. pepper. but they never did get much attention. they were really a raunchy band...the rolling stones contemporaries. except they were dirtier and nastier and uglier than the rolling stones so they never got popular. anyway....they FINALLY played that album live for the first time last year and david gilmour was playing with them and they broadcast it live on the net and it pooped out and no one got to hear it! so... i've got a great pretty things story to tell u too! it is a GREAT story!

so, anyway...tell the tech people that if this happens to have still cams too, cause u can have both, then the people that can't see the streaming can watch the still photos refresh every 30 seconds. it's cool to have streaming for the press and to get everyone excited but when it comes right down to letting everyone see it..still cam photos are best. but u can have both easily so no worries.

still, if all this falls through, then i'm glad it almost happened :) but i swear to u that if it does it will be THEE best interview ever. no questions about how u feel about "women in rock" god don't u jus hate that question? i have almost all the books about "women in rock" i buy so many books and never read them . i will someday tho. i love to read biographies best. i swear one day i'll be in one of those damn "women in rock" books. grr. :)

41 degrees out. brrrr. i think i'll go put on my furry pink coat.

oh! i heard that u mentioned me on kroq! someone told me and i went and listened to the archive! wee :) i don't know how u get up in the morning and do that. i hate morning djs and then theey all go "oh you should go to voyeurdorm.com they have 9 girls!" whatever. like my cam's even about that! oh augh. but they knew who i was! that always surprises me! i totally got a kick out of it :) thanks for mentioning me it made my whole day :)

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ok, i guess i'll go jump up and down now. my energy is amking a bunch of shapes right now like u said when i saw u

boing boing boing

i've been listening to your cd every day...."billowing out to somewhere...." love love love it :) i love when u sing "oh little sister....i wish you didn't feel that way" it make me feel so sad like i wanna curl up like a tiny kitten and just purr in a corner man, i can't believe i get to just type this to u, i fell so lucky :)

ok...bi 4 now must go pounce around, he's got to be home any minute now.... oxoxoxoxoxoxooox,

ana

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THEN, on tuesday i leave from there to NYC where i'll be "interviewing" tori amos on wednesday!!!! and my laptop works from NYC, no problem! and today i found out that it will be a chat with tori more than an interview..that she will ask me questions back and stuff...so i feel a HUGE weight lifted from me and now i don't have to make sure all my questions are "really really really really GOOD ones"!!! if we are going to have a conversation instead of an interview..well, that is a big difference! so i just feel a LOT better! but i'm still really nervous cause when i'm nervous i talk so fast and my voice is rather high..i hope that the microphones wil pick me up well and that when put through a 33.6 modem through tinny computers speakrs you'll actually be able to discern what i'm saying!

the only person who can really decipher my "ana-speek" at al times is my best friend carolyn, who is/was the bassist of the band The Blue Up? , my band for 11 years. i just emailed renee, the drummer, yesterday and i hope we can all get back together soon for wine and catching up stories. we might even reform in some fashion but not to play live i don't think. just to go do weird cover songs and stuff for our own amusement. 1/2 of our practicing was talking :) we had this GREAT cover of kate bush's "army dreamers" that we were working on where we all sat in a circle with one drum in the middle, then we both had two wooden stirring spoons and a big metal pan cover on our heads and we did this little choreographed rhythum thing with that. it was THE best. but we never got it really down pat cause we'd end up laughing so much. but i'd like to go back to that and figure it out :) maybe then we could play it for u on the net :)

so....i'll be having a conversation with tori on wednesday..so be sure to tune in and see the pictures of it happening! then later on you'll be able to see/hear the whole thing after they've done some production and editing to it :) and the premiere of that will be on a new site tori is starting at www.toriamos.com instead of www.tori.com i asked them what the difference between the two sites will be and it sounded like toriamos.com will just have MORE stuff.

i told the guy i've been talking to who is setting this whole thing up that tori should get a "piano cam". so i'll have to tell her that. or she should just put a gnome or something in her yard and point the cam at that so when she's away she can check up on the level of grass in the yard or what the sky looks like there and stuff :) don't u think there should be a "tori herb garden cam"? or "watch the dust settle on my home piano while i'm away" cam? then if she has a housekeeper or friend who watches over the house while she's away she can have that person write messages to her in dust on the piano. :)

that was the motto of "ANA" when i thought ANA was going to be the name of my band and not the name of me...it was "musique pour l'ecriture du la fin du temps" or something. ack, that's not it. what it's supposed to say is "music for writing in dust at the end of time" i have a big thing for writing secret messages in dust :) so....then i'll be home thursday night.

i wish i had the money to stay in NYC longer but i'm sure after 5 days i'll be dying to get home and see jason and the pupster dogs! i gotta get him a salami sandwhich from the carnegie deli and bring it back to him. he has never eaten there and i keep telling him about it and he keeps "pu-shawing" my love for that place 'cause he is supposed to know about delis not i, 'cause he's the jewish one :) but carnegie deli kicks ass! mmmm, potato pancakes! mmmm mish mash soup! how could u eat only protein the rest of your life??? mmmm. *drool* cheescake *slobber* :) i don't know if i'l be even anywhere near the carnegie deli, but if i am that'd be nice cause it's the only area of NYC that i'm even remotely familiar with. i've never even been to a club in nyc! it's always "wham bam thank u maam" when i go to NYC..or anywhere for that matter when i'm out on business...which is the only time i'm ever out. not like talking with tori is business! but u know what i mean...i'm not paying for it! so i gotta leave when they tell me to!