october 23rd, 2005
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btw, on a happier note, the new peach citrus fresca is delicious!

9:57pm

http://prussianbluefan.blogspot.com/

*sigh*

i was reading about them on crooksandliars.com and then found their blog.

this photo is particularily scary of them wearing their "happy hitler" shirts.

the comments about these 13 year old girls on the crooksandliars.com website is actually even more disturbing.
as it reveals the mysogyny and pedophelia so deeply rooted in our society that we cannot even see the forest for the trees.

i'm bummed to find out that symbols i have been learning about, like runes, and things about my nordic ancestry are being used by hate groups such as neo nazis and white supremacists.
i found out that the #88 is a "secret code" for "heil hitler" (H being the 8th number in the alphabet)

3:37pm

more intriguing pictures for you:

http://www.ana2.com/private/today/beautiful14

i like showing you pictures because they are a diary in and of themselves as to what i am thinking about.
except i leave out a few really disturbing photos i find that i do not with to thrust upon you. crime scene type things.

i also dreamt i saw an entire sky full of yellow budgies migrating or something. the site of an entire sky filled with them was astounding.
i tried to get the people to look up and see but by the time they looked, they were all gone. i picked up feathers they left on the ground. i found a lot of dead sparrows. and huge eagle feathers 3 feet long.
and one very bright blue very large parrot dead and hanging from telephone wires.

the thing that was the most amazing to see about the juana molina show was her set up. she would make the samples right then and there and then play off them. whatever was her gear...i want it.
because it was very simple and i have been looking for a way to do samples in that easy way.
it was really incredible to watch her do it. it thrilled me to the bone.

jason is coming over to watch movies.

2:29pm

http://www.juanamolina.com/down/mp3.htm

(gif nabbed from bayarts)

i hadn't been remembering my dreams for days.it was weird, even tho i have mostly horrific nightmares, not remembering made me feel like 1/2 my life was missing...but at the same time i liked it because it gave me some relief to not remember.

but i do rememeber last night's nightmares now. about 10 in all.
having to do with the regular, floods, rape, being shot at, trying to find my home, fixing up rotting houses, trying to hide, being on a journey i know not where or what, almost dying in a handgliding accident...
maybe i'll write them down later.

i think the gif pretty much sums up how i feel about my dreams.
so when i saw it i had to put it here!

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Horoscope for Aries (October 23 2005)

Make adjustments to your residence, but don't do anything that will cause a rift. Romance and traveling about will go hand-in-hand. If you attend a social event, someone interesting will catch your eye.

and

Imaginative power
The positive side of this influence is that it enables you to think and express yourself with great subtlety, allowing you to express ideas and feelings that you usually cannot; therefore it is very favorable for all forms of artistic expression. On the other hand, this "imaginative" power can get so out of hand that it changes from imagination to illusion. Be sure to subject all the ideas that come to you now to the test of time to find out whether they are of lasting value or just a fantasy of a moment. This influence can indicate unclear and confused thinking. Be particularly careful in your personal communications, because others may misunderstand you even though you think you have been completely clear. Avoid any situation that depends for success on the complete honesty and clarity of each participant.

and

No matter what issues have arisen over the past weeks, it is time to move deeper into them. You might have already discovered ways to bring more balance into your relationships. Now that the tension has been temporarily alleviated, dig back into the original problems. They will only be solved if you are willing to go another round.