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and things i made for you to print out yesterday
9:20pm
i thought it would take 1/2 an hour
to get sebastian's hair cut, bath and toenails clipped. but they said come
back in 2 1/2 hours!
i was thinking there is no way it could take them that long. but it did! the
girl who cut sebastian's hair said it took her 2 hours!
but i must say his haircut looks moghty fine! i've never seen his fur so even!
he looks like a completely different dog!
each toe i can see! and he's all super clean :)
all the dogs were humping him when he came home. ha :)
but poor little sebastian seems pretty
traumatized from the whole experience. when i came to get him he just had
a look of being completely lost in his eyes. i bought him a new toy and he
came to life on the car ride home as i gave him his new toy.
that made him feel comforted. i always get him the same toy each time. this
stuffed "jack". it's the only one he wants.
he such a little small guy under all that fur.
i'm gonna go squish him some more now.
he's acting all normal now, and he is glad to be home!
5:22pm
geting ready to take the wooket (sebastian) to petsmart to get his bath and haircut!
4:14pm
The site:
http://www.911inplanesite.com/
Download the movie directly:
(it'll take awhile to download it, but it's worth the wait!)
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and SOME of the larry bradshaw and
lorrie beth slonsky story
that i posted here (and sent of to my mailing list of 12,000 people and told
them to forward it, too):
http://ana.livejournal.com/1619603.html
makes it to cnn and anderson cooper's show:
http://www.cnn.com/2005/US/09/13/katrina.bridge/index.html
kick ass! i'm glad that some of that
story is finally getting some major media attention.
i hope they keep investigating it and the whole truth is made known.
3:01pm
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well, i thought i was getting myself
on a morning schedule. yesterday getting up at 10am and all the other days
getting up at 11am.
then today i slept until 2pm. blarg.
it's 67 degrees here and totally grey, humid, and slightly hazy.
rain here and there.
it makes for sleepiness.
i went down to get my mail and ran into this guy who is on the same floor
as me and he tried to make really dumb chit chat with me that was very uncomfortable
and i just got the most creeped out feeling off of him. i hope he never tries
to talk to me again. yucko.
i had the worst ever dreams. this
really testerone fueled guy was raping me over and over again.
like 20 times. i kept begging him to let me go, but he just would not.
he just ripped me up and i had to have stitches.
this scenario played out over and over again and each time i would try a new
way of trying to escape from him or talk him out of what he was doing to me.
and nothing ever worked.
it was just...awful. i feel exhausted from it.
and then talking to the creepy guy on my floor didn't help me feel any better.
i have to get bullets for my .38 special now that my 9mm has been taken away
from me.
i dream now about having no bullets and i can't defend myself.
do i need a permit to buy bullets? and can i buy them online?
i asked this question before but no one answered me.
hurricane katrina and the aftermath has really wreaked havoc on my psyche.
i always already dreamed about floods and murky waters anyway. and to see
it all played out for REAL, all my nightmares come to life and given life...only
2 days drive away from me, it just chills me to the core. and them taking
away everyone's guns so they can't protect themselves against rapists and
other types of attack. i am so thoroughly freaked by it.
i am just trying to shake it now by not watching any more tv or reading the
news.
i just can't take it anymore.
i can't take it. it is all my nightmares come true.
all the monsters are really alive and just a few days away from me.
in other news, less grim, i have
discovered this band callled MUSE, which is a band that is so much like radiohead
that they could almost BE radiohead. it's wild. but then they have all these
prog rock arpeggios in their songs, too, and they are a little harder and
a little faster, and sometimes they remind me of Queen, too.
they are pretty amazing! i don't know how i could not have known about them
until now.
jason got us tickets to see BAUHAUS!
and i am really excited about that!
i've never seen them live! i've seen love and rockets a few times, and daniel
ash solo, and i think i saw tones on tail, or david j solo. i'm not sure,
it was all so long ago.
i even got daniel ash to put me on the list once because he came into ragstock,
where i worked, and i told him i was too poor to see his show, so he put me
on the list :)
and also once i opened for him at 1st avenue! and he coveted my silver sparkly
rickenbacker.
but i've never seen bauhaus, so i am so happy about this :)
ah, but this day. i just feel very yucky from that dream.
i feel like i am not really fully alive right now.
i need to give my house a really good cleaning, and get rid of more stuff.
i need a good clearing out. i need to get my taxes done.
and then i need a transformation and to sink my teeth into making music and
i need to come alive .
too much of my day is taken up doing mundane things and beign too introspective.
the whole hurricane just really whacked me on the side of my head, emotionally,
spiritually...
thank god not physically.
and then the mom thing came and fucked with me a little.
i felt very off kilter.
i've got to get back on track and back to life.
of course, i haven't heard anything
back from my dad since i sent him the "do not tell me about mom"
email. i'm sure i scared him.
whatever.
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Horoscope for Aries (September 13 2005)
Focus on what you have to get done. Don't gossip or it will come back to haunt you. Too much of anything will work against you -- it's about balance and staying positive.
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Persuasive force
This influence signifies a time of very intense mental activity. Your thinking
and your communications with others have an intense, penetrating quality.
You have a strong desire to get to the bottom of every question, and you will
not be satisfied with superficial answers. This is a good time for any kind
of mental activity that involves solving a mystery or answering a question.
You also have the capacity to influence others, if you need to, and you are
able to speak with persuasive force and vigor. You make it clear that what
you say is the answer, not merely your opinion. The only danger here is that
others will believe that you are right even when you do not know the answer.
You must take the responsibility of not misusing this energy and not misrepresenting
yourself.
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Your ruling planet, Mars, is currently receiving all the help it needs. The balance between how you feel and what you want to do is easier to come by today. Life looks pretty good right now, even if you've been going through some difficult times. It's like there is a direct connection between your emotions and your actions. Use this connection, but don't overdo it.