september 9th, 2005
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today was frustrating.
it was a day where i put in a lot of effort but didn't get much back.
i made some soup..actually it was soup from long ago that i froze.
then i added noodles and eggs (like an egg drop soup, i thought) but it ended up looking like dog food.
it tastes fine once i add a ton of tobasco sauce. but if you add anough tobasco you can make almost anything edible. almost.
also i bought some "pumpkin ale" which i thought would be amazing but was kind of gross.
and least this brand is.
i'm really disapointed that nerve never wrote me back.
mean, c'mon at least tell me SOMETHING. but to just say nothing? it's just...an odd feeling.
maybe the woman i was coresponding with was caught in a frek accident and has amnsesia...
all the files on her computer erased...i just don't know!
it's...as i said...an odd feeling.

the good part of my day was watching 5 episodes of "lost" with jason.
and i got to see 2 episodes i had missed.
missed and lost.
such good words to describe "something" in my life right now.

like my dad writing to me about my brother and...just everything.
i write this HUGE email back with an outpouring of my heart.
and ZIP NADA back.
for those of you who read my journal every day for the last few years you will recognize the pattern.
and i know this pattern, but why does it hurt everytime it happens ANYWAY?
i know that if my dad writes me and i write anything back "emotional" to what my dad has said, like my brothers slow suicide.
or ANYTHING. the war...the flood...name it.

i never hear a damn thing back for weeks.
i know i know.
i'll wait. eventually he will write me back.
eventually. the freaking cycle.
so predictable.

i know i scare him.
i dig. i get to the heart of things.
there isn't time not to!

and flood, the hurricane...
just....i have been so derailed from it.
i see this as the 2nd (major and noticable) terrorist attack here.
and i feel helpless.

i don't really see any "safe" spot on earth, is the problem.
i think...maybe iceland.
there is water there. there is fish.

1/2 of me feels like i am on the verge of a biological or nuclear attack..and 1/2 of me is like...life will be good, i will move into this condo and live a peaceful life spinning yarn and making art.

maybe it's somehow both.

it's all just so conflicting and weird.
and i'm trying to just go with the flow....

i cannot articulate yet.

thank you for sticking by me.

i'm going to out the photos i made for nerve up tomorrow.
in tomorrow's anagram.
i think they rock.
and i have no idea why someone would NOT want them on their site for FREE.

actually, i might put some up tonight. ya.

4:49pm

well, i haven't heard anything from nerve!
what do you think i should do?

3:42pm

post i made in juju_rising:
(skip this is magick is not your thing)

ok, here is my strange idea.
we make a symbol that is to be used to symbolize and help with "waking people up to what is truly going on",
at the same time it will mean "government/"new world order" WE are watching YOU, we are aware", and it will also mean
"we are protecting ourselves against you and spreading the word"

inside the circle are 11 sections. 11 is the number of light and illumination.
there are 8 prongs coming out of the circle to connect..
read about 8:
http://www.crystalinks.com/numerology3.html
hilariously enough, i find out now that 8 is the number of thoth:

"Thoth was usually depicted with the head of an Ibis.
He was the Scribe who wrote the story of our Reality
then placed it into grids for us to experience and learn."

grids! how perfect is that?

about ingwaz:
"This rune can be drawn two ways. One way is in the shape of a diamond. When it is in this form it symbolizes the "inner fire" in us. The second way to draw this rune is like the image to the left. The rune in this shape denotes limitless expansion, allowing our energies to spread far and wide. Inguz is the God of fertility and the home hearth. So we can use this rune to protect our homes. It signifies energy, specifically channeling potential energy to bring together separate things."

i propose we make tiny stickers of this symbol and/or draw it on things.
in your house, on anything you find outside, especially on government property.
light poles, buses, on government buildings...anything you can stick it on.

what this symbol ALSO does, ultimately, is set up a "grid" around the earth. each sticker or place where it is drawn will connect with all other stickers and places it is drawn, forming a grid.

our intention will be as we stick this on things or draw it on things is that when people pass through any line on that grid (and you can see that many lines will form that thousands of people will pass through each day) they will come into contact with the energy of this symbol of our intention and connect into it, "wake up" and be protected.

of course, as we do this, we also say "according to free will with harm to none". we can't FORCE anyone to become aware or want to be protected. and we want to do anything against anyone's will as that is very bad karma. but this symbol will connect to people's higher selves and we will hope that their higher selves will hear/feel our intent and decide to join us in their own way.

the symbol i came up with is just something that came into my mind, and so i drew it.
as you can see there is the eye, which the government uses a lot, there is the celtic symbol of ingwaz in there but i have extended all the parts of it to come out of the circle to act like antennas.

it's just a really quick drawing of it.
and i made a smaller version to show how small i think the stickers should be, at 1st.
just little stickers that people won't mind and so no one will be likely to remove them.

we could even have the stickers made on clear plastic so that the symbol just melts right into whatever it is stuck on.

we should come up with some sort of ritual to do over the stickers before they are placed to "activate" them with our intent and will.

i think this would be a good start for our project, as an introduction of ourselves to the world.
and it would be easy to do, cheap, while still highly effective, i think.

i propose we also draw this symbol on all the dollar bills we come across as a very effective way of dispersing this symbol into the population and at the same time counteracting and diffusing all the symbols they have put on the dollar bills.

what do you think?

i also think the best way to counteract this "new world order" is simply to use their own force against themselves.
we make another symbol that just mirrors back to them their own juju.

or maybe a binding ritual of some sort.

also, they seem to be, throughout the centuries, pretty darn scared of american indians and their ceremonies.
so maybe we should look into what power is in that, like the medicine wheel, and in corporate that "technology" into what we are doing.

or...maybe, we should just come up with something entirely new and different, because that is something they can plan for.
these are some of my ideas.

 

3:38pm

http://www.livejournal.com/community/juju_rising/
go join if you'd like to participate (below is the explanation) and lend your ideas :)

a post i made yesterday:

cooking up some juju

so, about this...everything i have been talking about....
those who have been following and understand what i am talking about.
we need to cook up some powerful juju. we can, we will, and we are.

they underestimate us.
they want us to think we are not powerful beings.
and to focus on the physical which will not work.
they have the physical covered now.
they are at all borders...

they outgun us, and that is that.

the only way to break through and stop it is from within.
where magick is. through our hearts and minds.

jericho was conquered by this.

and we can do it again.

i'm not going to explain it any further.
those that are going to get this are going to get this.
and those are who i am speaking to.

so...
we need to put out hearts and minds together once a week, or once a month,
and so some sort of ritual magick (for lack of a better term) at a specified time together, all over the planet, to counteract their bullshit.
we will not let them get away with this.

i don't know what exactly, so i am speaking to you to put your thinking caps on and let's come up with a plan.

and let's make it playful and fun but SERIOUS as all hell.

my 1st thought is that we need a symbol for this.
the illuminati already understand the importance of symbols, certain days and times etc etc.
just as anyone practicing wicca or an offshoot of that understands.

because earth is a technology.
and to understand this technology is power.

the good thing is we have earth on OUR side because they are trying to destroy it.
earth is a sentient being and is ready for action and doesn't want to die.
it will kill us all off before it lets that happen.
for those that understand this, i don't need to explain it more.

and you can't beat earth, because well, that is obvious. our bodies are part of earth. one with it.
so let's harness the power of earth and symbols and our hearts, and let's PLUG IN.

but those that are here to stay, let's cook up some powerful juju to counteract this BULLSHIT that is happening right now.

i'm open to all suggestions and there is no right or wrong way.
in fact, it would be great if we could find the people who wanted to do it "this way" to do it "this way" and the people who want to do it "that way" to do it that way.

everyone has a skill. let's find out what skills are what and let's put together teams and come up with a plan.

for anyone who thinks i am batshit insane at this moment.
sorry, i don't have time to fuck around....

email me anavoog at gmail dot com
or just post here. and then also email me...

it's time to get serious.

1:23pm

fascinating article:
http://www.laetusinpraesens.org/docs/spingov2.php

lots of spinning and weaving analogies :)

excerpt:

The ability of individuals to "spin their own yarn" has been severely eroded
to the point of non-existence -- because of the apparent quality of the imported
product. Consequently the individual is forced to import truths and memes
that have been "spun" elsewhere and has become totally dependent on them to
provide threads of discourse with contemporaries. As in the case of the
villager, it is such imported "fabric" that individuals have become obliged to
wear as their interface (protective or decorative) with their environment. It is
through such imported cultural products -- whether scholarly or edutainment --
that the individual now tends to articulate his or her identity and worldview.
It is in terms of the distant frameworks of Dallas, Dynasty and
other media creations, that individuals find role models for their daily lives.
The ability to "spin one's own yarn" (whether as a story or a philosophy) is
considered as totally quaint -- as was the spinning wheel of Gandhi's time.

Gandhi was able to demonstrate to millions that this quaintness was a major
threat to the British Empire's governance and its economic exploitation of
India. In this light the key questions would seem to be:

how individuals can re-learn the art of "spinning their own yarn", and how
this can sustain them more effectively than imports

how this may be perceived as a major threat to those from whom pre-spun
memes are currently imported.

 

Horoscope for Aries (September 9 2005)

There may be more going on behind your back than you realize. Stay in the loop, especially regarding work or money. Partnership opportunities look promising.

and

Hopefully a lazy day
This influence can introduce much pleasantness into your life through good times, agreeable relationships, sexual attraction and friendship. The problems that you will confront during this time are: overindulgence, lack of self- discipline, and unwillingness to work. This influence does not fit you for demanding work or trying situations, for you are likely to be lazy and unwilling to rouse yourself. If you don't have to accomplish anything, there is nothing wrong with this mood. In fact it is a good time to take it easy. But be careful not to overindulge in food or drink; today's good feelings may be tomorrow's headache! Your creative energies are stimulated, but you may lack the creative self- discipline that can turn a random outpouring of feelings into an artistic medium and disciplined art.

and

If you feel argumentative today, you might create a conflict without a valid reason. And even if you have good reason to be angry, you'll still need to be careful about misdirecting your feelings onto an inappropriate situation. Most of all, be aware of the intensity of your reactions; the sheer power of your words may stir up more than you wish.