august 1st , 2005
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6:34pm

ooooo, the season finale of hell's kitchen is on in 25 minutes :)
aren't you glad i told you?
does anyone in here watch that?
and has anyone seen that reality show called "celebrity fit club"?
holy crap, i watched that last night and there is a guy who used to be a kid on the show "8 is enough" who is now INSANE and has huge anger management issues. (oh THIS is the guy when he was young) gary buce was trying to calm you down. you know when a guy like gary buce is trying to calm YOU down, you have issues.
also the lead singer of warrant is on there, singer of "sweet cherry pie" and MAN he is going through a ROUGH time!
it's painful to watch! but if it weren't for that show, i think he would have killed himself! seriously!
they practically had to do a suicide intervention on him!
and this is just a show to lose weight!
it has to be damn near the most inetsne reality tv show i've ever seen, and that was just one episode.
i also some of hulk hogan's reality show. he is trying to do an osbournes. it's called "hogan knows best" (after the old tv show "father knows best") it's reeeeaaaaalllllyyyyyyy boring. at least from what i saw it was sooooo borrrring.
but that is good. normal life is good. but normal life does not make for a very interesting reality tv show. not if you are going to do it in the format they are. which is to try and make it like the osbournes.
yes, my name is ana, and i am a reality tv addict. i am a goner.

5:29pm

yay! i have speakers! those big gigantic wooden kind from 70's :) ha :)
i will have to paint them silver or something.
i still have yet to hook them up. it will take a lot of rearranging stuff in my room to get to the back of my amplifier so i can get those puppies hooked up!
and fuzzy also gave me a TON of vhs cassettes that they didn't want anymore filled with all sort of bizarre things.
arty stuff. stuff from the walker art center. it looks like a lot of short films.
but i also have some snakefinger live concert, larry sanders show, tracy ullman, alive from off center and other things.
this is wonderful because i do not have a dvd player anymore and i don't have cable tv so now i have something interesting to watch and if i can figure it out i can listen to it all in STEREO :)
i'm excited to be able to play all my vinyl records again :)
now if i can get a decent cassette player again i will be able to listen my hundreds of cassettes on better speakers and not a cheapie boombox.
i remember when i used to listen to music instead of watch tv.

it's hotter than a witch's tit outside.
it's one of those days where you could fry on egg on the hood of your car.
and 50% humdity on top of it.
sucks the life right out of you.

so i got these speakers up here and all the cassettes.
and now i am going to move lots of things around in order to attempt to hook up the speakers.
i need needle nose pliers to redo the end of the cable speakers because the ends of these have turned green.

went to the little store and bought pop, dog food, dog treats, beef, ramen, strawberries!
drank a red bull to keep myself going.

jason set it up so that all my gmail now fwds to pegasus.
now i do not have to deal with gmails horrid "helpful" feature which "threads" (for lack of a better word) or "compiles" all messages that come back from ONE message all together.
i don't know if any of you have ever had to deal with that so i don't know if you know what i mean.
but it's an insanely horrible feature if you are dealing with hundreds of replies to one message.
i can't believe they do not have an option to turn it off.

ok, since i have had a red bull i can tell you about the lynda barry show.
it was EXCELLENT! i only knew her from her cartoon's "errnie pook's comeek"
which was alsways in our local paper here but i never paid much attention to it.
so i didn't really know if i would like show.
but she was completely hilarious and i was laughing and smiling the whole way though which is very rare for me to do because my sense of humour is really specific and so i end up not laughing at most of what people find funny, not because i don't get it, but just that i don't find it funny because it's too obvious, usually.

backing up a bit...1st it was supposed to be at the fitzgerald theater, which is a really cute baroque theater i love that is AIR CONDITIONED. it has the grand baroqueness of an old theater, but tiny size so it's cozy, too.
but her show was moved to this prespetarian (sp?) church that is also very old but NOT air conditioned.
it was moved because of that goddamned robert altman movie , the prairie home companion thing, because robert altman wanted t use the fitzgerald theater and so poor lynda barry was moved to the church.
this was another 90 degreee day and by the time we were all packed in there, it was even hotter.
everyone was fanning themselves like crazy.
at 1st i thought i was going to lose because #1 it's hot as hell in there #2 i'm in a CHURCH, #3 i hate sitting in tiny pews, #4 i was thirsty as hell but there was no water to be found.
there was a big pipe organ in the front with a hairy trolllike man playing "cocktail" music on it.
like baroque liberace versions of yellow submatrine, which added to the surrealness of it all. he was really good!
the people handing out the programmes looked like church members, old white proper people.

oh, it's spelled presbyterian .
i had to look up what they think of gay marriage.
i guess they will marry gay people but they do not see ti the same as hetro marriage.
i don't know the specifics on that.
but i had to look it up because lynda barry had pro-homsexual sentiments in her show.
and she also started the show by saying she was all for "the rapture".
she said "i'm all for it, suck 'em up! you want go, WE want you to go! it's win/win situation!"
and for her to be standing at the altar saying this was pretty darn cool as she made sweepeing hand gestures towards the domed ceiling.

so basically, lynda barry is a pot smoking hippy earth mother with a twisted sense of humour going through menopause. (she told us she was going through menpause several times and so it must have been REALLY hot for her up there!). she also said she was rather enjoying menopause as it was like having puberty in reverse :)
i want to find more positive experiences women have with it so i am not so deathly afraid of it.

well, at the dn, she was going through her notes because she wanted to see what other things she wanted to tell us.
and she was like "story of the chicken, this and that, underpants gnomes...."

and i just blurted out in my wee little girl voice "UNDERPANTS GNOMES!"
like i had tourettes or something!
everyone turned around to see who had said this!
gah!

funny thing, too, this show was being taped, so i wonder if any any future lynda barry cd i am going to make it on there. if you here a little girl voice scream out "under pants gnomes!"
that's me :)

i want to get her books now.
they were for sale there, but i just wanted to get the heck out of that hot church as soon as it was over.

lynda barry. she rocks!

ok, off to figuure out my speaker situation....

and then at 9pm we are going to watch 6 feet under (what a cliffhanger last week!!!!) because we missed it last night.

 

4:05pm

answered about 150 emails.
fuzzy is coming over any sec now to give me familie's old set of speakers they do not use. real speakers!

1:50pm

trying to wake up so i can get a move on with today.
i feel like i'm in a food coma after going out to eat last night.
i don't feel motivated to do anything, i don't know why.
i'm not depressed i just feel like staring into space and achieving "nothingness".
my brain has been far too full lately and active.
and i just want a break from my brain and from any kind of responsibility no matter how small.
but i have to keep going and get stuff done or i will really fall behind on things, and things will pile up and then get overwhelming.
i have a big new zit on my fcae today. argh.
thank you PMS.
i can't believe it's august already. and august 8 i leave for vegas.
i feel underprepared. i hope i can get my shit together for it.
i'm sure i'll be fine. i just hope my whole face is full of zits.
i wish to god i wasn't going their all pmsy and bloated. or else i will be haivng my period.
room after room of ringing dinging slot machine with unnatural lighting is the worst when pmsing for me.
i can't believe last time i was there i was headlining the luxor.
that seems like 5 gazillion years ago.

it's 87 degrees out. i am consisdering taking back the pack of unopened crest white strips. they were 40 bucks.
amd i REALLY going to use them?
i hate sticking those things in my mouth.
mostly i hate using them because i have sensitive teeth and they make my teeth hurt.

also, am i really going to get my legs waxed?
i have to go get one of those kits?
i have never done it before.
it sounds like a massive pain.

i think i am going to have to just show up there how i look."it is what it is what it is. i can rebleach my roots. make my hair nice.
where some cool boots. that'll have to do.

i'll try to eat well the next 8 days and get good sleep and excerice every day (walking) starting now.
that should suffice.

my email is brimming to the top.
i don't want to go in there and deal with any of it.
gmail has this annoying feature of threading all replies to one email into the same email. so if 100 people reply to one of my mailing list things i will have this big long 100 reply long thing from hell which is impossible to scroll through and deal with and reply to anyone.
i can't figure out how to turn this "helpful" feature off.
it's an email nightmare.

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Horoscope for Aries (August 1 2005)

Don't take things to heart. Not everyone at home will understand what you are trying to accomplish. Focus on improvement, creativity and doing something that you believe in.

and

A positive approach *
Today you will be able to project yourself with vigor and energy and to impress others with the force of your personality. Your general feeling of well-being enables you to get a lot of work done, if you choose, or to have a very good time just being yourself, if that is what you want. Your approach to your environment is positive and active. Instead of waiting for someone else to initiate action, you do it yourself. You take control of whatever situation you are involved in and make it work the way you want it to. Of course, you may encounter opposition, but if you handle it diplomatically, you should be able to win people over to your side. Above all with this influence, you will want to be uncompromisingly yourself. You don't want to play games with people, and you demand that other people be honest with you as well.

and

You feel rather withdrawn today, making this a great day for a family cookout, a quiet day of chores around the home or some other kind of retreat. But circumstances will probably dictate a very different flow of events, leaving you somewhat disconnected from what you are doing. If you can tackle your work chores with sharp focus, you can finish them and still have personal time later in the day.